very hurt....

i'm so hurt very hurt... no words can explain my feelings... now..
1 moment he was so sweet the next moment he .. was so cruel ... dat nite i was at his playground sitting there ... under the rain... i felt the coldness.. in the nite.. the pain from my heart ... i felt do hurt..... very hurt...

他还是不懂
曲：王志平 | 词：徐世珍 | 编：
要说什么 杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪
天寒地冻 是不是到了 爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门 他没有来拉住我

他还不懂 还是不懂 离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是 我要来的温柔

他还不懂 永远不懂 一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

要用什么融化这一片沉默 在四周的冷空气里叹息
化成烟飘走过去的种种 在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话 泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多 是不知道我要什么

他还不懂还是不懂 离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是 我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂 一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我

都是背了太多的心愿 流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多 心也有坠毁的时候

他还不懂 还是不懂 离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是 我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂 一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我 在第一时间拯救我

aNGRy

sI Zhu cHOu Zhu onLy nOe hoW to Make me ANgRY...
ForEvER is i Got to WaiT foR hIm... hE Will Nv WaiT fOr me... onE..
waIt For his Call... wait For Him to COme... wait for him EVen in GAMe..
veRy sADded leh like DAt...
y Oways am i The One whu WAits... Can'T he be the one whu waits for mY caLL... wait for me... wait .... wait wait
!!!! ARGH!!!! ANGRY

hAppY (=^.^=)

ToDay i vERy haPpy Cos.. YestERDAy my DeaR dEAr... he Off dAy comE anD aCComPanY.. me.. but i CAlled him the whole day... he 4pm den WAke Up... call his husE ask his Sis to wakE him up.. he ASk his Sis to SAy he cannot wake Up... *huMp* make me ANgry onlY.. den i Bo ChAP lor.. hack caRe lor... den he suddenly call me.. den hAlow oso nv Say den SinG Song... haha stupid Pig... he SAng the F4 jErry yan's Song.. "Wo Shi Zhen De ZhEn De Heng Ai ni" haha i find he a bit stupId.. lol but i like it haha den after he finish the song he hang up the phone.. io called him and scold him craZy... haha den he SAy he tired ask me GO his huse look for him.. den i say ok lor... den i went to his place and waited for him and we went QuEEnsways shoPping centre... walk walk... den after dat when EAting at GinZa plaza's opp Market den Go home... watch Tv... den watch Movie Ju'ON but he falls asleep aS Usual really very Piggy leh... later He waKe up... and "Sa JiaO" haha den i ask him y today u "so Nian Wo" he say cos he going Home Soon... den i unhappy le.. i TOld him i wanted him to Say.. and say u go home den i goin out ... den he say ok he stay but i must find some food for him lol cos he hungry... 1st Time... he StayS for my Stake... cos.. we uSEd to quaRRel... cos he Say he want to Go home slp ANd EAT cos his moM cOok his DinnER... stupiD eXcuse... cos he always go out wif his friends... until very late... and nv EAt osO wad... to be contine...

hm... Den today we woke up arond 1 plus... and went to gombak eat den go his huse.. i bought straits times.. to look for work.. not much.. job available.. leh.. so sAd.. den later i went Je for interview.. they ask me go tml interview again so sianz... for clinic job.. after dat i called my godbro hwan gege and ask him out..
i went to west coast look for him den we went to pasir panjang for dinner and.. went ginza play pool awhile den i waited for a primary sch frn "Qiumei" and meet her to chat awhile den when home...

dOgGiE

ai zai xin zhong nan kai kou

ai zai xin zhong nan kai kou
zhi yuan ni neng ting de tong
yi zOu tOu ye bu hui tOu
xin tong xin sui tOu shi wO

SUnday nite i am working in sunctec... as usual i woke up late and late for work...
It was jiayi's birthday my sec school classmates. WeeJia called me and told me about their plan on how they going to celebrate ... they coming to sunctec to eat swizzle.
i told him i was working and go there meet them a while.. and after dat they waited until i finish my work at 9.30pm and meet them... and we went to explande. We found a place and we tok about alot of things... then i and jiayi tok abt relationships... den after a tok wif her i thought of alot of things... that she mention... she says last time a relationship is only about i love u ... u love me.. now... as times flys ... as we grows... everything changes... does he really can give U happiness? if he always hurts u y dun u think of giving up? she asked me... didn't u think of giving up? i told her its diff to "fang xia zhr duan gan qing" ....COs i really love him alot...

But i agreed with wad she says... when times goes by... being together is still Love? or just a HabbiT? There is nOoNe can really anS this Question...

I had alot of thoughts after that ... i always felt this terrible feeling that i wanted to teLL him alot of my troubles... but i just dunno how to say out to him.... he also dun have anythings to tell me... sometimes... i really feels very sad about it...

sadded

wo heng shang xin....actually i feels that no ppl care for me ... not even my dearest.
he didn't hv any time for me... to him its that i'm the one whu always keep borthering me.... somtimes.. it really makes me feels so hurt... i just wqan some attention from him... but his always busy with his job... his friends... his game... wad am I tO hIm... i really duNno.. he Often breAks... my heart... I bEt he Dun EveN KNoW...