My heart has died, my tears had dried....

My heart has died , my Tears had Dried...
48 hrs of on and oFf thinking and crying...
My heart aches... my tears keep flowing ..
My eyes become swollen....

No body can understands how i feels...
so terrible... while i was at home worrying
for his safetyness, he was outside with his
frn... "chilling out"... As i called and called
he nv ans the call neither did he reply my sms.

When the dawn has break the day,
i contiue calling.. yet still no ans...
All i wanted was just an explanation...
Yet when i saw him... he did nothin and say
nothin... sometims It just hurt me so much..
on thinking that i means sO little tO him..
if 1 day he were in my shoes...will he be as worried
as me? If i am the one.. who suddenly say
i will get back to him when i reach home?

Maybe yes maybe no.... wadever... to me..
48 hrs of crying... and... confronting him...
makes me sad and sick... Last nite i tot of my father
again... I dreamt that he was alive...
he will be at my 21st bday party... Preparing
everything for me. Suddenly i know y i keep missing him
cos only my father... knows my temper.. understands
me well though his not rich.. and was working very hard
for $$ yet when i once told him dat i wanted to go take driving
course, he say go ahead, if he had enugh $$ he pay for me...
if not he shared the cost with me.. cos he knew i hv some little
savings.

Suddely, i feels like toking about the important guys of my life...
Please read on to find out...