DiAmonD Ringz

hEhE fInaLly GoT my DiAMonD Ring From SK Jewellery.... i know dear not much $$ sO i chose something Afforable... Simple yeT sPEcial TO Me... haha Cos those Normal Ones.. the Ring bAnd CentER 1 piece or a DEsign With The Diamond one... i Dun like...

haha EspecaillY the Big Big DiamonD... u knOw those Big biG one in the cEnter one.. like anunTyt.... like dAT.. haha i dun like... in FACt ... i knEw i Like one are those For WEdding Couple's Weddin Rings... those type simple With 1 or 2 Small Diamond ... inside..
weLL dat one next time will gOt Chance de la..

sO in the End i Chose Somthing thats within Budget and close to WAd i wan... :)
weLL yeSterday {SAt} after Dear Book Out.. he WEnt home bathe le den came To Look fOr..me.. den after dat we went to Lot1 AjiSen To Makan... after dAt we wen To WAcH "The Maid" at Clementi.. haha Dear say its a stupid Show.. anyway i was Quite Scare to watch Those HorrOr MovieS.. SO As Usual i will hold Dear Hand and Haha Cover my FAce... So that i Can hide if it Too Scary... Yet Naughty him oways.. TRy tO Make Me SEE the HorRor part... Eee Scary...

den I tReated dear TO EAt WESTERn FooD and i Ate nothing cos .. not hungrY.. after dat went straight my Home... den SAw Mom was Cooking.. and ask her to Cook some Porridge fOr me... haha Dear EAT le ALso Not enugh sO.. He Say he WAnna EAT Too..

wOrkz - sUaY

weLL back TO wOrk on Monday.. i was So Suay.. as i found out the My account was block by the IS team as... they tOt i didn't cleared the Virus that was Found in my System... in the end i can't access everything... den i waited until end Of tuesday den solve the Problem... And Today ... Back TO My Coding... HOpefuLLy tML is A BeTa Day...! Oh ya.. and tml ... after work.. ah sen Jio me to Go Singing.. yeah.. Lets Go man.. i long time no Sings... my ONly fav hObbIe now... i love Singing... suddenly i miss alot of ppl... i miSS Xueni alot... haha nini i know u Got read my blog So must mention u... ya that day i was SuPrise as i saw Her online... hehe cos she seldom.. all omosT didn't Online FOr a VEry long tIme... i rem.. that nite.. we chat for more den 1 hr online... about somthings recently and the past when we are in shuqun during sec sch dayS... Oh u know wad... i really miss Sec sch dAys...

LasT chancE

Ya refering to the previous Blog .. about wad happen to me and dear.. he came.. fianally.
We try not to Quarel and wanted to Tok things out.. but i am still very Hurt dat time.. i dunno how to tOk to him... and all he wanted was just an assurance that i will not QuaRell with Him.. So in then WE Msg Each other.. though we are face to face to each other... In the ENd.. i was disturbing him went he wanted to go toliet to pEe ... this help to COoL our Temper abit... and later was a Hug from him that melt my Heart... he puLLed me into his arm and i started to cry again... cOs at that moment we are facing a Question.. that is How are we suppose to Solve this problem... in the end he give me the assurance that he wOnt dO it.. again... i hoPe he really treaSures..me... and dO wad he Promise... & told him this is the last time...already... or else i really see No Point in continue in such a realationship when there is no trust... and each time i try to Trust him... yet... he hurt me.... hOpeFuLLy we Can have a Future.... if not i told him i will just disappear ... and will nv sees him agAin... and i make sure i disappear... from him....
As I love him alot so i really dun wish to end our relationship becos of that stupid reason... sO deAR PLease Treaasure me... and dun repeat the mistake again.

I HaVe MaDe A Very SEriOUs Decision...

i Am GivINg hIm Last ChanCe.... if Later By 4.45am he nv COme... den Thats It Lorz... we ShaLL JusT sTOP ANd LiVE WeLL WIthOut EAch Other.... aLL THeSe WhILE I aM sTruGGLing wEthEr He is The RighT GuY fOr ME... THoUgh We have been 2Gether FOr 3 years... And IN BetwEeN wE AlSO BrOKe Up FOr 3 Months... aNd PaTch Back AGain.. THougH I kNow iTs NoT thaT he CAn't Live WithouT me... Its Just That BeCOs THat Time WE WEre Still STuyding In tHe SAME cLAss ANd i Just TreaT Him As a NorMaL ClaSSmate Or actuaLLY USe THE WoRD as "StrANger" . beCOs THat TIme He CAn Sees Me EVeryDAy .. In Sch... anD Me TryIng TO PreTend THat Nothing haVE HaPPen Between US... I DO NOt know WHu Is this Guy.... ThatS Y He can"t FOrget Me... bUt Now is a DIffErent Thing... we ARe Both GRADuated... And I have my JOb.. ANd He is In NS ... he get TO Know More FRns... INside Ns... And He Got his UsUaL FrieNds.. I BELieve If we ReaLLY break NOw or aNyttime... Right NoW... I think it WiLL ACtuaLLy Be A very Different STory from the Last tiMe... Maybe a weeK Is ENuGH tO ForGEt EVerything aBout Us... cOs He GOt His FRns... weLL For ME... is Just Back To My sInGLe Life...

PerHaPs BEing SInGLe Makes Me FeeL StronGer... When i aM with him... I May be vEry dePendent on him... MayBe I AM JusT use TO be SIngLe and I WiLL Just Live HaPpiLy... dun need tO THink Where he is ... now... WAd he doing now... Or is He Lying to me now...

tOdaY i just Went Ah Ma Huse ... Were Toking about my deacesed Father and howmy mom keep compaining.. al those THings... Even My DA Gu SAys me.. Last TIme iwas so cheerful Oways like "siaOsiAO" one... how cum nowadays See me like... sOmtimes MoODy MoOdy den Like GOt "FAn NaO" like dat... haiz... for PerSOnal Problems.. StiLL Got WAd? $$ and $$ and $$ .. mY Mom and .. aLL these TroubLes that i have i bet my dear dosen't really knows.. He Oways SAying Y aM i So "Ji JiAO" on $$ MAtters.. with him... he Didn't KNows... hoW My MOm Sees $$ and rather EVeryday eat Maggi Mee Go out With frns Try Not to OverSPent ... aLL these is tO Actaully Trying to SAve The $$ ... sO thaT when Dear Book Out we Can haVE a Gd MeaL ... Maybe a Movie or wadever... that needs $$... i know iam working... i should bother about $$ so much... but Me And brother is sharin the Elecrticty BiLLs.. and Transportation fOod? If i Dun save a little bit by bit How Am i Going to SurVive in this Society ? i need $$ to taKe dRiving liENce ... i need $$ for a House... and $$ to Marry if i wan to in the futurE.. even I dun WAnt to get Married i also wanna Buy a House And live by my Own...

aNoTher Big ProBlem is i dunno WAds the Matter With me after i Start Working my Body like coLlasping Anytime i gto diarhorrea and diarhorrea... KeEP FaLling Sick DuNnO wads WRong with Me somtimes Like very giddY like dat like wanna faint like dat... den all these day dear wasn't by my side taking care of me... i dun blame him cos he was in CamP... he can't Chose i understands ... but tOdaY he lied TO me .....

somtimes i really miss my Dad... i rem when i am sick he is the One whu oways DrAG Also must drag me to the clinic . he Knew I dosn't Like to go See dOc.... coS i oways dun like to TAke Med... but now i just gOt to force myself to Go even if i might just faint if i still carry on walking ... cos... I am working right now and must take care of my health so dat i wont need to KeeP Taking MC... working for 1 month plus already taken 2 mc... and 2 anual leave plus the 3 days compassionate leave.... i also felt bad.. haiz Wad tO dO?

Y can't i just live a simple life? had a Gd bf whu is understanding and oways there for me???
And that my DAd didn't Leave this world ? Then Maybe our Life Would be different?

hOw To TRuST hIm?

i DuNno Y i ALways Trust him Yet He... Oways DisAPpoint me.....
HOw ShOUld I CaRrY On wIth him?
wILL we Have A Future? or Maybe We sHoULd have EndEd it ... Much EalIer?
mY boDy is WEaK Oways FaLLing Sick... i hv TroublEs Which Many Dunno...
he Also DunnO... he is In NS alot Of things he DOsen't Have The TIme FOr Me..
i BarE with it... and Need TO baRe for 2 yRs... I dun Mind.. But...
wad Has HE DOne For me? I reaLLy dUnno... Lies......?

Wad i want was SomeOne WHu reaLLy UndersTands me... CAres for me...
ANd always by the side if i need him or Take care of me when i AM Sad...
we brOke Off beFOre... aNd WAd He Promises To Me... sEeMs like Dosen't applY
my HeaRt is SO PainfUL... y Must Wait tiLL u Lost SOmthing then u ReaLies the Pain
and REGret ... When u Didn't TreaSure WHen u Have it?

saMe APpliEs TO Sum1... Yesterday I hEard that he threw aWay SOmthing DAt I used My hard EffOrt tO Make ... anD rush .. It DAy and night... THough I Passed The Presnt to Him through a FRn... I REM CLearly He didn't EVen Thanked me... anD TOLd me DuE to the RestPect Of his Ex gf.. that time... he threw it away... ok loRz Wads There I COuld SAy??
MayBe All ALong it Me aLL Me MisTakeN ... aLL THe FeeLings... ANd THat WAs Meant to be Just A Bday Present... I Have Nv TOught Of being 2Gether WIth him... But just A Person I TreaSure ALot aLoT ... And aLL It TAkes to Actually Throw AWay My Wishes... To HiM...

i AM Fine Very FIne... Y are ALl the guys Hurting me like dat/? Y dO THis WOrLd Got TO be SO unFAIr? ??

Sad / xIn Qing Bu HaO

I am So Sad... he Lied tO Me AGain... beCOs of tHem.......

sO SiCK!

argh... i am So siCk... my throats is very sore and painful... i EVen lost my voice... Finally i have change my new Blog skins.. hope u guys like it... sad case my dear called me and told me he may be Sunday den book out. XianZ... hm... gege told me he was on leave for the whole 2 weeks... yesterday nite.. So i did meet him in the Afternoon... den we went to IMM to makan and walk walk Diaso ... to buy sumthings... And gege passed me the National dAy goodie Bag that i requested... hm..abit ugLy... lolx.. weLL nvm ba... anyway its free... Oh ya during just now went to my "Wai Gong" ' s wake and realised that my company scs actually sent a "hua quan" Well hm thanks to the PA miss Sharon and thanks to scs all staffs...

weLL tml nite will be a tiring nite... as there will be the ritual from 7pm all the way till midnite i guess... Yet me and my Kor are both So sicK...

Somthing happen!

Well my grandfather passed away on 15/08/05 in NUH. I recieved a call from my god-mom around 10am plus... to recieve the bad news... den... i took 1/2 day off and went to Serangoon Rds where my grandmother lived. And becos of that i got to cancel all the appointments with my frns for the whole week.

Well i am fine, thanks for ur confort and supports. And a big thanks to SCS colleagues.
But Sad to say i am so sick.... dunno what happen i keep falling sick.. haiz.. abit no morale..

I need to slP le now is 2.08am and i am missing... my dear dear.. he in TeKkong ... sad case...
And he Owed me somthing Worz...