3rd Day Of school..

Phew lucky today not late. But a very boring day today cos moring 3 hrs for 1 module and afternoon oso 3hrs.. But cos we didn't have our notebook with us so Mr gerry cheong decided to let us off early. Den Mabel took bus 67 with me cos she going to her sec sch for NPCC today.. but she says still early so we went to LOT 1 shop shop awhile and den she stomachache lol GO "pOoPoO" while waiting for her i was browing outside the Lot 1 somone called me and when i turned around i saw Angela.. After dat we bought drinks at coffebeans and we found a place and sit there to chit chat... We tok alot.. but mostly is about my breakup and she told me she read my blog and saw the picture of Christ. She tOld me he is very handsome.. I tOld her how i felt about him tat i felt he is not serious one lor... but he called me last nite... and tok to me.. and today when our class ended.. he told me if he really nOt serious he Wont caLled me once he is frEe.. lor sO i told him... Let the Time tO shOw.. lor.. Cos i Told him Right nOw i REaLly just wan to Be SingLe..

2nd Day Of SchooL(KTV)

ToDay i was Late for sch so in the end i got to take a cab down and when i reach there i got to run up its at lEvel 6 i didn't know there was lift, cos its a new building. Then when i reach there.. i sianz 1/2 ... hm WeLl the during the 2nd class i got to know some new classmate and i even tOok a Picture of our team members :) !!!

After our class we went KBOX at Lot1. PeOpLe who went there are: Grace, Yijun, Xinyi, Ah Sen, SaM, Ah Si, and Me. We sings from 2pm all the way until 9plus going 10pm...
(Xinyi, Sam & Ah Si) They went off around 6plus...

Ah Sen/Sam


Ah Si

1st Day sch / Orchard Shopping / Suntec(TirED)

Well today is the 1st day we when back to sch. Was abit unwell today dunno y? Haiz, just sianz TUo.. Den i nv look at him, still dunno how to react if we really look at each other.. gUess musT wait until thERe's a day one of us will tok to each other again. But maybe not time yet...I dun wan to give him the feeling dat i still like him or anything.. I nEed time to HeALs.. tOo hAiz.. If he come and tok to me i will tok back one lor.. i wont be like him avoid ..i dun believe in avoiding one. ANyway hm... i'm still haPpy that i got my GErs wif me. HeRE ARe Some Pictures We Took in CLasS.. I was quite tired didn't really pay attention to the lecturer cos i nv slp last nite close oso nv close eyes awhile so i lie down there rest a while.

Me/YiJun/Dawn


Grace/Mabel/Xinyi


Our LessOn for today last for only 12noon after dat we when orchard Eat and shop.. I meT Janice after i finish Eating... This Dumb Ger say want to bring me GO duNno whERe Eat FrEE high TeA in the end when i SAw her she say she nv bring the CoUpon. Then she accompany me to taka there to collect my cosmetic make up set.. and paid for the remaining balance. After dat we went cinelexiure to shop and she wanted to EAt plasta manial ....

Janice Eating her Pasta


She bought a tank toP i chooSe wan... quite nice and sWeet but abit tOo ex for me... Den we went to hEeRn.. I bought an orange shorts for beach from 37degree tO match my bikini ... for $15 bucks... ok lar.. under offer still lo....

After dat we wen to suntec to meet janice frn name Guo rui. den i bought a halter pink one $13 bucks from topshop and Ebase a 3/4 pants..

halter


Shorts


now should be broke so tired ... i doing facial mask and doing hair treatment.. now going Wash oFF and sZz

My Last Day of Holiday~!

I went for my modeling training at 2.30pm i went out too late so in the end i too a cab there reach there around 3.05pm. TOday the instructor show us the makeup demo. And we learn how to put on the makeup for those photoshots. Today the class ended quite early den hwan gege call me say wanna meet me.. SO after my class i called him and he was with zhicheng at Heern. Then i went to find him today den it looks to me he seems quite troubled.. den he told me he got a news to break. I hv guEssed .. he must hv bReak uP with his gf den i ask him he say i clever ger. HAi den he whole day sian sian lor i try to cheer gege he still sianz i See le oso sadded. Hai hope he can get over soon. Den after dat i meet fy and janice .... They say wan to go KTV with me and my frn(Jansons) know him from the KTV session dat Christ. In the end they say too many ppl there and they go there a while only so they went home. Then i get to know Candy, Shi Hao & Marcus.. They were nice ppl... Then Candy's bf came and quarrel with her. We accompany her.. lor cos heard he got beat her b4 so abit scare... haiz.. haiz.. sadded Y guys always So vOilent. After dat we all went Ang Mo Kio to Eat... After dat Candy and Marcus went home den i went to Janson huse cos i nEed to gO tOliEt hEehEe (very urgEnt)haha i hATe haWker's Toliet Dirty...lar den we WaiTed tIll Shi Hao Came.. and den Rot awhile den i hungry den... we went to EAt... den after dat they send me home... And Shit i CAn't slp... den in the end i chat on the phone with Jansons until now... i going prepare to GO the Sch .. le....hEe a SLpLess niTeZ ~!!!! HopE TOdAY is A GD DAy FOr me man.. ! ChEErS (=^-^=)

SEnTOsa:(Bad MOoD Day)

Today wasn't a GooD dAY fOr me...haiZ by right go sentosa should be happy but only 4 of us went there so its abit sianz...lor..but the pictures we tOok sOme ARe Quite nice..DEn haiZ.. my seC scH frns aT 1st SAy coming to My huse TOn.. den Last min say CancEl... wah Sianz.. if thEy saY eaRLiER i might Not be HOMe rite noW.. surE gO out.. one.. now i AT homE siAnz.. SiaNz.. DEn EVonne Call me.. tELL me abouT the CLinic Job... haiZ.. sAy i Not ExpERieNce EnuGH THanks.. leh. reALLY thankx.. lor.. i hv noT bEEn WOrking For CLiniC FOr SO LOng.. aLready.. lor.. ANd its nOT thaT i REaLly NeEd DAt JOb itS sO fAR fOr me To TRaveL to WooDLands.. there.. thAT suPid 888 plaZA... lor..
hAiz... TOday REaLLy Bad MooD.. nothing GoEs SmooTHLy FOr me... So Saded..
Me/Janice


In The Sea


FengYuan & Yuming


ChEeZe!!!

ThEse piCs aRE actually Taken on last wEek when Janice they all came oveR my huse Wednesday, June 16, 2004



Contiue...

TrUe Or DaRe SessIon aT mY huSe... hEe

SaKe sUsHi/shOpinG/KTV

wEll tOday Is a Very Busy dAy foR me.. i was hving hangOVers cos last nite at china black drank tOo muCh abiT seh..anD tOday I mEeT mAbel,yiJun & dAWnie (PolY ClassMates)for lunCH aT whEeLocks Place SaKe SuShi. JaniCe came Wif me Too. BuT we sit separaTE table cOs the 3 of them wans eat buFFet.







After dAt We Went ShOpping...We Went to ManGo ... inside got discOunT we WEnt in but nv buy anything COs.. alot of ppl inside and is dAmn hot.. after daT we went Far East Plaza. shOp fOr whOle Day i boughT an OranGe Bikini FOr only 23.90 bucks ChEap aT Offer Rate.... but VEry Bright and JaniCE bought a Halter tOp...AFter dAt we Went To KTV at nitE with Donny they ALL..

Me with ah buang



Me and JJ


Me and Janice



Left To Right(Ah Buang, JJ, Condrad, Donny, Ah Sai)

hm siAnZ

weLL thE Last 3rd day b4 sch reoPen, last nitE i Brought xiaorong to China bLaCK.. and yanyi and yanren was there... last nite starting is techno and retro...and later is rNB hiphop house music.. dat stupid XiaoRong duNno WAd shE order sOmthing sO swEet yet its very Strong.. reALLy drink le (for those whu dun really can drink) will "seh" one.. i can fEEl the kick but still ok...dance dance dance haiz... tOo bad Christoper wEnt NS if he can go tOO but anyway he hates clubing.. do forget it.. eveN becoS of clubbing we went in to a small argument. On wednesday nite after the KTV i we went to eat ... on the way... there.. rong send me sms says want me to bring her go clubing den christ saw already.. dunno wad "21#!@#@#$" word he say den i say"u SAy that again" and he say "its true i dun like gers to cheong lor" i told him repeat dat again.. den at 1st he was holding my hands.. den i pull away ... after he says that and i walk away in a faster speed... its like he isin't my stead lor he just woo me only... not rights to stop me..
even my EX he dun EVEn GIve a DAMmn CAre abouT whERE i am GOing... so i walk and walk den i know dat its bad for me to just walk away like dat throwing him there... and his frns were there tOo but cos.. i dun like his that Attitude... but after dat he came after me and ask me am i angry wif him i say no .. did i look like angry he say i am..
and he just pull me into his arms and he say "sorry,sorry"..well he is sweet and handsome...but i noe dat rite now i just wan to be single... i dun wan anymore hurt from anyone anything ... hai now i got abiT of hang Over sO tirED later still got to mEet Dawn mabel and yijun(my poly classmates)weLL i heard that grace broke off with weijian le..haiz.. sAded... for her..
i dun understands... y can't guys.. think more and cherish wadever they hv now?

tIRed... sIck verY siCk...gastrIc..hai...

hai now is 10.43am wednesday morning...i hv been coughing this few days after dat day i went to china black .. and drank tOo muCh... i got gastric pain this few days tOO yesterday one.. is a very serious one... 1 whole day.. my hus already no more gastric pills.. and i didn't hv the time to go phamacy buy.. i just lie down and let it pain..i felt sO sick... last nite saw "him" online again... sianz... den i knew for sure will dream of "him".. hai... i am sO right, now i felt so tired.. cos nv slp.. is dreaming.. sO Sianz.. haiz... i cough and cough ...until i omost vomit.. haiz.. so jia lak.. now.. i goin bathe sOon tO meet My dA gU, ah Ma & my cousin, LiLing. We mEt to Eat Lunch Together.. ANd by right will be meetinG... dat Chirst, but haiz.. i gueSs he is just fooling Around.. sO.. no Much Of the Mood TO mEEt hIm.. lE.. if he CAlls before i left orchard i will go mEet him... iF noT.. datS thE enD of the STory i WiLL GO HOmE SLP or Go out mEet othER frns... weLL i wiLL nV TruSt AnyOne AGaIn.. sOmEtiMes.. I juST haTe tHiS... y MusT u make me CLimb Up sO hiGh.. and use uR hand to Push mE dOwn fRom the TOP.. SADEd.. saDed.. SAded.. My heArt is DeAD..

hm... Fernado...Duan Cheng Feng?

hm.. i got to know this guy Fernado Christopher "Duan Cheng Feng" from friendster... and .. i was tOO BoRed dat day.. SO i just went intO IRC i anyhow type #friendster.. and didn't relaized dat there is this channel in mirc . So.. the main chanel got alot of ppl will put their email add in the main.. so.. i just keep adding.. and finally added this guy.. he look handsome to me.. (is like those "bai ma wang zi")but when i know his age .. abit.. sianz.. haha cos his is 19 .. only a yr younger den me.. den he added me in msn..and we chatted.. we chatted weLL i met him last nite.. i went to his house and there is annother of his frn there tOO.. they wEre Friendly ppls... and tO my surprise.. after his frn have left he say he wanted to tell me a secret.."he told me he like me very much" but... i dun really trust.. cos.. its like we known for a day only.. and he say he likes me.. but he is really very sweet..he asked me to be his gf.. i told him.. its not the time yet.. i nEed time... i nEEd time to forget abt "HIM" i need tIme to hEaLs.. the Pain the "HE" Gave i nEed thE timE.. tO foRGet everythinG.. i nEed ThE timE.. tO See THe sinCErty Of "U"(Christ) i dunnO u Mean It anoT.. i can't trusT anyMore.. the LieS from"him" cause me tO looSE ALL the Trust fOr ..anyone.. the Pain "he" give is.. so hurting...

christopher

ChinA Black: FRiday nite

FRiday nite... i went china black(The Bouncer tOld us.. No More HaPpy Hours Got to Pay cover charge u WAnt the Details? its below).. wif Janice they all ... she ask me go cheong.. i say since i was at orchard so i just go with them... they crazy one,... order so many jars of housepour... i drink and drink dunno how many jars.. but i nOe i still can drink but my bodY cannot TaKe it... i hanGover 1 whole Day... and i went to work this afternoon... fEEling very tiREd.. and i grastric 2 times todayz... wah.. Damm Tired.. sIa tml i goT a few more hours got to wake up go temple "bai ji" my dad... tml is father's day... haPpy FAthER's day... after daT i got To rush Off fOr my training.. i think i not GOinG to WOrk i am quitE TIreD..

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China BLack(Pacific Plaza)
9 Scotts Road 12 Floor TeL: 67359819
Doors Open at 9pm.

9pm-10pm(Ladies $10 - Guys $12)
10pm-CLose(Ladies $15 - Guys $18)
Includes 1 Free Drink

$3 Per Glass of Drink $10 Per Jug(9pm-12am)
$5 Per Glass Of Drink $15 Per Jug(3am-5am)
(Friday, Saturday and eve of Public Holiday)

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TraininG :cLinic Day1

hm... tOday is A very HoT and sunny day i went to clinic today evening for training at 5.50pm.. its was so Hot... everything is fine in the clinic but they WEre not AS Friendly aS i TOt.. but stiLL ok with It.. but i hv to StARt lEarning Everything aGain.. hm.. sO Sianz.. weLL aftER 9.30pm.. i went home.. i got To fOlloW the MRt TraCK to aDmirity Station.. and taKe MrT... ANd at dAt time.. I Walked WRongLY... and I LOST my WAy.. haha I am sO duMB ... i went thE Opp Direction.. luckY didn't wAlk VerY fAr... So i quickly ReversE back.. and fOllow the MRT track and TOok a Mrt train hOme.. anD i was Toking On the Phone with DaWnie... my Poly CLassMAte.. we Tok On my Way home.. until i reach my Void DEck i didn'T went homE i walk tO thE PlayGround behind and take a Sit and COntiue to tok for a While.. and i sAW a Miss CaLL.. fROm XiaO ROng.. My DEARest..FRiend.. THanks GOd.. she's Back... FInALLy.. she caMe back From MeLbourn... i Hv aLoT to TeLL hER... TMl we WiLL be mEEting..hoW i MisS hER.. sia..

受了点伤

受了点伤
曲：Gi Hun Lim/Jun Young Choi/Gyung Moon Ham | 词：施人诚 | 编：

My love,晚安 就别再为难 别管我会受伤
想开 体谅 我已经习惯 不然又能怎样？

这个城市太会说谎 爱情只是昂贵的橱窗
沿路华丽灿烂 陈列甜美幻象 谁当真谁就上当

竟然以为你会不一样 但凭什么你要不一样
因为寂寞太冷 虚构出的温暖 没理由能撑到天亮

前进 转弯 我跌跌撞撞 在这迷宫打转
死心 失望 会比较简单 却又心有不甘

这个城市太会伪装 爱情就像霓虹灯一样
谁离开之后 却把灯忘了关 让梦做得太辉煌

以为能够留你在身旁 但是谁肯留在谁身旁
一首情歌都比一个亲吻更长 这就叫做好聚好散

别说你对我感到愧疚 别说你会永远想念我
我很知道孤单这条路怎么走 请你不要安慰我

My love,晚安 别放在心上
我只受了点伤 只是受了点伤

显微镜下的爱情

曲： | 词： | 编：

滴答滴 听天空在哭泣 洗掉了一些梦埋葬在城市里
滴答滴 听时间往前去 好象在预报着未来的连续剧
一封信 一件旧的毛线衣 谁是谁的纪念品 拿什么来回忆
一场雨狠狠下在眼睛里 爱在生老病死后 已经都没关系

问自己没有你我行不行 显微镜里看爱情
残酷的放大所有爱的原因
遇见你之后爱上你然后狠透你原来爱是回不去的旅行
亲爱的让我忘~记你那些事情我终于看仔细
(亲爱的我要忘~记你那些事情我终于看仔细)

深夜里捷运站飘着雨我看着马路边另一对我和你

SEntOSa Trip !!! MooDy:

hM... last nite kuncheng, cheeming, kester and janicE at my huse...hm so after the MajionG.. we Play true Or DAre... all dat... until 6am... den we tok about some stories... and slept at around 7am... until 10.15... and Set off To SentOsA... all Of Them WEnt home... to change 1st.. only.. Janice.. stiLL at my huse.. so we take mRt at until DOver mEEt kuncheng and kEster.. and.. we tOOk a Cab there... actuaLLy waS feELing reaLLY QuiTe.. moOdY.. 1stLy... beCOs.. "Aunty Visited ME"!!! haiz... sianz.. every month 1 WEEK... u noE? gerS should nOe.. la.. den.. caNNot Go inTO the Sea.. lor.. anD another reaSon Cos its 16th toDAy.. every month this day is a Specail daTe tO me.. i always chERish thiS date aLot.. But i nO Longer hv tO reM... haIz... I'm sO SAd... feeLs.. like crying.. but i nv CRy.. No Matter HOw sAd i am I wont CRy anyMOre... weLL its Fun To be With The SP's FRiends but abit MooDy ba... hm... i saw a few cute doGGies dat sum ppl brought to sEntoSa... sO cuTe... how i reaLLy wish i GOt one..my right hand wrist is hurt...now still quite painfuL... cos i use my right hand to hit the volleyball when its suppose to hit using 2 hands....den cos my left hand oso got past injuries so scare my bones fracture again dun really dare to play with my left hand...saDed..

tOday in ACtion

kunCenG accompaNy me... tO orchaRd for my make up color Testing... and after dat we went Shop for my 3inches high hEeLs...from 1.30pm all the WAy until 5 plus.. i search and search ... but dunno wad i should buy... withing budget... and must be as thin as pencil and muST...bE 3inch high... until janice arrived she help me choose.. finally.. i chose until i hEAdache...really headache think i Sick... le.. haiz.. i am so Tired.. den later i shop wif janice... kuncheng they aLL went airport to send sOmeone Off.... after dat they went to my huse now they playing majion...haha but stupid they playing on my bED... i wanna SLp man... haiz... sianz... hEe tml we Goin senTOsA...hoPe tml is a Gd Day for us... Janice oso noW single... we bother singlE... le.. hm... we Tok alot today... haiz..m lets Cheers... tO ouR Faded loVE.. oh EvOnnE told me.. the interview results... hm... this thursday next mon and tuesday go training... then starts on 1st of july..
every nite... after school...i dunno i can Cope anot
everyday after sch work clinic den weekend promoter...

NastY IreNe ...

oHoH eNuGH MeaNs Enugh... waH daT sTuPid Guy KeeP PeSterIng me... caLL me more then 5 times aDay... reJect and RejecT him le.. Dosen't he jusT understands? sTILL teLL me wad WiLL waiT fOr the DAy I acCept HIm.. I tOLd him i dun WANna Get HURT AGAIN... yet he told me he will nv hurt me... (haha every guy always says SO... in the beginning..)den call and call and call i didn't wan to tok to him...den saM told me TO teLL him straight to stop disturbing me...SO i msg him wad SAm TOld me.. anD it did wOrk.. HaH Thankx.. aLot hor SAM... hm..... den dunno today's interview how... clinic... aT wOOlands... there..

Training Lesson 1 : hOw TO SmILE

Hm... TodaY I mEt my New FRn sHeern from the ModeLling AgencY... by Right should mEEt at Orchard MRt station Cos i duNNo how TO go to ManDrin HoteL... haha But i WAS LAte.. so I tOO a caB... hm.. tOdaY is Our 1st Lesson.. by rite should fEEL abit sianz.. and MoodY cOs.. the nite before was Toking abt "HIm" wif his FRn(YiMu).. but when i attend the lseeon i felt happy about it...the Instructor taught us some ways of the Posture... how we should Stand ... and shoulD lEArn TO Love EVery Part Of our Body... and... she ask whu likes tO be PhotographEd... I did not put my hands up... she ask me.. y i dun like i say i dun like smiling... cOs.. my TEeth Not nice.. haha there's a pARt she taughT us hOw we sHould SmiLe... aNd wAD Makes A wOMen Look BeautifUL.... ANs is = CONFIDENCE
weLL nexT sunDAy she's Going To TeaCH us How tO banLace WAlking with a 3inch High hEELs... its sure hurts... my Feet man...wELL i think its a Gd thing that I am givEn thiS chaNce tO try ouT soMthing REaLLY dIfferenT...

Rush 2

my secOnd visit to rUsh ... ha.. 1st time wear polo Tee big big somemore... wif my black pants and my lether shoes... i sucks like hell man... Eee.. wad to dO ... last min decision after work... wif fy and PKS... suPer Tired... slp in the caB... den go home... finish bath try to slp... a Msg came.. from yimu(His frn)den i call him... told abt wad happen... and tell him everything is over.. le.. its He give up this relationship one.. and i dun sEE the point to hold on anymore... Yimu told me many things abt the past ... but wads the point? tOO Late... and since he said "He" looked normal anD haPpY.. daTs gd then... aM I riTE>? weLL and i said i was hAPpy tOO (though tears rolled down my cheek) alot of frns say i hv change .. some say worry about me.. say i torture myself.. wad a Joke rite? i wont torture mYself anymore.. NO MORE... Life stills have to caRRy On... Jeremy told me Its a Parts and Parcel OF Life, If theres bound tO be sadnesS, should learn tO accepT and move On, No poInt HoldinG On When LoVE hAS sTart TO FADE .Its not East TO MainTain a StabLe RElationshiP...LoVE is a Strange Thing thAt NoOnE CAn Explain... Its Not As Simple As Hugs ANd KissEs... Nor CArE & concERn...Is Somthing u Learn Through ExperIenCE......I aGree wad he saiD...

MS: Rush = Techno

Hm... gOt a NiCE PLaCe to REcomend... RUSH in MS ... WEdnesday nIte Is Ladies nite... no CoVEr Charge For the Ladiess... anD fReeFLow oF drinkS.. fROm 9pm - 2.30am not bad not bad... i just wEnt theRe Last nite... wah Long time no CheonG TechnO.. le.. hm.. VEry fun... cOs .. Oways Go Mdm Wong with CHinChin... REtro thERe.. haha ... hAben Had A ChanCe tO gO DOubLe O yET.!!! i MUSt GO Some time... but lasT nite.. Sian... dRAg until around 12 plus and 1am den go cheOng.. aWhilE .. onlY nOt Fun Enugh... weLl Lyn FRn's Joyce... hm.. oso Like To CheonG.. like me..chEerS to ALL my nEW FRns.. hm,.. EvOnne(my sec sch frn) called me... to inform me.. monDAy nite.. gO intERview.. anD if everThing OK Straight aWAy can start work DAt nite... as Clinic Asst aGAin...

WAh TIrED mAN...

wAh Just ReaCh HOme... Only/.. now doing FAcial Mask... to REFresh my SKin.... Quite Tired Today... EVeryDAy like dAt... sO ShRek...haiz... Wad To Do... morning den Come Home... slp until noon den GO out AGain... hm... everydAy every Nite... weLL beTa sTOp whEn SCh REOpen... i cannot AfforT to FAil anD rePeaT... LAst Yr... LAR.. must Work haRD... toDAy WAs FeeLing abit mOoDy.. maYbe.. COs.. i onlINe... and SAw him oNline.. siaNx... dUno HOw ShouLD i REaCT... i jusT LoggEd Off.. anD i asK my BuDDy YeE cHONG TO go tAKe bACK my EzLink CArd.. i nEED It baCK.. mAN... deN i WEnt out.. wiF DonnY they ALl CEleBrate xIao SAi birthday.. gO out until NOw.. sO TIREd... xiAnz... TMl Still got to Go Msia With ThEM.... tIREd.. ARRR.... WAh... sianz... sianZ... hm... i SAw James just now... dunno hE saW me ANOt.. he musT be Paisei i hv Msg him dAT day.. i oso See him i PaisEi maybe i should be Too StraiGht FOrwaRD... but Dun wAN he to misUnderstands... haiz... wELL ZzzzZZZz

hm... maYbe i am Going tO be A MoDEL haha (vOmIt)

yesterdaY wenT out With dOnnY anG my Cousin BaOqUan we WEnt orchard... on my Way to meeT them in the underpASs from CK tank to Orchard MRT... a GeR appRoaChed me... asK Me whEther i inTerestED in sumthing like ModELing.. AS its a Company sEaRching For nEW FaCEs .. For nEw Products... so I TOt sincE .. i got Nothing beTa tO dO aLSO.. Can GIf iT a TrY.. it may ChangE my Life.. so i Leave mY contACt wif her.. and weNt.. to MeEt the guys aNd WEnt sHoPPinG..tOday they Ask me to gO to TAKa.. TOwer A oFFice soRt of an InterView... the Consultant told me.. wad thEir CompanY is .. actually dOing... so they aCtually Provide a training For the ladies its a 8 weeks training every sunday 1 and 1/2 hr... and WE are to complete the whole training if not WE got to PAy... hm... so starting this Sun i am going TO LeARn Somthing nEw... and.. the moST.. cOOL thinG is DAT... I GOT tO lEARn HOW tO BalanCE myself in WEaring a 3inchEs high HeELs... MAn.. OMG haha but 1 thing we gOt to buy our Own COmstic and they say must use either 2 brands... which they calculated the whole set is $550 .... but i thinkn should be Ok lar.. moReVer its FoW own use... then after the Training... we Will be Freelancing For the company ... if there is any audition or aSSignMent... they WIll Called Us.. wether WE want to Accept is another.. thing... hm...lEts hoPe everYthing is GonNa BE Fine...

JournEy

Journey

It's a long long journey
Till I know whera I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

ni hao ma? wO heNg haO

hm... this few days my frns hv been asking me the question are u alright?
sure i reply... "wo mei shi" everything is over... my story with him is over...
wad ever happen has happened... but i nOe somthing which is ,.. i will nv trust again..
he lied to me again and again... hurt me and hurt me and hurt me... "wo de xin zhen de si la.." thats y i dun really feels anything... anymore.. pain? no ... pain tOo lonG... no more Pain... hurt? not hurt anymOre... hurT tOO Much... no moRe feeling le.. ...TeaRs?
no moRE TeaRs... i hv AlloW myself cry tOo mUch in thE PasT... no LongER hv any TeaRs..s
i hv aLways Been VEry sTrong... i nOe.. when i am with him... i am WeaKer... noW.. i GoinG to be StrOng aGain... i misS my LaughTER... before i am with him... miSS my actiVE... sPOrts.. alot and alot.. i wIll FuLfilled my DreaMs... now.. contiue wad Ever which have bEEn StoPPed 1/2 way....

Boring DAy!!!

wEll Today is very Sianz... i whole day at home... den... mom nag at me.. and quarrel abit.. cos she keep bringing up the Past... and i hates ... it.. she thinks... she sad only... she think she got troubles only.. wad abt me.. i even worst... dun how to say... sianz... den... i sms Ja ask him wan to meet... but he say he studying... think he "jiajia" de... cos.. i think he play bb lar.. hai anyway... nvm... after quarrel wif mom i went down with my basktball but alot of ppl playing at the court... so i just go for a walk... and.. after dat went home... but dinner not yet cook so i went down again.. See can See Ja anot ... den... bought Cleo magazine den read read abit... lor..after dat... when up.. finish dinner... i very super bored... i wnt downstairs...and think i saw Ja and his bb friends... at the void deck... den.. i walk another side... abit paisei like he abit avoiding me... leh.. so beta dun let him sEE me... i walk another side to buy a bottle of vodka... den drink finish went homE ... quite sianz.. den.. dozed off on the bed... and ah sai say lyn come and fetch me... and go meet them and go east coast ...

fishinG...

wah... xianz... today whole day at fish link at mac pherson wif frns...
deN rOt thEre WhoLe dAY ...sIbei siAns... arOund 8plus den when Pasir Ris... sEe thEM FisHinG...den Later Go bEdOk mAKan.... dat Prata shoP nOt NiCE... bu HaO Chi De... sianZ... after day ... deN wE aLL wEnT to my FavOurite PLaCE ...CCK haha nEAr My huSE... Gd GD.. man... den sIt there aT the PLayGRound... den Chi chAt... i Miss my ChildhoOd DAys... man...

Mei Li De Wu Hui

美丽的误会

曲：徐伟贤 | 词：林夕 | 编：

那时候 听《爱如潮水》
想象着万一我们不是一对
以后谁会在深夜里孤独的买醉
这一晚 我一个人睡
防备着那于是无补的伤悲
还有很多工作 只能面对 不能憔悴

* 我为我的坚强而骄傲
却为这段情 感到惭愧
我只能够承认失去了你 都无所谓

# 我听的歌 爱的人 说的话
是不是美丽的误会
我不能为你 不顾一切的崩溃
除非这样子能保证把你挽回

我牵的手 伤的心 流的泪
是不是浪漫的误会
是爱的太伤 还是伤的太美
难道你还不会让我的心醉
(在爱情的面前我宁愿卑微)

这一晚 听《爱如潮水》
数算着为感情而吃过的亏
彷佛的麻木是不是我学到的智能
有时候 我们都很累
还以为分手之后就有机会
让我们说后悔 为了失恋 为所欲为

Repeat * #

I won't cry anymore... really... it will stop hurting very soon i know...
i can make this through... i trust myself...