-Tiredness-

-tIredness is the only thing I feel now.-
OverLoad Work ~
emPtyness is everywhere within me.
nO lOve, nO HurTs nO tears... only Jokes, lame jokes.. forEver..
wondering, pondering, thinking.. of nOthing...

is this wad I want? iS this wad I want? - i Dunno
frns ask- so how? any r/s chance? any guys? - my ans is .. there is no ans to this Qns.. dunno how to ans..dunno what To say dun even wanna think abit it..
-tOo busy- Tired-

Well,

Hm... Its been a very long time..that i have eventually stop blogging..
Cos.. I was DAMN busy at work.. and even when i Off work.. i am.. like working..
Even beyond Office hrs.. and aFTer sO much hard-work finally everythin is kindof
settle dOwn and finally got confirmed.

Den I began to have personal time.. for myself.. to reflect on myself,
my life, my smiles, my tears, my heart, my voice, everything.. abt me..
sTill I dun have the Passion that I once had... I lost it.. still trying hard to find it back.. but i doubt so..

For R/s:
WeLl i am Afraid... I tend to avoid.. having any chance that would lead to a new blossom ... some frns, or rather colleagues, try to introduce guys to me.. but..
i tend to be kind of escape...Recently.. keep goin out wiht my sec frns..
weLL there's a guy.. he seems to be very nice and friendly.. still
I am.. back off.. we tok on msn.. and chated.. some stuffs.. and.. I guess my toughts abt r/s is really very negative..
which already might have turn him Off..or away from me ..

ME:
recently have been thinking.. How long would i continue to be like this?
Be single forever? I am ok with single 4eva.. but.. family are worried.. for me
but.. I can nv love again.. I dunnno how to trust and love the guy.. if there is one for me now.. perhaps.. I am just being so Me..


WEll Thats all for tOnightz...
:)

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

陈奕迅婚礼的祝福

陈奕迅婚礼的祝福
词:许常德曲:陈建宁

时间一秒一秒一秒
倒数计时
往事一幕一幕一幕
突然静止
你挽着他
他挽着你
向我走过来
同桌的人蜂拥而上
将你我隔开
我干杯
你随意
这是个残酷的喜剧
我的人生早留在你那里
我却还要故作潇洒地
你和他
我和你
这是个讽刺的交集
是你太残忍
还是我太天真
你要我来
就真的出席
我的请贴是你的喜贴
你要的一切
如今都变成我的心碎
你总是太清醒
我始终喝不醉
连祝福你还逼我给
你的喜贴是我的请贴
你邀我举杯
我只能回敬我的崩溃
在场的都知道
你我曾那么好
如今整颗心都碎了
你还要我微笑
( music )

Recently finish watching the 星光大道 heard this song very nice.. decided to learn int ...

cheng zaO。。。。

vOmitted just now-

weLL tOO long nv drink?

Too mUch of Unhappiness?

drank too much??


duno.. well if Val nv jio me.. i might be goin back home after granny place...

weLL.. i went drinking .. again at Ktv pub... drink drink drink... drank abit Too fast tOday?

very seh... i try to hide.. to act normal... but i knew i can't stay as wake as I seem Too finally..

went to ladies to vomit...szzzzzzzzzz :(

bIrdday

xan.. its Time again...

EveryYear Somthing Bad will happen on 16 feb... :(

wELL thiS Year... hm.. Maybe I should just forget abt it.. dun Even have to brOther

Last Yr had a very bad Bday :(

Met Richard today.. Twice somemore at bugis..

I am so glad to see him.. lolx Omg and I couldn't regonised him (my 青梅竹马)...

Its nice seeing him... so nice.. though i abit Too shocked..lolx and quite paisei to see him.. lol

没有心理准备 。。。 weLl anyway he Agreed to meet me next weeK :) but scare dunno got

thing to say or not.. So long nv contact already...

:(

I am so tired ... feel very restless.. and no mood no passion in anything..had a small disbute with mom ytd... went to V's coy today to interview.... den we went to pub.. drink.. now just home.. y am I crying?? I dunno.? i really dunno.. All I felt now is pain....tears just flow non-stop... Y?
Y can't I stop all test pain? i dun understand? y? Ho long can I cry? How long can I strive? I dunno ... I really dunno.. How long do I need to sTop ... How can i Forget wadever dat have happen? How Can I overfcome all the fears dat I have? I am in a cave myself Again.. where no ppl can enter.. y?
dun asK me.. i dunno.. i dunn want to know... I dun feel any warmth here.. sOMtimes just how i wash.. father is here.. whever I cry.. father is there.. to pacified me.. where is he now.. y father is not here :( Y?