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I am so tired ... feel very restless.. and no mood no passion in anything..had a small disbute with mom ytd... went to V's coy today to interview.... den we went to pub.. drink.. now just home.. y am I crying?? I dunno.? i really dunno.. All I felt now is pain....tears just flow non-stop... Y?
Y can't I stop all test pain? i dun understand? y? Ho long can I cry? How long can I strive? I dunno ... I really dunno.. How long do I need to sTop ... How can i Forget wadever dat have happen? How Can I overfcome all the fears dat I have? I am in a cave myself Again.. where no ppl can enter.. y?
dun asK me.. i dunno.. i dunn want to know... I dun feel any warmth here.. sOMtimes just how i wash.. father is here.. whever I cry.. father is there.. to pacified me.. where is he now.. y father is not here :( Y?