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ChinaTown !!!! No cAB

Last nite after work, i went ChinaTown to meet Qiumei.. My Deareast Primary sch frn... and also to buy the beads and materials.. for making accessories...[Learn from Va] ... and after we shop awhile den around 9.30 we are prepared to leave... But Qiumei dosent want to take MRt with me... sO.. Then we Walk Here and There.. becos.. i fickle-minded was thinking of taking bus/MRT/cab. In the end i told her i wanted to take cab home... And she agreed as.. she 's afraid that she will be very tired.. and can't finish her Work tml... So in the end we cross over tghe road and try to hire for a cab... den.. Qiumei suggested we go taxi stands.. And, It just turned out to be a very very bad Choice... COs... We Just stands there and waited for more den 1/2 hr ...
and the worst thing is when there is cab... it didn't stop at the taxi stands... instead... there are ppl whu snatched the cab.. and finally just 15 mins... b4 11 ...qiumei dialled for a cab... den Finally we can go home...

I Am a TuRtLe @_@

If you are a Turtle:

You are near to perfect and nice at heart.The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people.You, too, love peace. You wouldn't like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one's back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return.You are generous enough.Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

FooD POsIonninG - FeVEriSH

yOz.. Just CaME Back To WorK, AFter 2 days of MC ... Due to Food posIonning.
Monday afternoon during work.. already feels like having fever... but still ok...
when i reach home.. quite tired... but.. already promise va they all to go chervon sing...
den.. after dinner i went toliet once..
den after dat measured my temp... 37.7 OMG. FEVER~!
To me this temp quite high already u know.. cos my normal temp is 35 plus... 36..
Anyway i still went.. den... after dat i reach home... den i got diahorrea again... i can't be borthered..den awhile later i went toilet again...but i can't be borthered den went to slp...

Tuesday mornin, i wOke up And the 1st thing is i go toilet and diahorrea....
den awhile later again.. Omg... i think is food posioning.. so nv went to work... and continue to slp...I also dunno how many times to the toilet..already until i felt so Weak no strength to go see doc... luckly my Dearest Hwan gE ge Called me... haha to infrom me that he couldn't boOk the Court... den he heard my voice like dying mode... den asked i am slping?? i toLd him Ya... i told him i got diahorrea until no strength ..le.. den he was nice enught To oFFer to buy lunch for me... den i asKed him to bring me to the Doc...den... den after dat sent me.. back hoMe... I contiue to slp... den Dinner time... Mun Mun and Vava CAme... to visit me.. haha and Va teach me to do Accessories and they bouGht dinnEr For.. Me..hEe THanks..

Wed morning, ... i woke up FEeling Very nausea wan to vomit like dat... den my stomach is not feeling very well tOO ... in the end i need to take leave for that day tOo... den i slp and slp..
va called me.. but i was slping... den she called again at 2pm... den ask me.. if i wan lunch.. ask mun mun to get for me... anyway ... mun mun came at about 4.30 like dat.. its omost dinner time ..le.. but i still eat lor... den .. Mun mun went to meet va and FEtch her to my hus.. to do accessories... ^-^

Being romantic is not so hard!

Here are a few checklists that point the way:

A Daily Romantic Checklist
[ ] Compliment Your Partner
[ ] Compliment Your Partner
[ ] Spend 20 minutes of uninterrupted time together
[ ] Check-in with each other during the day
[ ] Perform one small--and unexpected--gesture
[ ] Say "I love you" at least three times
[ ] Thank your partner for something
[ ] Look for romantic concepts in the newspaper
[ ] Take an extra minute when kissing good-bye

A WEEKLY Romantic Checklist
[ ] Bring home one small, unexpected gift or present
[ ] Share some form of physical intimacy
[ ] Share an entire afternoon or evening together
[ ] Share two insights you gained this week
[ ] Write at least one little love note
[ ] Mail something to your partner
[ ] Plan something special for the upcoming weekend

A MONTHLY Romantic Checklist
[ ] Plan one romantic surpass for this month
[ ] Re-stock your stash of greeting cards
[ ] Go out to dinner once or twice
[ ] Rent at least two romantic movies
[ ] Make Love! (for those in more advanced relatinoships)
[ ] Make plans for a three-day romantic weekend sometime in the next three months
[ ] Plan one romantic event with a seasonal theme.

A YEARLY Romantic Checklist
[ ] Make a New Year's resolution to be a more creative romantic
[ ] Make Plans for your next anniversary
[ ] Think of an unusual way to celebrate your partner's birthday.
[ ] Review your plans for your next vacation.
[ ] Create a special "Romance" category in your household budget.
[ ] Make plans for Valentine's Day--well in advance!

WeeKEnds OUtings ~!!! nEW~ haha

[ Sat ]
Well sat i woke up quite late... and meet va at buggis Junction ... then we WEnt shoPping~ haha
ShOp sHoP sHOp~!!! i Love sHoPpinG~ Den i saw mY targetted Bag~!!!! THe ProjeCT SHop Sling Bag... u Noe How much it cost? $82.91 OMg ~~~ SO DAmn Ex.. ba... They have 20% discount... and i wanna buY!~~~~ Should be GeTting it.. sOon ~~~ haha.. WeLl dat day we also weNt around to See if there is anything For va to Change her clothes... haha told her dat her skirt Not nice..haha Finally she saw somthing and buys ... and changed..,. haha and she looks better noW... haha den we also went to take a look at the adOre bikin shop... but didn't saw anything that is nice... sad... afterdat we went to V8 Movies cafe to eat dinner... she order chicken chop.. while i ordered ham & cheeze sandwitch... haha served with apple salad and fries... hm... haha

After dinner we went buggis villiage and we both bought a watch... haha wanna see my watch?
weLL soon i will post my watch pic.. inside... After dat we went breeko have a drink Va asked if wanna meet junior... Den i suggested goin to Zee10 [a Pub]... sO we Met Junior and his frn there.. and ZiQiang came and joined us... later...and left around12.30 am.. as the next moring i need to go to OCS to visit dear... very early.

[Sun]
i woke up around and went to meet dear's parents.. as they came and fetch me.. to OCs.... haha we reach there already... den went to visit dear's bunk~and some places inside ... after dat i bit his arm.. haha for fun... as we can't hug or kiss mar inside there.. haha so i took his arm aND GIVe HIM a BITE haha leaving all my teeth prints on his arms... and tOok 2 pics with him with my phone... although i think the pics.. weren't very nice.. haha but its ok... i shall just post 1 here.. ok?

Den Got a Msg from gege regarding our ealier plan ...[Going to sentosa] weLL when we reach there is about 2.30pm.... haha as usual gege lost his way... but expected lar... can;t blame him cos it was his 1st time.. drove in to sentosa...after asking one oF the staff there finally we reach siloso beach.~ wOw... how Nice.. and beatutiful it is... we found a place and settle down. Me and gege trying hard to persuade Va to take off her t-shirt as she wore my bikini inside ...

After applying the tanning lotion, we played 'frisby' [think i spelled wrongly] and even borrowed someone's volleyball and played a while.. And we went into the sea... Haha ok summarise is :
We EnjoyEd ourself very much~ Then around evening time..... gege play the guita while we sings with the guitar...haha and i managed to record 2 .wav format files... dat we sang~ haha wait till gege Upload all the pis... and will link it to mybloggy~~~!!!

We went bathing at 7pm... and meet 'Mun Mun' [Asman] at hOlland V...~ for dinner... den after dat went breeko and Home Sweet Home~ i WAs Damn Tired.. den after i changed my clothes.. i just dropped dead in my bed~ haha

WeekEnds Outings

Hm.. well this weekend Many many happenenings..

Friday[23/09/05]

wELL last friday our team leads treat us sushi at the Sakae Sushi at Changi Aiport Terminal room. YuMmy yUMmy ~ Its a fun and enjoyable dinner with the team memebers... everyone was happy and cheerful and we joke around. Well anyway i have a fun dinner with them.

After dinner, i went to look for FY at shenton way. He went to the 2nd audition of PS. Then, i saw the how she sang not quite gd la.. infact... too soft.. and didn't succeed for the 1st round. Anyway i was very sian already cos got to wait so long for the whole thing to end. DEn after dat FY say must go and meet his cousin 1st... DEn after dat we went to MS to club.. As double O is TOo Pack, FY and me went to take a look at other pubs that is gd... den we saw this pub, i can't rem the name. But the cover charge was $15 for ladies and $20 for men... and its free-flow.. I didn't kknow until i saw the whole pub was so quiet .. no ppl.one.. den FY told me its the pub's 1st day oppenning.. Then came to this part... I was daMn angry becos... somthing.. i was already very no mood.. den now come to this pub so empty makes me very dull and bored le... Den PS was toking to her cousin and fy toking to me.. awhile later the 2 gers went to play pool leaving their bags and fy with me... but.. soon also, Fy went out to look for his frn at Mdm Wong. Leaving me alone down there..... I was like feeling so sian already and suddenly i felt i having gastric so i called FY and told him i wanna go home.. not feeling very comfortable. Then i went over to look for Ps to tell her wad happen and was about to carry thier things over after i told her.. Yet... i haben even say a thing... she cheong all the way to the bags den i follow her.. she repriminded me:"Will u be responsible if the bags were taken away?" at That time i try to explain but she didn't wan to hear... So.. i was so damn aNgry ... i went Out to call Fy. I ask him to come back at once.. to take my bag out from her bag.. i dun wanna spent another few secs to Look at her face.. and i didn't even wanna say anything i get the bag from FY and took a cab home... i was so angry and uncomfortable as my gastric arises...

What the hell.. I am NOT THERE TO LOOK AFTER anyone's BAG lorx... LEAVE me alone den... adk me to look AFTER the bags meh wad the Hell.. ANyway THERE ALSO NO PPL... Whu would wan to take the Bags away? If u ARe so worried then take ur bag with u... I was damn PIssed oFF... lorz.. I hope i beta not SEe PS again...nEVer...

NeVer Had anyone Shouted at me like this.....

Saturday

I was watching the vcds until weejia called me up and suggested we go pubs to have some drinks and gathering.. so around 7.30 WeeJia and Monkey came.. to pick me up.. den follow by shixian... den we went to Marina Square to eat Carl's Jr Burger... its was nice but very huge also... Haha inside the car on the way there somthing very funny happen.. this i better not say if not Monkey will be very paisei... well after we had our dinner we went to the 'Wu Bar' at Clark Quee there to look for va... and we play some games.. and drink ... its was fun.. too..haha hm... go out with old frns is the best... until Round 2 plus... we went off to mac... to some quiet place to chit chat and drink some coffee .. but everywhere also closed le... so in the end we went to the 24 hr's Mc at forum. After dat arron sent us home.. AFter i reach home it was 4.plus am...i went to bathe and didn't slp... went to watch the vcds until aroun 6.plus in the morning den slp...

Sunday

Gege called me around noon time.. asked if wana go out...gege came and pick me up.. and went to westmall.. to have some drinks 1st ... den i suggested to ask va out as he long time also nv sees her... le.. den after we met va... then we went to explanade there... to wait for cheng... and we took some pics... there.. Its behind the explande there. Then we took a walk there... while waiting for zhicheng...
after dat we went to Eat Ice Cream... and went to East Coast Park....

最新的news~!

Hi Friends, eh I patched back with him le.. lar.. haha cos everyone is like erm... asking me...Y so i got to post this blog am i Right.. haha sorry to make u ppl worried.. but i am fine now.. besides.. his not with me for 3 weeks cos.. he posted TO OCS and confined for 3 weeks... this comming sunday i will be going there to visit him... Then the next following sat then he will book out.

Lies LiEs LiEs aPACk of LiEs

LAst wEeK.. we Broke Off... becOs he lies to me again... i really dunno why he wana hurt me like this... i felt so hurt... anYway... I dunno when he is telling me the truth or when he is lieing to me... though after dat we pactch back again... but.. i think it will happen again.. i duno... i love him alot.. but.. i really dunno.. i just Hope he really treasures me... becos i love him... unless he dun cherish me or love me that much... dEN... maybe y not just tell me.. den we can stop wasting anyone's time.. time is very precious to me... suddenly... just rem this tOPic was many years back... Joseph Tay my very 1st Ex... he Msg me in my Pager... last time... which i told him.. ya ya i lie.... haPPY? but the Truth was not wad he say.. but becos... i wana have a clean cut with him.. dats y i have to be so nasty to him... Infact i rem... i treat him very gd... last time.. but he wasn't understanding at all... But i was glad that Jeremy was there for me.. when i very depressed... And i really wanna thanked him for being such a gd frn to me... Dats y i oways treasure my this frn alot...

wEll wad Am i To u?

wELL tOdaY's tOpiC wiLL be "wad aM i TO u?"~! WeLL thats the last Qn dat i asked 'J' dat nite in Msn. wEll maybe To him i am just a normal frn. Dat means wad eva he said b4 was just entertaining me. <Hey Frns by this time u all read until here haha i noE wad u all must be thinking.. but u are wrong... y am i so fed up by him. Is not that i still have feelings for him or wad. But if u are my close frns u ppl should know dat i am sumone whu treasures frnship, relationship alot alot, regardless or age, sex . >

To me: J is the 1st person who is so caring - dats refers to when we are in sec sch.. Dat time he is my only shelter or the only listener when i have troubles with my EX. I know he oways treat gers very gd.. dats y maybe somtimes.. i missunderstands that he got feelings for me.. after some years.. when we lost contact. THough he oways come and find me as in when he is lonely or he need someone to be there... and oways disappear after dat.. or threw me aside when he is with his buddy or rather his GF..ba [Is not wrong that u treasure alot but u dun have to be like dat right? I treasure u so much from last time.. until now.. i still treasures u alot as a frn.YEt wad u told me tat nite.. just shut my mind up.]

To J: I think i abit like ur sparetire like dat.. this is how u let me felt ... and dat nite i ask u wad am i to u... "u ans frn?" frn.. can be alot ... kind oso.. just a normal frn? hi-bye frn? or close frn? theres alot of kind.. and u are oways playing mind games.. u can ! i know u CAn. but I aM Me here.. i very straight forward person.. YES mean YEs NO means No... dun drop Hints.. or play mind games with me... last time u are like dat when we are very close dat time.. until now... u are still playing mind games.... I rem dat time u say i was ur xiao mei mei.. and wad be ur xiao mei mei gd... cos u will dotes me alot..

AnyWAy... everything will be gone.. now.. wadeva dat means alot to me.. doesn't matters already... wad eva dat should be discard... will be discard.. wad eva memories dat i have in the past will be erased. It will becom my forgotten memorries...

Coughin AGain~

Oh Sianz... i starts tO Cough Again duno becos yesterdat ate MAC anot... wEll Dear today need to Go back Camp for duty won be able tO accOmpany me TodY... sad.. case.. HoPe he isn't lying tO me ... anyway BaCk TO wOrk...

wO tAo Yan Ni!!!

sI jEREmy.....Wo TAO Yan Ni....... I TOt u say she Goin to GEt Married already.. Y still "Jiu ChaNg Bu Qing" with her? Y didn't TeLL me tHat sHe WAs THere? EVen Then Y cAn't U Tok To Me..? and VaL told me... That u HeadAage wHen u Noe I was Comming... anyway i come becos of Val nOt u.....but... Wad For Headage becos she's there so cannot entertian me?... U NOe SOmething.. FROm Last time until NOw.. u are Always Like DAt... u Bored... u Felt Lonely den think of Me... And When u ARe haPPily TOgether with ur GF or wadEVa... U just Throw me aSide.... i Knew ALL ALonG.... And YEt Swallow everything DOwn...... YET YEsterday u REmind me Of... WAD Happen Many Year AGo... DAt time when i just broke Of With Guan Yong... u keep asking me to go camp fire . I TOld u i didn't want to... cos i dun wana sEe Him... and u SAy u will accompanY me... and if i saw him i can take u as a shield... Yet... dat nite u ARe so Busy with Other ppl... didn't Accompany me.. at all.. i was Angry... frustrated... and sad...in the end i just left with others... without u,... i rem until now.. dat nite.. how sad i was.. u didn't saw it... ssl they saw it... my tears was comming.. down... now history has repeated... but the only thing is i dun have any more tears for u...... My dears are only for my boi......only...

U are always in My Mind and Heart... There used to be a very special Place in my heart... bUt... dunno from when it started... the feelings have change alot... i try to get back the feeling.. but.. everything have change... acutally i guess u dun know at all that... all these years u hurt my feelings... duno how many times... and i didn't even mention to u.. when i meet u... cos... i treasure my this FRn.. alot... but i know all along u Didn't... u didn't ... i am just a frn or maybe nobody... to u... Last nite.... I wasn't angry that ... u sO close with her or wadeva ..just that me .. as if transparent to u... aren't we frns... didn't even get to Tok to me... den i just drink and drink didn't Borther to Look at u or her... But val told me that she kept staring at me... i drink and drink ...

U let me felt Disappoinment... And rEM.. somthing tOO beCOs of her u Threw My Cranes... away.... wO taO Yan Ni!

Very meaningful reading...Enjoy.

TRUST

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust isbroken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads tosuspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity mayresult in separation.
A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. Sheanswered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB."There was still no answer. When she was goi! ng to cut off the line, sheHeard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB.Sorry, I got the number from myHusband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."
Without mutual trust, just imagine what w ill happen to the couple if thetelephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successfulmarriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for hershortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind thatbecause of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a betterhusband than you."We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid oflosing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look aroundto find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. Weshould always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the otherfour fingers are pointing at ourselves.
If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested"I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDUoffi cer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite,humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing toaccompany me the whole day at home during myleisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I needcompanion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officerlistened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."
There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blindwife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults ofthe husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the! nagging of the wife. Manycouples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetualperfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off,they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. Thenightmare begins.

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,ordemands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer alland their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, thisis not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that"It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing thespouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.
It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech willeither prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because ofwrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forgetmutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if itwould hurt the other party.
A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. Aworker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? Weused to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millio! nairehusband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wifeof a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that youmarried me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."
Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship.It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be anotherman's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,aboy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Uponhearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walkedbesides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is thehead of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is onfoot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride onthe donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can theman ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then,they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up theweig! ht of two persons. They ar e cruel to you." Hearing that, the husbandand wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on theirshoulders.
It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkeywas frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into theriver. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemnyou. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.
Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of hishome to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son washappily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran tohis son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp aspunishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finallyhad to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke upfrom the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'msorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fi! ngers going togrow back?" The father went home & committedsuicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wishto take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone ulove. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't.Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and theperformance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions wetake while in a rage will haunt us forever.

x RaY

wELL YesTerdAy niTE wEnt to See Doc agAin... tHis time ... finally Get TO See My UsUaL Doc. Dr ThAm.. cOs i Have bEEn Coughing Non -sTOp For a VEry long time and visit his clinic quite A FEw times.. this month and last month.. but the previous 2 times is a different Doc.. he Didn't Know my ILLness weLL..Ba.. the Med he gave me.. not only dosn't WorK On ME.. infacT it is WorST..... So i wENt to Find out my usual doc's scheldule ... And went to vIsit him last nite.... Den he Ask me todaY go Take an X-RAy tOday... den the REsuLTs... norMal.. lorZ.. lolx Nothing WRong.. Gd... BUt FunnY also After I ate The Med that he Gave me last nite Today i Felt Alot ALot Beter... Not Much Cough... only have Phlegm... and Abit NOse Block... OMg.. sHen Qi Yi ShENg men... NeXT time i bEtter Check His Scheldule... Cos.. If i See the Another DOc... Sure Waste $$... haha Stupid Doc.. haiz.. Anyway .. i wasted 1 Day Of Mc.. Today.. lar..

DiAmonD Ringz

hEhE fInaLly GoT my DiAMonD Ring From SK Jewellery.... i know dear not much $$ sO i chose something Afforable... Simple yeT sPEcial TO Me... haha Cos those Normal Ones.. the Ring bAnd CentER 1 piece or a DEsign With The Diamond one... i Dun like...

haha EspecaillY the Big Big DiamonD... u knOw those Big biG one in the cEnter one.. like anunTyt.... like dAT.. haha i dun like... in FACt ... i knEw i Like one are those For WEdding Couple's Weddin Rings... those type simple With 1 or 2 Small Diamond ... inside..
weLL dat one next time will gOt Chance de la..

sO in the End i Chose Somthing thats within Budget and close to WAd i wan... :)
weLL yeSterday {SAt} after Dear Book Out.. he WEnt home bathe le den came To Look fOr..me.. den after dat we went to Lot1 AjiSen To Makan... after dAt we wen To WAcH "The Maid" at Clementi.. haha Dear say its a stupid Show.. anyway i was Quite Scare to watch Those HorrOr MovieS.. SO As Usual i will hold Dear Hand and Haha Cover my FAce... So that i Can hide if it Too Scary... Yet Naughty him oways.. TRy tO Make Me SEE the HorRor part... Eee Scary...

den I tReated dear TO EAt WESTERn FooD and i Ate nothing cos .. not hungrY.. after dat went straight my Home... den SAw Mom was Cooking.. and ask her to Cook some Porridge fOr me... haha Dear EAT le ALso Not enugh sO.. He Say he WAnna EAT Too..

wOrkz - sUaY

weLL back TO wOrk on Monday.. i was So Suay.. as i found out the My account was block by the IS team as... they tOt i didn't cleared the Virus that was Found in my System... in the end i can't access everything... den i waited until end Of tuesday den solve the Problem... And Today ... Back TO My Coding... HOpefuLLy tML is A BeTa Day...! Oh ya.. and tml ... after work.. ah sen Jio me to Go Singing.. yeah.. Lets Go man.. i long time no Sings... my ONly fav hObbIe now... i love Singing... suddenly i miss alot of ppl... i miSS Xueni alot... haha nini i know u Got read my blog So must mention u... ya that day i was SuPrise as i saw Her online... hehe cos she seldom.. all omosT didn't Online FOr a VEry long tIme... i rem.. that nite.. we chat for more den 1 hr online... about somthings recently and the past when we are in shuqun during sec sch dayS... Oh u know wad... i really miss Sec sch dAys...

LasT chancE

Ya refering to the previous Blog .. about wad happen to me and dear.. he came.. fianally.
We try not to Quarel and wanted to Tok things out.. but i am still very Hurt dat time.. i dunno how to tOk to him... and all he wanted was just an assurance that i will not QuaRell with Him.. So in then WE Msg Each other.. though we are face to face to each other... In the ENd.. i was disturbing him went he wanted to go toliet to pEe ... this help to COoL our Temper abit... and later was a Hug from him that melt my Heart... he puLLed me into his arm and i started to cry again... cOs at that moment we are facing a Question.. that is How are we suppose to Solve this problem... in the end he give me the assurance that he wOnt dO it.. again... i hoPe he really treaSures..me... and dO wad he Promise... & told him this is the last time...already... or else i really see No Point in continue in such a realationship when there is no trust... and each time i try to Trust him... yet... he hurt me.... hOpeFuLLy we Can have a Future.... if not i told him i will just disappear ... and will nv sees him agAin... and i make sure i disappear... from him....
As I love him alot so i really dun wish to end our relationship becos of that stupid reason... sO deAR PLease Treaasure me... and dun repeat the mistake again.

I HaVe MaDe A Very SEriOUs Decision...

i Am GivINg hIm Last ChanCe.... if Later By 4.45am he nv COme... den Thats It Lorz... we ShaLL JusT sTOP ANd LiVE WeLL WIthOut EAch Other.... aLL THeSe WhILE I aM sTruGGLing wEthEr He is The RighT GuY fOr ME... THoUgh We have been 2Gether FOr 3 years... And IN BetwEeN wE AlSO BrOKe Up FOr 3 Months... aNd PaTch Back AGain.. THougH I kNow iTs NoT thaT he CAn't Live WithouT me... Its Just That BeCOs THat Time WE WEre Still STuyding In tHe SAME cLAss ANd i Just TreaT Him As a NorMaL ClaSSmate Or actuaLLY USe THE WoRD as "StrANger" . beCOs THat TIme He CAn Sees Me EVeryDAy .. In Sch... anD Me TryIng TO PreTend THat Nothing haVE HaPPen Between US... I DO NOt know WHu Is this Guy.... ThatS Y He can"t FOrget Me... bUt Now is a DIffErent Thing... we ARe Both GRADuated... And I have my JOb.. ANd He is In NS ... he get TO Know More FRns... INside Ns... And He Got his UsUaL FrieNds.. I BELieve If we ReaLLY break NOw or aNyttime... Right NoW... I think it WiLL ACtuaLLy Be A very Different STory from the Last tiMe... Maybe a weeK Is ENuGH tO ForGEt EVerything aBout Us... cOs He GOt His FRns... weLL For ME... is Just Back To My sInGLe Life...

PerHaPs BEing SInGLe Makes Me FeeL StronGer... When i aM with him... I May be vEry dePendent on him... MayBe I AM JusT use TO be SIngLe and I WiLL Just Live HaPpiLy... dun need tO THink Where he is ... now... WAd he doing now... Or is He Lying to me now...

tOdaY i just Went Ah Ma Huse ... Were Toking about my deacesed Father and howmy mom keep compaining.. al those THings... Even My DA Gu SAys me.. Last TIme iwas so cheerful Oways like "siaOsiAO" one... how cum nowadays See me like... sOmtimes MoODy MoOdy den Like GOt "FAn NaO" like dat... haiz... for PerSOnal Problems.. StiLL Got WAd? $$ and $$ and $$ .. mY Mom and .. aLL these TroubLes that i have i bet my dear dosen't really knows.. He Oways SAying Y aM i So "Ji JiAO" on $$ MAtters.. with him... he Didn't KNows... hoW My MOm Sees $$ and rather EVeryday eat Maggi Mee Go out With frns Try Not to OverSPent ... aLL these is tO Actaully Trying to SAve The $$ ... sO thaT when Dear Book Out we Can haVE a Gd MeaL ... Maybe a Movie or wadever... that needs $$... i know iam working... i should bother about $$ so much... but Me And brother is sharin the Elecrticty BiLLs.. and Transportation fOod? If i Dun save a little bit by bit How Am i Going to SurVive in this Society ? i need $$ to taKe dRiving liENce ... i need $$ for a House... and $$ to Marry if i wan to in the futurE.. even I dun WAnt to get Married i also wanna Buy a House And live by my Own...

aNoTher Big ProBlem is i dunno WAds the Matter With me after i Start Working my Body like coLlasping Anytime i gto diarhorrea and diarhorrea... KeEP FaLling Sick DuNnO wads WRong with Me somtimes Like very giddY like dat like wanna faint like dat... den all these day dear wasn't by my side taking care of me... i dun blame him cos he was in CamP... he can't Chose i understands ... but tOdaY he lied TO me .....

somtimes i really miss my Dad... i rem when i am sick he is the One whu oways DrAG Also must drag me to the clinic . he Knew I dosn't Like to go See dOc.... coS i oways dun like to TAke Med... but now i just gOt to force myself to Go even if i might just faint if i still carry on walking ... cos... I am working right now and must take care of my health so dat i wont need to KeeP Taking MC... working for 1 month plus already taken 2 mc... and 2 anual leave plus the 3 days compassionate leave.... i also felt bad.. haiz Wad tO dO?

Y can't i just live a simple life? had a Gd bf whu is understanding and oways there for me???
And that my DAd didn't Leave this world ? Then Maybe our Life Would be different?

hOw To TRuST hIm?

i DuNno Y i ALways Trust him Yet He... Oways DisAPpoint me.....
HOw ShOUld I CaRrY On wIth him?
wILL we Have A Future? or Maybe We sHoULd have EndEd it ... Much EalIer?
mY boDy is WEaK Oways FaLLing Sick... i hv TroublEs Which Many Dunno...
he Also DunnO... he is In NS alot Of things he DOsen't Have The TIme FOr Me..
i BarE with it... and Need TO baRe for 2 yRs... I dun Mind.. But...
wad Has HE DOne For me? I reaLLy dUnno... Lies......?

Wad i want was SomeOne WHu reaLLy UndersTands me... CAres for me...
ANd always by the side if i need him or Take care of me when i AM Sad...
we brOke Off beFOre... aNd WAd He Promises To Me... sEeMs like Dosen't applY
my HeaRt is SO PainfUL... y Must Wait tiLL u Lost SOmthing then u ReaLies the Pain
and REGret ... When u Didn't TreaSure WHen u Have it?

saMe APpliEs TO Sum1... Yesterday I hEard that he threw aWay SOmthing DAt I used My hard EffOrt tO Make ... anD rush .. It DAy and night... THough I Passed The Presnt to Him through a FRn... I REM CLearly He didn't EVen Thanked me... anD TOLd me DuE to the RestPect Of his Ex gf.. that time... he threw it away... ok loRz Wads There I COuld SAy??
MayBe All ALong it Me aLL Me MisTakeN ... aLL THe FeeLings... ANd THat WAs Meant to be Just A Bday Present... I Have Nv TOught Of being 2Gether WIth him... But just A Person I TreaSure ALot aLoT ... And aLL It TAkes to Actually Throw AWay My Wishes... To HiM...

i AM Fine Very FIne... Y are ALl the guys Hurting me like dat/? Y dO THis WOrLd Got TO be SO unFAIr? ??

Sad / xIn Qing Bu HaO

I am So Sad... he Lied tO Me AGain... beCOs of tHem.......

sO SiCK!

argh... i am So siCk... my throats is very sore and painful... i EVen lost my voice... Finally i have change my new Blog skins.. hope u guys like it... sad case my dear called me and told me he may be Sunday den book out. XianZ... hm... gege told me he was on leave for the whole 2 weeks... yesterday nite.. So i did meet him in the Afternoon... den we went to IMM to makan and walk walk Diaso ... to buy sumthings... And gege passed me the National dAy goodie Bag that i requested... hm..abit ugLy... lolx.. weLL nvm ba... anyway its free... Oh ya during just now went to my "Wai Gong" ' s wake and realised that my company scs actually sent a "hua quan" Well hm thanks to the PA miss Sharon and thanks to scs all staffs...

weLL tml nite will be a tiring nite... as there will be the ritual from 7pm all the way till midnite i guess... Yet me and my Kor are both So sicK...

Somthing happen!

Well my grandfather passed away on 15/08/05 in NUH. I recieved a call from my god-mom around 10am plus... to recieve the bad news... den... i took 1/2 day off and went to Serangoon Rds where my grandmother lived. And becos of that i got to cancel all the appointments with my frns for the whole week.

Well i am fine, thanks for ur confort and supports. And a big thanks to SCS colleagues.
But Sad to say i am so sick.... dunno what happen i keep falling sick.. haiz.. abit no morale..

I need to slP le now is 2.08am and i am missing... my dear dear.. he in TeKkong ... sad case...
And he Owed me somthing Worz...

Date of Birth Group

01,06,11,16,21,26,31 A1
02,07,12,17,22,27 B2
03,08,13,18,23,28 C3
04,09,14,19,24,29 D4
05,10,15,20,25,30 E5


Group A1
You consider love as the most beautiful thing and you
love to fall in love, but a number of your group members think that
the person they love is not sincere with them. You love to be with
your friends and you are always found to be a dutiful friend. You
can hardly control your patients, which is a very big drawback of
your nature.
The Person who is ruling your mind & heart these days is perfect
for you.

Group B2
Your dreams and ambitions are much important for you
and you can do everything to fulfill your dreams. Love is much
valuable in your life but you always search for someone perfect.
You hardly trust someone. Your friends are really important for you
but normally you hide a lot from them. You are a deep thinker you
always study the negative view as well as positive.
You can lead a happy life with a person for whom you care a lot
these days.

Group C3
You always prefer mantel decisions more then emotional
ones due to this you don't have a limited number of friends. You
consider life a very beautiful gift and you love to enjoy its
colors. There are a number of peoples who are your ideals and you
loved to spend a big part of your time with them. You are found to
be a very sincere lover. You have a perfect control on your
emotions but sometimes your decisions really effect your beloveds.
The person who has just appeared in your mind and you has
decided to forward this mail especially to him/her is your real and
special friend.

Group D4
Your always have goals to achieve and you can do
everything to fulfill the dreams of those who loves you. You have a
sketch of an ideal in your mind and you always search for that
personality. Your friends means a lot to you and you can do
everything for the sake of your friend, you a normally found to be
an emotional personality. You have a very less control on your
patients and due to this sometimes you over react.

Group E5
You are found to be a person who loves to love. You
prefer emotional decision more then mantel decisions. You consider
life just to enjoy; you are the one who is perfect to call
FLURTIES. You love to increase the list of your friends and
beloved???s.
You have a number of dreams but you never work hard to make your
dreams come true which is the biggest drawback in your nature youtake everything much lightly.

wELL sIanZ

hm.. last WeeKend QuiTe Boring... cOs keEp raining didn't really get to gO out.. only meet dear.. den rot.. until evening...watch movie at home... the WEST SIDE STOry [xi jie shao nian]
borrow from Fy... until evening went back to dear home to makan..den after dat we decide To go chervon to sing yet no rooms so we sing in the HALL.. which is very cheap but only sing a few songs...

den sunday... oso raining... until aroun 3 plus.. went tO eat some snack at panjang den went to dear hoouse and pack up... i accompany dear to buggis to buy his army stuffs.. den afterdat i accompany him all the way to pasir ris... though he say so far no need but.. iya since i also nothing to do so.. just go lor... haha think i used to it liao everyday travel from CCK to bedok... and u knoe parsir ris is only 3 more stop from bdeok.. weLL.. den after dat i meet hwan gege at buggis and he brought us [me , yan, zhiceng ] to a Wine bar... to chill out.. not bad la.. very quiet there.. very relax

StarGazer{From Cleo Magazine}

Aquarius

Work:
Around the 14th, an unusal twist could unearth opporunities, but u'll need to move quickly.
Ur dreamy mood will enhance ur creativity but u'll need help handling cash and getting anything started!

Play:
For all your zany ways, u can be incredibly stubbon! But its time to ditch the old
ways and broaden ur life - try travelling on ur Own...

MC[StomAch uPseT foR 4 DAys]

weLL FinaLLY i Went to See DOC... le... Cos i STomach Upset for 4 days Since this Monday...
haiz... sianx... Den i Went to Facial toDay... haha

WoRkIng...

hi EveryOne... hehe Long time NO BLog!!! Cos.. Tired After Work... den EVery wOrk.. lorz.. And as UsuaL Go HOMe watch TV den SLp... OPPs OMost Forget Must wait For my DeAr TO caLL me 1st... hehe... MiSS him sia... DeardEar...ai Ni O... HM... lasT WeeK Dear deAR after NS Rush HOMe ... den Bathe den came To Look For me... den We aT HOMe.. Nua the WhoLe.. daY... until evening TIMe, he Got to Leave ... COs he WEnt tO his Frn Bday.... DEn.. I verY Gd.. u noE.. haha I leT Him GO lOx... and Went to Me.. My dEarest.. Chu MeME haha at his Fav KTV puB... And ZhiQiang Was There TOO...

hM... tHen... At the KTV pub... the stupiD Jeremy... ask HIM sing dun wan to sing.. den i sing alone... haha until... sOmeone CaMes... and... haha... WELL beTa Dun say le.. haha
DEn... we sing until hm 3am.. den i wAIt for Dear to cOme... and Went home.. TO ThinK that MY dear DRank so much until he kEEPs Votmiting..! ARgh!!! ask him dUn drink so much..liao lor... den TOk Rubbish... when he reach my Home!!!

iS he mY MR right?

dat DAy a FRn of my asking me... "So hows u and ur bf, got any PLans..? " seriously i told her "NO" i really dunno at times... Cos my Guy he Can be very Gd... but he Could really PIssEd me oFF and gets My nerves ON aT TIMEs.... i hv been Waiting for him to Prove Me somthing.... dat he is my MR Right... but... haiz... disappointment aGain....
(iS hE ReaLLy my righT gUy?- dun feels like thinking Right now...) noWAdays i dun believe in ForEveR... nothing Last Forever... moRever wE were ONce Broken b4

he oways Hurt Me by his worDs SOMeHOW..!!! i am sO hurT... someTimes.. Really fEeLs very Depressed... maybe i should just be single somehow.... abit Tired with all this Rubbish... reaLLy dun fEELs like hving any relationshIp now.... Does he noe how i suffer the days without him?
my heaRt So Pain Now... {MAN VERY BIG EGO}

i nEo the Feeling is Stronger ... MAybe becos i hv grown tO be Even more independent den b4.... as i aM working now... i hv my Job i hv my work and my Frns... my colleagues....

he is the only ONe dat Make Me fEels sad... haiz.. headaChe... weLL this the Age of 21, TMl Getting my diploma CERT and Just went to work for 1 weeks and 1 day... now thinking Of... wednessday... as in wednessday i going back to work... dunno y i used to have a feeling.. goin work 5 days a weeks is very Sianz... but this is the 1st time i felt that wOrkiNg is Gd..... infact .. i dun mind to wOrK OT...lorz.... i find the ReaL World is so miserable somehow... i would rather go wOrK everyday... and i felt happy when i am working...

MAybe My minD is changiNg... though i dunno the reason... somehow or wad... i wish i could learn my things fast so that i can do the task my incharge gave me...

I HATe U!!!!

i haTe u... i haTE u I hate.. u...
u ONLY CAre about urself... u Tired... so? ME not tired ar... i was unwell somemore...NOt even CAre for me....

wOrkin fOr a WeeK Le!!!

hi EveryOne, hm... time is Fast Man... I have started to step in the social on 1st of JuLy.. And until now have been working for a weEK already. WeLL basically, the Envoirnment there is very gd and the dept i am under are actually more ReLax compare to the others. My colleagues all are very friendly and kind, and my incharge is very "xIan Qi LiaNG Mu" like a mother TO me.. :) hm... anyway she's a Mother of 2 child liaoz... den duE to the inSufficent Seats , i was sitting in betweem 2 colleagues.... though its abit cramp.... but haha 1 week only ok lar... Cos i need to wait for the IAP students there to leave.. and Today was their Last DAy.. Finally moNday can hv a GOOd PC and a GD sIT liaoz... haha.. weLL i hv been ROting for the whole weeK dOing basically nothing... Cos... they temp Give me a very lousy laPPy dat most application are not installed and it hv Low MemmorY sPace... anD Damn SLOW de lor!!!! But mean while Got look through my Database TxBook that i brought to the Office from HOMe..and the SAS ... haha well at some point of the time... i read until i Zzzz.... deN at the beginning of this weEk Chin cHin say wan to Go cheonG on FriDay den... didn't confirm with ... den today she say she Got Menses .. .. in the End Cancel... den.. Thanks.. Thomas this whole WeEk hv been senting me home.. ... hm Cos WE stasy each other..,,,.. to be contiue... SLPz liaoz...

BiKiNi QuiZ!

You Are a Sporty Bikini!

You're an active girl with a nice bod, who likes to show it off on occasionYou've tend to get a great tan too, but not from laying out. You're too hyper for that!Instead, you prefer a game of frisbee or volleyball with some hot guys you've just met.

SomethinG about ME!!

Is your birthday day 16 of the month?

Your Life
You always follow the good and the right instead of listening to your heart. Another word, you are a perfectionist. You care for every word people say about you. You often seen isolated while you are, by nature, curious and a dreamer who is ready to get over the edge to make your dream comes true.

Your Love
You often fall in love with a person who is much different from you, in age and other aspects. Your relationship grows on friendship. Love at first sight is not your style.

Dear Book out liao....

weLL dear BOOk out on SAt... den... i was supposed to be at bedok in the morning for my final unrine test at the clinic for my Body checkup.... but the nite b4 i went to sen huse to play Mj with Jiahui, and kenny ... haha the stupid kenny... dunno how to play.. den omg... 1 whole round we played for around 5 hRs...

and.. i reached home is around 4 plus... den not eungh slp... thus i nv go clinic... so in the end meet Dear after he came home... den... he was dragged by me to buggis TO SHOP!!! haha i love shopping!! yeaH... den shop until aroun 9 .30 he said meeting his NS frns also for a drink... den we rot all the way until 11 plus... den meet them at breeKo... 1 of his ns frn.. haha was lughing at another frn.. and he Do stuntS... haha penGx.. welL den went to KTV at cuppage... dat nite... after breeko... den went back.. also reach home is around 4 plus...

and This Morning his mum Called and we went to meet her for lunch... at west mall eat shushi....after dat accompany dear go home.. den see him packing.. den after dat... i went back myself... as that was not enugh time for him to sent me... den i went to lot 1 to buY a muG for my Office... haha ... and went to meet angeLa tOO.... well i got to stop bloging le... Zzz

DeAR I Miss U! haha

1st Day at Work

WeLL the nite bEfore i woRk... OMG... I CAN't SLP...
as i told my cousin... that i sure can't slp i knew it..
i was so tired dat nite... and 6 am my alarm... rang... wake up... pack up and ready to go... was out abit late... and lucky .. was On the time... well reached the bedok sation at 8.18 and boarded the Shutter bus at 8.20am... den reach the company waited at the lobby area...
and saw q few ppl same as me 1st day... cos they were holding the envlope... well den i saw they were actually distributing apples... dunno for wad reason but the ang mog was very cute.. haha
hm.... well... the ppl there were rather friendly...

ShOPPinG / MaJionG / PenGz...

weLL yesterday i went to do my hair treatment at Vincent N Daniel... after that went to WestMall and Meet my Cousin and Start my shOppinG sPree.... i bought 2 SKirts , 1 heels and a pair of sandals... after dat .. ah sen called me for a maJiong Session... and we played until 4 plus am.. and rOt all the way until 6 plus... and went to eat breaKFast den went home...
Slp until 11 plus i woke up.... den... nua... here and there... and can't really rest well... especially when i saw a missed caLL from dear,... sad case .. i must hv beeN sO tired den i didn't heard my hp rang... now... preparing to Go orchard.... tO meet Janice and Fy..... fOr dinner....

TIred... abit dun feels like going.... ...leh shit...

DreamING NIteS...

Oh yar.. REcently.. this week i hv been Dreaming... omosT every nite... den wake up Feeling so tired.. All the dreams.. very funny one.. very different but.. sure gOt dear inside...i dunno y... isit becos i miss him tOo much?? OK leh ... maybe my subconscious... Misses him... aLot... Finally tml.. his coming back.. but.. he say still dunno the time yet... saded...
den i must wait fOr him at pasir ris ...

Employment Letter / BatMinton

WELL today... i went down to bedok to sign the employment letter... and get the stuffs from the company... well from CCK - Bedok just taking note of the time of the journey... is around 50 mins.. to 60 mins... cos when i board the train from CCK is at 1.45pm i reach bedok at 2.35pm .
Den after dat i went to the hawker to eat "ching teng" . And rushed back to Home... then walk a while in pasa malam... & saw a Deck of UNO very cute is in Winni the Pooh And the frns... and only cost $4... so i bought it... Then bought 2 small hair clips... and rushed home..

Then i Eat my dinner.. and... Ah yong Called me .. i ask him to longbang me.. to gombak... and we went to play batminton. After Batminton for 2 hrs.. we went the nearby coffeshop to eat dinner... as i eaten already... i did not eat... but i ate some food without rice... and 1st time eat "tuo niao ruo" not bad nice taste. after dat i ask ding sheng and xueyi nOes how to play majiong.. anot.. den all knows.. except ah yong.. then they all came my huse... we play a little and taught ah yong hOw to play... haha

sEntoSa / Orchard Shopping / MajionG Session

-- Sentosa --
hihi i just came home not long from HarBour Front Shopping Mall... Just eaten dinner with TBG(the Beach Gang) Today went To Sentosa... TOt only a fEw of us... Cos... the rest of the guys.. all went ubin... So let me list out the ppl with us at Sentosa tOday :
1.Me
2.Ah Sen
3.Jiahui
4.WeiGuang
5.Adeline
6.Weiguang's Sis
7.Jackson
8.Jackson's frn
9.Kelvin
10.Watson
11.Terry

Ya, and u guys know wat i Took Bus 188 from CCK to Harbour interchange its so damn Long.... lor... around 45 mins... and i am so suay that indian ppl keep sitting infront and beside me... i omost fainted in the bus.... stupid lo... Den... hm.. think my skills have been upgraded abit more today... manage to catch quite a number of balls... and .. can surf better... le haha weLL neXt tEAM.... then GOT those Ang Mos come challenge us.. haha... well they are nice.. and funny ppl and... guess wad... when its around evening time... ppl from sri lanka CAme to Challenge us... OMG yucks.... and they wore "nei ku" only... and got 1 wore bedge color i told jiahui tat guy machiam naked .... haha and oh... my hand there a bit blue black... i accidentally hurt it.. i think...

-- orchard Shopping --
Sat's me and Jiayan went to far east plaza to shop....
we met 3pm at far east then shop from level 1 to the top.... i saw a bikini shop not bad...
then i also bought a white cotton shirt from Cotton Candy. And bought a milky white piece of blouse very layer one.... from ebase..... quite Cheap la...

-- Majiong Session --
Thursday nite Ah sen, Jiahui & tErry came my hus to play majiong. that Nite Ah sen lost $5 to me... den... we from 10.50pm play until around 4 plus in the morning.... den..around 6plus 7 den slp... Yet all awaken by my noisy phone ringtone by 10.30 den... after we washup we went to lot 1 for suki shushi...

Dear Went Ns / Me Working Soon

WeLL i know I long time nv blog... cos .. i wanted to Change my skin,... Finally changed a New Skin.. hope u guys like iT... WeLL my dear went Ns... liao... last thursday sent him to TeKong... hm... after dat... Miss Him..lor ...

Den funny thing is, once my frn ask me.. ur bf leh nv accompany u meh? My ans: "He went ns liao." den they will say .,... then did u cry? or u must be SO sad.... TO me is erm... ok lor...
nv Cry la... but Miss him alots lor... So far he omost everyday Called me Once lor...

den 2 Jobs For me to choose... in the end i chose the Bedok one... instead of the bukit timah... cos.. bukit timah must sign 6 months... and renewable contract... lor... the other... is take me as a perm... not back la.. quite a big and well know IT company. Today i just accecpt the Job...

tml The HR will call me .. to cofirm the DAte and time to go down sign the agreement letter... ba... SO should be start next week or the week after lo...

rOtiing aGain...

hi Everyone... long time nv BLog... again... WELL Guess my Last Blog is toking about the Job that i AccepT... WELL somthing to tELL u Guys... haha i rEjected it in the EnD... cOs ... The Pay is reallY tOO loW... sO noW still RotTing ALL the WAy and... WeLL i having Going Out... CheonG... Last WeeK FRiday with Jiahui, Sherrie , my dear and some of their frns.... anD Sunday SenTOSa at silOsO agAin... weLL this timE ROund... after that we WEnt KTV all the way sing 7 hrs... until 4.00am... PenGZ

wOrK wOrK

hi everyone... Long.. time No Blog... haha
weLL guESs my Final holiday is ending soon... i accePted a Programmer Job YesterdaY but the Pay is Damn Low.... i dunno y i accpect... but the Boss is A nice Guy.... he is Willing T?o teAch ... and maybe COs the location is at bukitbatok... thats y...weLL i will dinifientely ....MiSS my hoLidaYs... haiz... If everything is Ok... i am starting on the next Monday!.... which is 16th of MAy. Best Wishes to me ... man...
Regards ,
Irene

Back From Genting

Hi frens...hehe long time No Blog... /yeah thats right... i just came back.. and have upload the Pics... from GEnting... we didn't really Took Much Pics... COs ONly BOth OF us...

WelL My StupiD Dear... kEPt asking me TO play this and that in the ThEME ParK... OMg..
and He actuaLLY knEW that i ScaRE of HeightS!!!... then 1 DAy played SO many Roller CoasTER!!! OMG!!!

Yet I am sum1 That CAnnoT SCReAM OUT!!!! i "GeK and GeK" ... lol
Oh yAr and PLEASE NOTE thAT ... GENTING FOOD is VERY eXPenSIve... Those ON BuDgeT... PLEASE BRing MAGGI or Cup NoODLEs.. COs there Difficult to FIND.... EVEN if u find... i teLL u... ITS EX!!! lol wELL the PLsE REfer to My Links.. and Visit the PIcs If u WAnt! Ok? TAKE care DUdes!

Cheers,
Irene

Genting Trip 17-19

hi Frns... tml nite i goin genting with my bf... should be back only on 20th...
If u are looking for me... pls sms me.. :) i will get back to u guys.. when i reach SG!
Tk Cr DuDes..!

Regards,
Irene

Prom Nite

Hi Frns... hm.. lOng time no Blog!!! hehe
WeLL FinallY we Are Graduated... and Finish our ProM NIte On 9 APriL at Pan Pacific Hotel...
WeLL Its was QuitE Fun... and The PIctures... aRe UP... I will Post a Few Here... and For more of the ProMnite Pics... PLs... Refer tO My LInks... its... there!

ZhonG ShANg

wO shOu Le zHonG ShANg Yi Bu Dui Ai You RenG he Ke WanG...

taking me for granted....

i am deciding to leave singaoppore to overseas ... for further studies... and i did mention to him b4... but he tOt i am not serious... but... the Feeling is getting stronger... fOr me.. to leave....
his taking me for granted....

taking me for granted....

Treasure the one u love?

Why u dun wan to treasure me when u are with me?
Y can't u see the hurt i got from u? Y can't u just give
in when u already sees that i am giving in? Do u know
hoe much u hurt me? My heart is broken into bits and
pieces. You were the one who once destroyed the
relationship. Yet you are also the one who wanted it back.
When we aren't together, you try to show me concern,
you treat me as if u cares alot. But y when we are together,
you oways hurt me?? Are you going to wait until one day
i really leave u, then you can actually sees it?? YYY?
I told u that u were so selfish becos, you hurt me and you
are the only one that makes me feels so sad. You didn't
know did you? I felt so sad until i can't do my work properly,
i felt hurt and i am still sick and eventually i lost my appetite
completey and i didn't even for 2 days.. already. And i felt so
weak, but u keep on hurting me... You told me u were tired,
I knew but i just wanted u by my side, y can't u just commit?
You say wait till u finish your preoject, den wad about me?
I can't do it at all cos of you, you already affected me so much,
i totally lost the last gimps of strength. You promised the give me
happiness but hurt is wad u give, dissapointment is wad i get,
so do we have to really end it? Becos we are both so stubbon?
I wanted to have a nice tok with u, but u ......... u just wan to slp,
play games and.. neglected my feelings.

Why whould u hurt me so much? Hurt me so Long?

Oh Baby
Why would u hurt me so much,
Hurt me so long.
這一個人不該是我

Oh Baby Why Would You Hurt Me So Long?
Please Let Me Know……難過是你留給我的線索
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Hurt

wo ji de na shi hou ni bu rang wo qian ni de shou

ji dong de wo kuai feng xiang diao jin yi ge wu di de dong

ku xiao dou dai dian tong

　

zi cong ni shen me dou bu liu gei wo zhui jiu

duo zai wo de bei hou

qing shou li yong wen rou jiao huan le zhe yi chang e meng

　

Oh Baby Why Would You Hurt Me So Long?

Hurt Me So Long……zhe yi ge ren bu gai shi wo

　

Oh Baby Why Would You Hurt Me So Long?

Please Let Me Know…… nan guo shi ni liu gei wo de xian suo

　

mo fei wo de ju dong cheng le ni de ku zhong

cai an shi wo de suo you wo ning yuan mei you jing guo

ai yu fu de tai duo bu shi mei you xiang guo

zui yu ben de hui shi wo

Saddeness Fills the heart~

Promises Are meant to be Broken.

Question: Y?
Ans: Don't Know!

Question: Would u ever hurt someone u love alot ??
Ans: Only heaven's know!

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Jaws in Pain, Hurt, Tears.......

Just 3 words... i am hurt~!

sICK~!!!! KeNA BULLY!!!!

hm... sO sIck... siCK for around 4 days.. finallY this morning WEnt to See Doc.. and Got some med. for my flu, cough, sorethroat and antibiotics. Hm... ProJecT... FinaLLY consider 98.0% completed and lastly is to debug some eRRors and To TOuch up den... this coming weeK gOt To finish my Final Report and Presentation!!!! OMG i think must WRite ALOT aLOT..!!! aRGH... dat Stupid aSS buLLy me.. aGAin.... only knoe how to eat, sleep and play MaPle...!!! anGRY!!!

He BuLLy Me!!! / Facial /Treatment

mY dEAR buLLy me LAst nitE ... make me So SAd!!!! den i not feeling well today morning so applY paid leave... nv gO work!!!
OMG i sPENT sO much TODAY!!! haha todAY only!!!
Morning... 10am i went to facial and boughta blemish gell ~ After dat i went to Vincent & Daniel
for hair Treatment... its actually $60 my hair dresser already give me discount den i ask about the course thing,,.. She says there is... so i Pay $300 for the 6 treatments dat means 1 for $50 but i pay $260 only.. i will pay the rest the next time..

Facial = $20
Blemish GeLL = $18.50
Treatment $260
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Total = $298.50
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Omg i spent So much... hehe... weLL taKE aLOok at my treatmented hair

Lappy SPoil / LOan LaPPy / Project Contiue

WeLL wELL diD i mention that my Lappy Spoil???
haiz... so saded u know...
the Toshiba ppl told me that they changed the VGA card, mothboard and now must replace the harddisk with a new one... cos... my harddisk is not functioning well and i think sort of crashED!!!

So i went tO sch yesterday to backup and loan a lappy from mel.
Now must continue on my project and... happy that my multi-server can works....

PhOtOs UpdAted

wELL hihi hm... today is FRidaY.. hehe Last nite i had a dream i dream of a PiG.. haha DEn it stOOd in fRont of me.. as i walk near ... It fLew awAy not Wanting tO Let Me SeE it??? haha hm... DEN i exclaiMed "FLYING PIG" wOw... if FLeW... right to the SKY.. den... erm.. haha i can't rem le...

weLL hAha u'all must hv think i must be Crazy right dunno wAt craps i tOking about right.. haha its ok... anyway... i am gOing TO boREd to death...
now Waiting fOR time TO PAss den GO downstairs... to wait for baObei... hm... OPPs omsoT fORGOt.. i Hv change my photos link... tO view or download the PICS please clicl on the LINKs and under the link u can see different parts of my 21st bday celebration's Photo GallerY... ANyway i sTiLL hv some not yet posTed UP.. cos.. my Lappy hv been sent to the hospital~!!!

For those who keep On asking me who is Lappy.
LAPPY = LAPTOP ~!!!!! hahaha Opps.. paisei
/^(O_o)^\

photos links

hi everyone haha TOO lOng nv bLog le... abit nua~!!! anyway erm... i change my photo links SOON.. sO ChecK it out... for the NeW photos Links... and the new pics.. will be added SOon.. haha and and... hm.. hows my new BLOG skin? nice? haha OranGE~!!! for chinese NEw Year~!!! weLL i hv finALLy GOt ... all the gifts dAt i haD actually wishED FOr... a Digital CAmera... from Konica Minolta and MY noKia 6260

wELL recently.. abit suay .. i just send my laPPy to Hospital yesterDay ... den.. my company COm... got to uninstalled the softwaRe i'm using becos of the LiEnCe's thing~!!! Argh... SO can't dO my projeCT ... Now~!!!

21sT BdaY PicTUres

hi FRns... the PIcs have been uploaded.
Pls... visit the link below or under Photo Gallery inside my BLog link
http://photos.yahoo.com/xiaopika

haPpy 21sT bDay~! yePpi

hehe tOdaY is My 21sT birdDay ~! haPPy 21st Birthday to mysElf.. haha wELL toDAy stiLL nEEd tO go OffIce.. leh... but think today no mooD le.. haha prepare tO rOt all the Way until 6pm keke... weLL anyWAy thanks to ALL the FRns.. wHo attended my Bday CeleBration aT cHeVron.. anD thanks... for aLL the GIfts and help~ thanks.. thanks... sOoRry If I did Not hAve the Time TO enTerTain U gUys... cOs.. i Hv tOO manY guEsT thaT daY... anywAy ... I wOulD like tO thank My SeC SCh FRns... wEe Jia, WeiZhang, WenHong, MonkEy, ShiXian, Yee ZhonG, ZiAn, WenJie, KianSenG, JiaYan and JiaYi ... For my mosT WAntEd Present...
[Digital Camera] i am VEry haPpy Really.. coS... aLL of u ..dOres. me sO much... REaLLy got me a Digi cam... thanks.. ALOt. (= ^_^ =) LovEs U Guys very Much.

Then I WoulD like tO THanks My Poly Frns.. tOO wHo GaVe me a Taka Voucher $100 from the 5 gers of my class and dawn's bf and YOng :)

xIn nIaN KuaI Le

hi everyone Irene.aka xIaOaI here wishes all a HaPPy ChinEse New Year... :) very sianz today sTiLL mUst work... haiz... den... dat stupid ass didn't want to go sch say headache dunno real one anOt ... den.. now duNno wad he doing.. or where he is at.... abit of worrY say not feeling well.. just now called me say wake up liao... going home.. den i go his house his sis say he not iN.. duNno where... his gone... stupid Ass faster... call me back...

later will be going to get my BBQ food... for my chalets.. 1st time celebrate bday in chalet... for more den 50 ppls...

wah now den noe its so tiring... doing this... haha.. but no choice la.. 21st mar.. once a life time... and its actually my father last time say he will sponsor me open chalet for my 21st bday... yet ...welll though his gone... i hope to finish his will... hope... it can be a very happy event... :)

Wah... FirE on the SteAK

bDay CakE

ChEezE

haPpy BdAy JaniCE

Dex

KunCheng anD YonGhui

Janice and FenGYuan

Janice bday Last nite

wELL HaPpy Bday JAnice.... u should be So Glad that KEs is so Gd TO u... u noe?
hm... wELL long time no See u All... hahah So gd last nite.. can Meet u all.. hehe though i very last min den conifrm with u .... haha actually wanted to give u a suprise but dat stupid Fy told u.... about it haha anyway hey frns... enjOys the Pics.... u can download the pics... from the list on the left side under links.... :)

aBit Of MooDyNess

haiZ... siaNz... recently FElt... quite saDed... DAt dear can't accompany me... go ShoPPing FoR CNY clothes.... felt neglected.... haiz... dun even have Mood TO gO ouT ... witH others... and My Mom Last Nite aSK me aBOuT mY chALet And BBQ stuFFs.... abit pEK CHeY ... lor.. my dear oso NOt very ConcErn like dat... sianZ.... abit reGReted... shouldn'T hv decide to CelEbrate my 21st.... haiZ... tIREd TireD TiREd.... haiZ... hAO MEnG aR... haiz.,... DEn at Office... Oso Nothing TO dO... just kEEp on rOttinG.. onlY sibEi SiANz... haiZ... sO bored.... CAn anyonE TOk to ME???

FOr EVERYONE's CONCERN PLEASE DUN BUY ME ANY WHITE GOLD nECKlace or PEndent ... cos i dun wan u guys to Waste the $$ as... MY relaives have already Bought 1 For ME!!!
For those who wants to get me a present but no idea... can refer to my wishlist pls dun get those dat i had striked out... thanks..

The Wishlist will keep getting updated... as some of my frns.. already get those for me :)

~FridaY Hari RaYa~

My 21st Bday Celebration Details...

Dear Frns...
Please take note of the venu, date , time... i have acctually create a link inside my blog under
links--> 21st bday details..
http://www.geocities.com/xiaopika/bday/bday.html.
Please give me your soonest reply... Thanks.. alot ~!
Regards,
Irene

Last nite.. I cried again~

Eh i found the message which i post earlier its quite true...
Becos... u wont cry infront of your frns... lor..
As for me.. i usually crys in the night... Even if my bf is with me..
he may be beside me.. but... he may not know that sometimes.. i cry
in the night while he was slping....

Even if he saw that i was crying, he oso like nv care like dat...
haiz... sumtimes it just hurts me thinking so....

Last nite.. i cried again... while listening to the song "Waiting For You".
He nv told me.. where he went again.. and i hated that...

thinking of wad happened that nite b4 we patched... and during the night dat
he promised that he will changed... and... give me happiness...
yet... tears is all i hv ... recently... i felt afraid... i was afraid to love him
once again.. i had this feeling... one day we may break again...

On thinking of all these ... my heart aches.. my tears... rolled down..
my cheeks.. Everything will.. so nice.. oways.. in the beginning...
and later... everything slowly changed... All becos of his frn..
haiz.. i really duno Am i really that important to him... or its just say only
and dosent mean it...

Dear, if u ever read this blog... please... stop testing my patient and stop hurting
me... and rem... wad u hv write the testimonial in frnster,,... and wad u wrote in
mutliply... When the time dat i really couldn't take it anymore.... i will disappear...
from ur view... i dunno where i may go... but confirm one thing...
u will nv had a chance to see me again.... trust me

Why a Ger will Cry~!

If a gal cries in front of you,it means that she couldn't take it anymore.
If you took her hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
If you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore.
A gal won't cry easily,except in front of the person who she love the most,
she becomes weak.A gal won't cry easily,only when she love you the most,
she put down her ego.Guys, if a gal cried bcoz of you,please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a gal cried bcoz of you,please don't give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin her life.To my friends...

Ponder this message seriously. Don't do this to a gal,
You may regret for the rest of your life.Maybe in your life,
she's the only one that love you the most. Remember this lesson...

Shopping/KTV

Saturday
Suppose to meet the gers, mabel and dawn.. for shopping at buggis and orchard... but ... i got stomach cramps.... and i woke up tOo early in the morning... thus, in the end... i told them not feeling well and i wen to take a nap... and rest..
i slp for around 1 to 2 hrs... i think... den i woke up...

DEn... cousin called me... and says she can meet me to shop already... so evenign i went to meet her at lot 1 ... and we went all the way to buggis... by the time we reach there... around 7 le... i think... den cos at lot 1 i went to look for yan 's bday present... DEn at buggis... she bought a formal shoe and i bought a sharp pointer... shoe... haha i wanted to buy skirt but... cant find a suitable one... and cos... the shops closing tOO... den she manage to get a skirt...

after dat i accompany her eat dinner... den went to sommerset mrt to meet hwan gege...
den... we went to KPool and KTv... den... we sing until dear came... and he took over... lol den... we sing until 4 plus... denwe went home... dat stupid dear oways say no $$ no $$ den ... go rent a CAr... pengZ

The MOST important Guy OF my Life(Dear)

The mOst important Guy of my life... is my Dear (my this BF!)

hAiz Dunno is Fated oR wad... maybe its i owed him in my past life isit?
I oways asked myself... ... i love him so much, give in to him So much,
treasure him so much, oways worried for him, yEt he oways neglect my
feelings.. and keep hurting me and even lied to me... that was
beFore we had our breakup.. After breakup...

We went separate waYs... Yet he couldn't give up the relation
dat he ownself destoryed it.. and becos of some thing... we got back again
he promised alot of things but some he broke it again...
i knew... and i am sad ....

WeLL wednessday nite.... u still oWed me aN explanaTion...
I wan an ExPlanation...

import guys of my Life(Hwan GeGe)

The next important guy is ... Berneard Chua(Hwan GeGe)..
hE is my God-Bro... we are from the sec Sch tOO... he oso from
the scouts..same batch as Jeremy 1 yr older den me...
Well we got to know each other also becos of guides...

den... dat time.. we went out together... wether got others around
or not we will nv be bored... well though there was once we had
some misunderstands... and fall out with each other... erm for around
6mnths.. den got back as frn when there my god-bro WeiGe and erm
forgotten who... asked us to go sim lim together...

WeLL i oso dunno y dat time he suddenly advoid me... den... i ask him
he did not tell me... but wad i tot was he actually tot i had a crush on him??
haha until now i still dunno cos .. he got a sudden depression ... once... before
and lost part of the memmory...

But now we are still On GD Terms...
erm.. he knows my attidute and i know him well tOO we behave the same
and we oways Like to joke around... and my frns... oways tOT we look and
sounds the same.. den i will say cos i am his sis... haha and Yan ask me..
u all so good y nv get to be a couple instead...
my reply was: Erm we are too close le and dun think will hv any chemistry..

And GueSS wad Yan go ask him... TOO and she told me.. our reply was the same
HaAHaaha.. well this Guy... u dun see him like bigbig.. cute cute cheerful
cheerful one... actually when he is very stress up he will try to hide his feelings one
tO me... i dores him alot as he dores me... I treat him even beta den my own
Blood brother... until my bf got abit Jealous.. haha eh his different ok...
he dores me more den u...in many ways...

Well hWan GeGe i will oWays be therefore u... ^-^

The important guys of my life...(Jeremy)

I had actually 3 important guys in my life...

1st is Jeremy, the guy who knows me well and treat me
like a princess during sec sch days.. He taught me alot of
things like: Biology, AMaths, relationships, social ...alot
and alot but when he had a crush on me... when i was with
my 1st bf, and everytime i quarrel with my bf i will consult him
for advice.. Den...Oso partly becos of me cos his relationship
to breakup dat time... Yet we nv get together when we both
actually became single... though we fancy each other.

Well u guys know how we know each other???? Its rather dramatic,
cos i used to finds him irritating in the beginnning ... Hm.. lets starts
all over...I got to know this guy "Jeremy" through my 1st BF
"Joseph Tay"... and actually Valetia i am a guides and he is a scout.
My ex was actually a scout leader..and becos they borrowed a Tent
from me, (QM of guides) so i got to know both guys, and the tent was
said to be borrowed and signed out by Jeremy.

Den... After they borrow for months... they did not return ...
so i keep pester Jeremy for my tent. I pester him... when i saw
him during recess, and after sch omos eveyday.. and he found me
very annoying... DAt time.. we dun like each other... and Joseph
kEep dating me out.. and after 6 mnths.. we became a couple.
Den suddenly i found out that Joseph is a very emmotinal guy,
which i could not take it anymore.. as he is tOo emmotional,and
not understanding enugh... Den i suggested we broke off.. but
he didn;t wan to so i give a second try.. yet still the same den he
make me.. So sad until i got depression... Jeremy was the only one..
who actually cheered me up that time.. and i depend on him alot...

We spend alot toking on the phone together... I miss the days
i really miss..bUt we were just frns... very close frns.. But we
lost contact for a few yrs... after he went poly... until now...
though i can't find back that feeling... but i treasure this very
special guy very much..To me i can say i will nv love any guy
that much in my life.. In 1 such sense i oways say i may love
many guys in my life but i he is the most important guy of my life..

My heart has died, my tears had dried....

My heart has died , my Tears had Dried...
48 hrs of on and oFf thinking and crying...
My heart aches... my tears keep flowing ..
My eyes become swollen....

No body can understands how i feels...
so terrible... while i was at home worrying
for his safetyness, he was outside with his
frn... "chilling out"... As i called and called
he nv ans the call neither did he reply my sms.

When the dawn has break the day,
i contiue calling.. yet still no ans...
All i wanted was just an explanation...
Yet when i saw him... he did nothin and say
nothin... sometims It just hurt me so much..
on thinking that i means sO little tO him..
if 1 day he were in my shoes...will he be as worried
as me? If i am the one.. who suddenly say
i will get back to him when i reach home?

Maybe yes maybe no.... wadever... to me..
48 hrs of crying... and... confronting him...
makes me sad and sick... Last nite i tot of my father
again... I dreamt that he was alive...
he will be at my 21st bday party... Preparing
everything for me. Suddenly i know y i keep missing him
cos only my father... knows my temper.. understands
me well though his not rich.. and was working very hard
for $$ yet when i once told him dat i wanted to go take driving
course, he say go ahead, if he had enugh $$ he pay for me...
if not he shared the cost with me.. cos he knew i hv some little
savings.

Suddely, i feels like toking about the important guys of my life...
Please read on to find out...

papa wo heng xiang ni...

Dear father,
I miss you so much... its been a yr plus dat you left us...
Dunno y recently i keep thinking about you ... and that incident.
Excatly 1 month from now... i will be celebrating my 21st
bday... at chalet.. this is actually wad you hv promised to give
me when i bother u for a bday party when i was 19 i think...
And now i am trying to have one... to fulfill what you had said
b4. PaPa wo heng xiang ni... xi wang ni zai tian you lin neng
bao you wo meng...And hope you can rest in the peace.
From ur xiao nu er,
Ai Ling

My heart is so fagile, Yet u Oways hurt it...

Last nite sum1 told me... he reach home.. will msg me.. yet he didn't
i knew he went out with those "frns" and... i called and called he nv ans... den i got so worried... cos he told me he sending order,m i scared he might met an accident... frm 1.30pm... i called and msg him... he nv reply... all the way until this morning... Den i felt very hurt when i know where he was last nite... Maybe he didn't wan me to be unhappy cos i dun like him with dat group of frns... but pls.... u know how worried i was?? i whole nite worried and didn't had any slp... and felt so bad... and keep crying.... den i just woke up b4 my alarm actually rings... and wake up having a terrible headache....... and felt very giddy... as i walked to the toliet... i omost fainted.... inside my mum's room... den i went back to my room and lie on my bed.... when it was aroun 8.30am i woke up feelin abit beta ... den bathe and took a cab to oFFice.... i keep feeling wan to vomit... in the morning... now... beta le.. And.. when i went to office... i msg him in msn yet... he didn't reply... den say..hp no batt... ask me dun call... and when i asked about last nite... he say i wan to pick up a fight with him isit... i felt... so saddened... and he dunno how worried i am ... until i sick... and on the spot in office... still weeping... while i was doing my project... den lunch as usual i nv really eat... just a sandwitch, cos i was on diet... den... stay in offce to eat as waimun didn't eat with us... but later we still go find him to chit chat awhile and had a small puff... after toking... abt some other topics... i felt much betta... oh... ya and just now i actually went to the toliet and cry... while tokin to xinyi... about how hard i was feeling... and dat i felt so sick... yet no body cares.......