GathERing At My HousE??? tO EAT? hahaha

Welll last nite me and xinyi decide to do project today at my house... Den.. she sAy Cos i oways Complain thaT nO PPL cOok For me.. to EAt oways Eat outside until i Sianx... if not oways EAt Maggie... hehe So She VoluNteer tO cOok For me.. at My hOuse... heE ... Thanks.. Xinyi.. DeN i sugEsted asking some guys to come TOO... cOs, SAM, ah sen going ah si housE to DO project oso den ah si stays nEar me.. So ASk them aloNg.. haha... and .. i ask Them to ASk ah yong along... See he want anOt.. acTually wanted to TreAt Ah yong.. cOs i Oways ask him to 'LonGBang' me to Sch.. hehe.. den i told him just now if nEEd to paY for today's foOd.. i say i help him pay... dEn he say he wann pay himself... sO i say anything lor..but den he reply just help him Debug the DSA... I "pENgz" hAhA... Omg.. i am sO Damn Hungry,,,.. men... GOt to wait till Xinyi CoOk den i think i will die of hunger... man

StReSs sTrEss StRess

Omg... wELl thiS wholE wEEk i hv bEEn Staying back At sch For AssignmENts... DSA, ICA, WNA, CEM....WTF !!! haiz... SADED... in library stay until 7plus 8plus.. omost everyDAy tOday WOrsT.. we Stay all the Way until 11pm Can u ImaginE? OMG!!! So Sianz.. just noW i Do until Pek Chey.... den... after dat mabel, dawn, xinyi and I
went to "Wen DOng Ji" for chicken rice... haha den Eat dinner...or maybe supper lar so late le... den mabel and dawn share cab....home.. xinyi took a CAb home tOo.. onLy.. mE poOr me no $$ to Take ... SO waIted for bus 67 at around 12midnite... Sit theRE gOnG gong dUnno sTIll gOt Bus ANot... den STOne sTonE.... until oh God... lol finaLLy 67 came... phew... luckly still GOt bus FOr me.. home..meh.. OMg.. den when i walk home... Shit.. i GAstric Pain... think i eat dinnER tOo Late.. and eAT... tOO oiLy... ba... saded FinallY... DSA assignment part1=finish... still GOt part 2 and 3...saDed... aRgh~~~ sianZ>!!!!

Caught a Cold : SnEEzE sNeeZe

OMg .. i hv been sneezing since yesterday till now... and worst thing is i my gastic pain come again... haiz... saded. Today was a long day in sch... though we finish lesson at 12noon... me, yijun, sam, kc & weixiang went to market to eat carrot cake. While xinyi kena dragged by Mabel with grace and dawn to KAP MAC haha.. poor thing... i pity xinyi... cos she waited for 2 weeks.. to EAt carrot cake and actually already agreed with me dat today wanted to eat carrot cake.. lol but mabel and dawn wanted to eat MAC... haha after dat ahyong called sam... and .. in the end the guys went home.. me and yijun waited for ahyong to come den we waited until he finished his "xiao wan mian" den he drove us back to sch ... He didn't came for lesson.. but he join us in the library to do the WNA project. While.. xinyi did quite alot for the project.. but i felt quite useless myself.. cos i search for 1 whole day can't find anything helpful for the project.. so i abit sTress up... den .. me and mabel even search for library see GOt WNA book anot.. when we went back to the project room i was so giddy until i really wanted to faint... around 5 all leaves le except xinyi she say wanted to stay back somemore to do.. so i accompany her... her grace too. Den my stomach was feeling well went to toliet ... den.. haha bake cake lor..den i called janice.. ask her where she is? And i told her to come ngee ann to find me since she so fRee la.. Den she waited until we wrap up our stuffs... and we went to bk timah to eat duck rice... den after dat i suggested play pool... lol i told her must distress... and say i recently play if ppl ask me play den i go there entertain only.. didn't play seriously... so i told today got the mood will play seriously... in fact i really play seriously but still lose to her.. lol but she can sEEs that i really serious liao...haha we play till 9.30pm den we go home.. AFter i reach home i bathe and do hair treament cos my hair sucks... man... lol den i try to find the codes... finally i found something useful.. and i just manage to link the forms... up... OMG the Code is just 2 words only lor.. i search like hell man... thanks to my brother..if not i crazy SOon haha Now i Going SLp lo....nitEZ

tIrednEss + Giddy = SiCK

i felt so giddy now dunno y... all the way from the point mabel and dawn Woodlands.
ARgh!!! Assignment and assignments... sO daMn TiRed! me Xinyi stays in library until 6.50pm den we go home...afTer dat was suppose to meEt Janice for dinner at Cck but she call and say she sick... sO i was feel abit sad i Go home saded... and on the way home was think quite a lot of things... was wondering about wad if there is another person who go through everything that i go through will he/she be able to take it? Will the person collasp?

1.My dad passed away and he was the only one supporting the family.
2.My dearest love hurts me and leaves me.
3.Trying very hard to cope with studies.
4.Jobless now very hard on $$ need a job.
5.Health not gd always sick and gastric.
6.Assignments and new assignments.. datelines are same and can't compete STRESS!!!
7.Got to be strong infront of frns & family.(Didn't wants to worry them)

Stress strEss stress somtimes.. i do assignment do until i very giddy not feeling.. almost fainted on my way home.And when i reach home.. noone is around.. i wanted to eat some homecook food but mum did not cook... bro told me he home late so can't ask him to help me buy food.. Lucky my dearest god-bro hWanGeGe.. just finish his final theory at BBDC so he met me for dinner...at lot1. AFter dinner we walk walk awhile den sit sit awhile den go home.. At lot1 dunno why was feeling so giddy like wan to faint again... once i reach home i lied on bed and slp until the next day.

saDed

abIt SAded tOday... while clearing the mails.. i saw a very very long time ago email from my ex.. when i read it through again... wah.. very sad case lor... everthing is nolonger as what he wrote in the email.. everything change... he changed... i changed.. everyone change... somtimes.. or at that point of time.. u may love a person very much... u could say wadeva to make the person feels touch by u... u can gif promises... but.. after time passed by everything may starts to change... tO mY Ex i may be just sumone passerby in his life (just another ger like his Ex TOo who can be easily 4goten)... not important anymore... but to Me ... he played a very important role in my life... I used to told him.. a relationship takes both hands to clap... if i am always the one... giving in... den... one day sure "buang" one... WhiLe i was Trying haRd to hold on... he just keep letting Go.... no matter how manys times.. he hurt me... how many times he lied to me.. i still actually believes in him... until one day i just hv to give up... how to hold on when he wasn't holding on to me... he just letting me.. go... and go... when i read through the mail... how i hope i can go back to the days.. where he look into my eyes.. tell me.. that he can't afford to loose me.. but i know truely he can! he can afford to loose me.. from the 1st day he get his bike i know... he can afford to loose me... becos of a bike..but he didn't know i was deeply in love with him ... and didn't wan to loose him.. while i was trying hard.. he just ... let me GO... i forwad the mail to him... without realsing and he mail me and ask me... Y send him this... and wad i want to impose... (nothing much actually... its and accident la.."yi shi Gan qing yong shi, chong hun le tOu")

mUsiCudeRgrounG...OMg So buANg haha

Last niTe janice and i meet at lot1 and also meet yonghui and his frn eugune we tOok Cab down to MU...yonghui and his frn went to MdmWong... while we went to MU.. aT mU,
Janson brought afew frns there.. and we went to find steven and nick... den janice and i went to take drinks... Janice abit crazy keep asking me to drink pure one... and ask me "ta" the whole glass... den we play 5-10.... and i drank alot... cos i keep lossing.. btw i abit seh le.. ask Janice go dance with me.. she still playing.. games... with steven den.. i really... abit sian.. i went to TOliet... den .. after dat she drag me to dance floor den we dance... and dance... den afterdat ask me Go take drinks again... dat time my stomach so full le... den i go toliet... 2 timez... stuck there quite long.. haha the 2nd time.. i stuck inside very long... i was so seh and i actually sit down on the ground facing the toilet bowl prepare to vomit... den... that crazy ger just came in yelling my name... "ailin ailin, ni ok ma ni zai na li" lol... janice... haha.. den i can't vomit le.. sadded... i felt.. sO seh... man.. i just feels very drowzy and slpLy and sit there quietly... while janice.. she yelling and keeps toking non-stop... haha she TOo high le ba... she just keep toking non-stop i really buay tahan man... haha in the cab i just "lie" towards the door side and trying to slp.. while janice.. keep toking... lol.. she really seh already oso...

haha just now i came home mum... scolded me cos i nv lock the Door last nite... Opps the funny thing is i woke up this morning... And sAW somthing... haha
last nite i reach home nv bathe... nv remove make up nv even change...lol but the thing is i took off my jeans.. and slp like dat... 4got to wear shorts..

tIrednEss.. BoLiaonEss... KTV clementi

wELL yesterday after Lesson we stay back to do our CEM project afterdat we all accompany mabel tO tAke Pic at clementi den we went to eat... at the martket there...
afterdat we went tO sK and baleno... i bought a hiphop style top... and mabel bought a skirt from the baleno....afterdat they went home.. and i meet hwan gege
(my dearest god-bro)with his frn.. and i suggested we go Party World to sing KTV. He was so sad... poor thing... i really pity him lor.. his gf break with him becos of a guy.. sO SAd... ke lian... my hwan gege was such a nice guy... yet his Gf .. So bad.. bitch... bad get... hurt my dearest god-bro.. i hv nv seen hin sO sad.. b4... den his frn oso just broke oFF...

pResentAtion Buang~!!!

haiz.. very sAdded monDay nite.. i slp around 11plus.. den wake up at around 3plus tO finish up my powerpoint and the report... cos i am the one to compile everything... i dO all the way until 6plus.. gOing 7 and when tO sch diRectLY... sTupiD aSS i Was stuCKed in thE tRaFfic fOr arounnd 20 mins... and i DOssed Off... i was DaMmn Tired... when i Awake, i saw thaT i was Still stucked in bk timah ...saddded.. i was late for the lesson for an hr... when i reached there is around 9am le...Den... i try to write notes that i am goin to present in the class.. very SAded i buang in my presentation... eVen jun always... very nervous.. oso did alot beta den me.. OMg.. i sucks.. like hell man.. i knew it.. i can't tok when i am looking at the notes... sadded,... haiz.. its even worst den wad i did in yR 1 haIz... y like dat... very saDded leh... i surE ScoRe lowest mark in the team.. i hate i hate the way i presented ...haiz.. waD hAPPEn tO ME?> WhERe's WAs the VEry confidENt me? y suDDenLy .. buang until like dat? i dunno.. reCently.. i hv beEn fEEling quite mOody Tired... and.. sad.. haiz.. waD hAppEn??? aRrGh....i bEtA Bucked up if not... i will HatE myself.. foR dOing aLL this "stants" ... weLL tOday we went bk timah the prata shop for lunch .. i ate nasi brani(chicken) very nice... dEn me, xinyi, mabel & jun went back to sch to Do auto CAd.. while waiting For Dawn anD grace to finiSh thIer visit at parliament. aH yOng ask me to Help him Do his Dad's webbby .. i SAy ok..loR.. and ask him tO gO sch oso.. lor..den.. he send all Of us to sch..he help xinyi DO cad... den i help him with his WeBBy... Afterdat, dawn called.. ask us to mEEt them at citylink...den they Eat cRepes and cream... hEe.. i nv Eat... they ASked y.. i no $$..lol.. dun wan la waste $$... hai now i jobless.. and my "dad" already gone... he used to be the one whu Gives me pocket $$... now.. no more.. somtimes... i really miSsed him sO much... hOw much i wiSh wad hAppEn tO me WAS ALL unREAL... but i just Got tO aCCept ALl this.. my dad wiLL nv come back...
my bf was gone too... wELL i jusT gOt to bE stROng I guEss.. hEe thE GOd has TakEn aLL my LovE ones awAy from me...

bLuRnEss...

Hey can anyone believe this... i TOt toDay's lesson was 8am in the morning... den i was damn late.. for sch.... cos i reach there 9.20am.. and realize that actually lesson was at 9am in my class.. den i know.. haha.. bluR man...me.. i was sO seh..leh
i think beocs sat nite at janice hus i nv slp..den yesterday go sentosa and last nite.. was very tired but i nv slp well enough becos i had a dream.. OMg this is nightmare to me man.. i'm So scared

Dreamz:
In my dream, "he" after a period became a changed person. "He" asked me out... dunno go where i think is his house... den "he" wore very smart... and formal... drove a black car... and came to fetch me to his place... Den dunno after dinner or wad... he went into his room to rest or slp.. Den his gd frn was there... so i went to chat with the frn... I asked:"Hey how's he? still ok?" His frn reply:"yA not bAD recently had a very pretty and nice Gf" when i heard this...hm.. abit sad but still felt happy as he is now a changed person and had a gd realionship with his gf... so felt happy for him... den dunno y the dream got my cousin or frn... when heard of this felt...abit bad... den.. dunno is accidentally disturbed "him" from resting or wad i came out from toliet and saw "him" very fierce scolding my cousin or frn... sO i abit Angry .. i went up to him and say :"Why ask me hERE today and wants to upset me again? WAd's the point?" (i didn't metion abt wad i know abt his gf but i was thinking u got a nice and gd gf .. now u ask me out for dinner for?? and y wants to hurt me again y scold ?) his Fierce look(i rem when in real life in the past how we both quarrel.. how fierce was his look.. and scold all those valugars on me.. and how it breaks my heart... when he scolded me.. all those nasty words..it hurts me so much)

The Saddest part of the dream was that after i asked him wad's the purpose of asking me out for dinner...U guys guESs wad "he" said? OMG... "he" said:"U think i wan to ask u out isit? its (dunno his frn or my frns) ask me to dO aLL theSes one lor.." OMg.. in the dream... i felt the sadest part is that hearing him said doing all these is not wad he wanted he is just being ask to DO these. OMG.. i hope this is only a dREam.. i am so hurt by the words.... he used in the dream...


ReaL life:
dEn i WAs thinking... ritE now... he like trying to be friendly and caring to me
(as a frn) if i put the dream in real life.. and i found out that its becos someone some frns... ask him to do all theSe... omg.. how hurting this is... going to be... den i would rather he just leave me alone...hurt me no more... hopefully this is a dream not in real.. i'm so scared...

ReLationshiP? nOnOnO Leaves Me ALOne...

Den rEceNtLy... a few guys i know they felt something for me... trEat me very gd ... when i say i eat maggie.. they say bad for health bring me to EAt...all this ... but.. i abit scareded and sianz..lor..

i dun wan to go into any relationship at this moment... i'm Sick and Tired oF RELationship... i dun like the FEeling wheRe.. u gavE up everything for a guy...u loves him very much... try to be sweEt and nice to him.. but he just hack care abt u...sometimes..happy Call u... not happy just hack care u... sometimes hot and cold to u... everyday stays at home just to wait for his call... and U are the one whu keeps on waiting... his the one.. whu nv kept his promises... he nv calls and he began to woRry... u call him a few times.. he nv ans... when he ans... u scold him.. cos he nv ans...as u are worry... but tO him u are just borthering him... he is with his frns....enjoYing... chating...eating.. u ..alone..waitin ..worry...hungry... does he knows all this he nv knows.. cos u nv.. told him... u noe he wont understands...how a ger feels.. for him care so much for him... did so much for him... wad u gEt in returns.. iS hurT... lies... broken promises...

I'm tirED reaLLy tirEd.. Of RElationships.. It onLy.. teArs Up my hEart...until i am noW left with a DeAD hEARts...mosT of my frns.. told me y u are so active? sO sTrong... hoW u dId that?> i duNno sinCE younG.. i am aLready So hypEr... Strong...??? aM i ReaLLy dAT sTrOng As I SeEm?> i reALLy duNno.. somTimes.. i jusT hv to bE strong,,infronT of my frns.. my family... i am a strong GEr...i didn't wan anyone to Be Worry ... alot of times.. i felt like crying out... but i know i can't... i got to bE strOng... i gOt to hidE my tEars... i just hAVe to...i didn't hv a choiCE..dO i? but sometimes... i hOpe thERE is this onE person whu i can really tRust maybe my god-bro.. or my best frn... give me a biG huG.. and let me cry out all my Pain... my hurts... my fears...my strEss...

SAt:AssIgnMents & KTV | Sun: SenTosA

SAt:
wAh siAnZ... lor whoLE day StAys At homE dO asSignMents... very dAmn Sianx.. at 1st is agReed to GO Play BAtminTOn at CCk COmplex... neAR yeE Tee.. but i very tirED... and.. mmust rush assignment... SO i nv GO... then.. i meEt Janice they all at 302 kopitam.. eat dinner.. and collect my reciept... from T...afterdat i went home.. he called me.. and say forget that he got something to pass it to me..den.. ask me.. to wait for him at my huse downstairs... den.. he gave me a DogGie... sOft TOy.. den.. gone Off... he say to help me distress... "WElL i TOt funnY...anyway nvm la..."

den nite time by rite should Go Zouk... cos dunno kester and dunno whu's bday... but in the end... janice say dun wan go le... in the end we went Lot1 Kbox... with T, steven. AFter the KTV session, janice went home with me.. i packed up and remove my makeup... and we Took a CaB to her huse... cos i promised her i will Go her huse stay and the next day which is sunday go sentoSA... with her.. and Yonghui... with his colleagues(CCK police post..)thEn At JaniCE.. huse i abit hungry.. ask her to cook maggie... lol we chit chat until around 5am.. they janice very tired slept le... i aLso try to Slp... but dunno y can't slp... just flip here and there... in the end nv slp....

Sunday:
wELl eaRLy this morning YonGhui call janice... and janice still seh seh and pass it to me... i said:"siAOz... bo sO early called us..lol" den..we prepare le.. den we went to houbor front the market to eat 1st and tOok the bus inTO sentoSA... and we WEnt to find them at Sunsetbay.. not bad la.. all his 5 frns... all nice guys.. funnY tOO lol ...afterdat we went marina bay eat SteAMbOat...hehe i insisted... cOs.. i long long time nv Eat le... saDDed...weLL i should hv mention StEAmbOat my FAv... hehe i loves it..anyway...at the steamboat i felt abit sadded... Cos last time i always ask "him" to bring me eat steamboat...haiz... i gueSS that is the Last time we atE steamboat he brought his "steamboat work" to my huse and we went to buy the food 2gether and rushed back to my huse to eat steamboat.... haiz...i just kena choke by my tears... sadded...

SpidErMan 2

WeLl Today is a Boring daY.. gO sCh foR 2 hRs..sO stuPid.. wEll my piCs are UpLoaded in "his" cOm ..den He sEnd me.. tOday.. Omg.. It Look So Dark.. anD aWfUL hm.. but some are acutally quite niCE... theSe pics aRe for THe PRotfOLio fOr the MoDeLinG.. SunDAy is The LaSt Day its EvaLuAtion ... They wILl hV to EvAluATe.. uS... YesTerDAy he senD me A  sMs..askinG me.. my moDELInG AgenCy's nAme.. And Told me.. nOt to Sign ANy contRact afTer my trAinInG.. wELL.. its noT somThing... WhicH i Can REaLLy DecIDEs.. cOS 1. i no $$  2. i hv puT in inVesTmenT.. in It.. Le.. If reALLy gOt aSsIgnMEnt.. I may Hv to TaKe...  aNyWay sure Wont KenA Wan... COs.. my TeeTh sO uGLy thEy sUre WOnt wANt me..onE... But I reALLy LeARnt ALot duRing This TrAIning..
 
AfTer My sCh Ends... me, DaWn, MabEl anD xinYi stays In sCh fOr a whiLe.. den...afTerdat aLL go Home.. i WEnt to my couSin's huse tO eDit my piCs... and Burn iT in CD... form TO be developed.. AFtEr dAT...Shi HaO caLLed me.. ask me GO watcH SpiDErMan 2 ..hm.. thE show QuiTE niCE.. very COmedy ANd SOme Part very TOuchinG... the LoVe part... very TouChing...
tHe SpiDerMan, pEtEr PaRKer aCcTuaLLy LoVEs The MaRy James.. VEry Much... buT hE didn"t want her TO be in RisK... So eVen iF hE knoWs.. shE loVEs him... hE did Not TOld Her about his TRue FeeLings.. SO SAddED.. buT in thE end... shE finAlly Knows The TrUe dAt hE is actually SpiDErMan... anD.. finaLly "yOu qnG rEn ZhOnG chENg JuaN Shu" sO nicE anD sWeeT...  I'm Very tOuChed.. anD.. i fELt the TeARs in my hEarT.. i knoW.. in ThiS WOlrd <"ThERe iSn't Any TruE LoVe">   aNd tOdaY DAwn aSK me.. aNy Guys daT i interEsted recentLY.. ? i toLd hER.. nopE... but i Told her.. i think Some Guys... likE me.. and theY tReaT me VerY vERy nice.. buT i am AfRaid... oF thiS... i sCAre WAit theRE is this One DAy they Tell me.. wad They FEEls tOwaRds me... deN i DunNo How TO REACT... Cos.. i dunn WAnnA GEt hurt AgAIn... At This MomeNT... i jusT waNnA bE sIngLE... Guy TrEAt mE tOo GooD.. i will SCARe... i WILl beCOme weAk.... buT.. i knOw i AM StrONger...when I am SinGLe.. I juST hv To be sTrong... i AM TirED Of RELatiOnshiPs..i gueSS i wiLL nV Love AGain.....
 
AftEr the shOw ShiHao WanTed TO seNd me Home.. bUt i reJected i tOld him i GOing tO lot 1 finD my frn...I went TO find Victor... hE at Kpool.. playing.. pool... his FRns.. werE therE... TOo. aLot oF fRns.. Den  ReceiVE a SMS frOm... him.. he thankED me fOr accompanYing him to Watch MoviE.. anD say i am very quiEt and didn't really TOk to him ... COs.. i was ACtuALLy quite TirED.. dun REaLly FeeLs Like Toking...
 
TiREd TiREd TIreD...
this WhoLe WeeK I am sO tIrEd, beCos of:
1. aLot oF AssiGnMent
2. tIred Of bEinG.. sTrong("sOMeTImes I reALLy hOpe That is this SOmeone WheRE he Can let Me "KAo"on his ShouldER Can leT me cLose Me EyEs... ANd Let Out my TeARs...I wanTed sO muCh tO CRy ouT... aLl my TRoublEs.. i Hate tO hiDE my tEaRs... I hAte to aCt DAt aS if i am Very hAPpy.. nO wOrrIes aT... if TheRE is SuMone.. i can REaLly let me.. Rely on FOr awhiLe JusT aWhilE will Do...anD i hoPe.. this Person is sumonE i ReALly can TrusT.. jErEmy..") hE is ThE onE gUy in thIs WorLd Dat WiLL nOt BeAR To eVen Make me.. cRy... he wILl nv hv thE hEaRt to huRT me.. i know...i uSed to bE VEry dEpenDed on him... hE taught me ALot oF thinGs... but... dEeP dOwN in my hEART i knoW its impoSsibLe fOr us to bE toGEther... but tO me he is A very impoRtant Frn whiCh i HopE tO kEEp in TOuch With... I am vERy gLad tO knoE..hE is very "xinFu" noW.. and rem our Song "yUe Ding" thouGh mY rELationSHip haD actUaLLy FaiLed... but i knoW he Happy Can Le..

The MomEnt

The Moment

曲：陈忠义 | 词：陈忠义 | 编：吴庆隆
这一刻 回头看见自己
这一路的风景 百感交集的我
下一刻 又将飞向哪里
渐渐疲惫的羽翼 为你披上了勇气
放心离开我 我会记得这一刻
那些还飞翔着 不可思议的梦
雨后的天空 会有绚烂的彩虹
像最初相信着 我们总会找到自由

这一刻 时间变成行李
越过生命悲喜 陪伴着我前进
因为你 让我看清自己
面对未知的恐惧 脚步更加坚定
放心离开 我我会记得这一刻
那些还飞翔着 不可思议的梦
雨后的天空 会有绚烂的彩虹
像最初相信着 我会找到 自由

Oh 只是远行 不是逃避
告别 是为延续回忆永恒的华丽
你 要照顾自己 不要忘记 那些灿烂过的痕迹

StREss sTress StREss

HeLp hElp hELp!!! I'm So StResS... why do wE hv So many assignmEnts.. to DO...
sO SianZ... Today i LS(LaoSai) lol 3 times.. lor.. dunno what i ate wrong last nite...
Then suddenly like also assignment haben done.. then i very stRess lor.. really very seh tOday... Then in the end i got to ask yanyi(classmate) for 1. StrEss.. Man...

Me,yijun, xinyi, ahsen, sam stay back in sch at library tO dO SS... i dO until i CRazy man... So strEsS... then around 6 all went home... except yijun and me.. still doing.. we do until 7plus.. den go home, i wAs REally very strEss up... lor.. Do for 3 hrs.. still didn't manage to finish ... den on the Way home... in the bus... i felt very giddy abit like wan to faint wan to fAint...le..sO sEh leh... OMG..then i went 7-elven to buy Nissin Cup noodle for my dinner... Den i went home... and eat my noodle.. hehe

Travis called me.. and ask if i am ok... i told him i very streSss..lor. Den dun really feels like toking.. and i told him i went eating..DEn.. rushing my work at the same times, Then Later shihao also called me.. from his camp.. he ask me to chit chat with him.. den i told him wad i EAt.. and how stress i am... he SAy... "Pls lor u know u sick still eat maggie .. U omost everytimes EAt maggie..lor DEn always hears u cough ..see u also cough...den still eat ice-cream. I tell u, u call me la.. i treat u eat some nice and healty food." Lol he kept repeating the same thing to me.. man... really Old ppl... leh... as he oways say about himself.. His a nice guy.. nice frn.. den.. keep introduce guys to me..lol dunno what he trying to DO.. hahaha.. Hey ComE on.. I am sick and tiREd or BGR... and i am so packed with so many things... Then he say he in camp so near me... he says tuesday and thrusday CAn ASk him out To "la-kopi" lol...den ask me bring him to eat nice food in CCK.. area... haha cos he stays at sengkang... i think... erm.. i 4got..

hm... den a frn Jim help me dO some re-search lor... very grateful to him thanks... and he cares alot..for me.. a nice frn... but... when i told him dat i Smk he msg me and say he thinks he really likes me... but felt very turned Off when he know i smk.

weLL actually i quits...le la.. but i aM Very vEry sTrEssed out..

t|reD t|rEd t|reD

weLL tOday was Late For clAss i knEW.. i was DAmn tired.. lor..
I tOo train to Clementi and change to bus 154 and when i alight from bus i ran all the way to class. After Class "He" passed the camera to me... I am suppose tO thanked him but duNo y my hand tOo wEak the camera drops onto the ground , And the 1st "Words that i speak to him, was actually " I was reaLLy embarrassed and felt funny the 1st time i finally manage tO OPen mY Gold Mouth. YEt i only said 2 words "paisei" instead of "ThankYOu" cui...den after our WIS we went for lunch at the NET restuarant .

AFter lunch we (yijun, grace & I )went to WEstmall for a while and we sit down and toktok abit.. and den i sugessted go my huse sing KTV den after dat i went for mt Basic Theory teST... I was later.. i rushed there and when i get the booklet, i xian 1/2 cos i got booklet sEt F.

Shihao Called me and told me he just came out from camp(Yeetee) den ask me to meet him at Lot1 for dinner.. So i met him and after our dinner we went lot1 walkwalk with his frn and we went arcade. We went in then suddenly someone tap my head, i turned around and saw Victor. We chat for awhile and after dat we chat about zhiyong, and jona.. He said this thursday he comming back to sch to play basketball with his cozmate ...
Afterdat shihao, his frn and me went coffebean for a drink after dat he sent me home... and went back to his camp... I went home early today to do my sch wrk.. but... i log on to the net for awhile and felt so tired... so in the end i went to slp... i slep very long... and.. still feels very tired... dunno Y

VbAsic And ASP

OMG.. finally finish abit... tO think That i help "him" to do the Code...
well since he help me in the qns 3a ... but nvm, i'm oways so helpful towards my frns..
i am so damn tirED.. i got to slp now if not tml sure doZed Off... nitEz.. evERyonE... IhEy if frns.. u All got anything to teLL me can add in the commment.. or in the tAg board.. becos i may be quite busy ... recently with all the assignments.

wO ku Le

weLL TodaY i CiRed 2 Times...

1. In school
2. On the Way home

hAiz i knEw it..."Aunty Visited" Me Sure MoOd SwinG... Today Whole DAy My MOod is So DaMn Sianz...Today i felt so Stressed... I gOt tO FAce "Him" got to try to "befrn" with him...its SO Diffcult" noW its really sEems that its So xin Ku becos(i can't sPeak to him it will bring backs my memmories of everything i didn't wan to rem all the Pain the hurts that he gave) hE hurt Me ToO dEeP until i can't evEn sPeak a Word tO him directLy.
Den... very moody.. "wO Ku Le" On The Way homE.. some memmories just flashed back... i felt very very sad... my tears keep rolling down my cheecks.. ("wO Bu Gan xIn, wO dui Ta yi xing yi yi, wei Ta fU chu Yi Qie, shEng mE tO ding Ta De, ta que sHanG Hai Wo, pian Wo, ShanG Le Wo De Xin") aLL My Frns Told me.. his the one in the Wrong why Do i Still CAre So much... he dun wan To go sch his business la... (Coz i am always woRried about his studies... i used tO DO eVerything nice nice For him: print notes, buy books, ask him tO my hus to study. And i REally dun him to give uP his studies just becoS of our weirdness in cLasS~!) I hOpe "hE" can study weLL (den mY "xinku" will worth it)

tRainIng:5th Lesson/kTv sEssion/TokTOk Session

Hm... toDay is my 5th lessOn oF TraiNing... DAt is put on the Make Up.. aGain... den must practice walking..and Poses.. Shit... tOdaY i Took A Cab There aGain... And that stupid Driver... Bring me walk lonG WAy... sADded.. sia.. So eX $$$ no $$ le lar.. Den nexT sunDAy is Evaluation The Last DAy of the Training FinallY.. they say GoT tO bring 4 photos or at leaSt 2 closeup piCs... with all the details.. stated. Then next week got to come with makeup and heels On weLL Prepare...

WeLL after my training, i met up with my sec sch guys... (XianBeibei, wenhonG, & weejia)
We WEnt Shop for a present ... xian bei bei says nEEd to GEt his GodSis a Present. After dat we went for dinner... i ate a "da BaO" and "dessert" cos ... i just eaten my lnuch not loNg AgO. Dinner's Over, i suggested Go KTV... thus, WE went For KTV... sing sing sing.. until 10pm... den... i go over to Cine to Find my dearest GOd-BRo(hWan GeGE)he and Shengyang at KB ox singing oso... den after dat hwan Gege TOld me he tml no Work...

Thus i suggested WE aLL GO my Void deck there buy some snacks and Drinks... and sit down toktok... until around 1am... then they both tOok a CAb homE... wEll aLso Travis(SP) tolD me My nOkiA 7200 will be reADy by tml... ask me.. bring $$ to Go colleCT from... Him... hEee sO haPpy...finallY can GEt a Camera PhonE.. i FaV 7200~!!!! i HaVE been tArgeting for it since It 1st cAMe Out.. it was So daMn nice lor...

MooD Swing acTion 2:MajionG Session/DEcision??

weLL aT 1st is SentOsa... but Endup cancEL... but now den find out actuallY got alot of ppl interested going...lol.. tOO LaTE... DEn... aGreed to Play teNnis at Travis(SP) huse... den... janice say Play majionG.. sO we play mAjion Today.. agian... until evening time... i went to Marina south... Travis accompany me.. go TO wish "TaiZi"'s bday... a frn i known in #frenster channel in Mirc i didn't eAT steamBoat cos... i was Sick... can't EAt.. den afterdat we went to orchard to meEt fy, and janice they all.

dEcision mAking: ChinaBlack / KTV / Devils Bar / Fisherman Village
TOday duno is WAd funny day..
1. WAnLing(From my course dunno which class) she and her frns going China Black and she called me and jio me..
2. Fy they all plan to go DEvils bar ask me to Go also.......
3. Fisherman VillaGE: ShihAO's Bday ask me Go...
4. TaiZi at 1st say maybe Go Double O in the end they all went sing KTV at KBox...

I didn't know Where to Go... when finally decided, we went devils bar, but ... Travis cannot Go in cOs underage... SO in the end...me and travis went home... they contiue to go cheong... saDDed.. rite..

MoOd SwinG ACtion number 1: SadNEss, Fed Up, iLLnEss

Thursday(Yesterday) i went to school as usual, after having MC(s) for 2 days, abit "nua"... Then evERything seEms OK... aLL the WAy until sCh Ends... "HE" wAS toking to the guys and after biding them gOodBye, "he" turnEd anD walk tOwads the guys toliet, but at the same mOmenT, "hE" saw GRace And me.. Den "ByEbYe~!" was spured out from "his" mouth. I abit StuNned... anD didn't Know hoW tO reACt.. duNno tO rePly him oR not.. i juSt (tOaLLy BlanK)... aNd GrACe reply "Bye" to him. After he went in tO thE TOlieT, Grace askEd me.. y u dun reply him... i TOld her.. i dUnno How shouLD i React... (I'm already uSed to iGnoRing the Presence of "him", sO i Dunno ReaLly Know How i Should REact. I find it quite difficult tO cOmmunicate with "hIm") bUt I feLt quiTe bAd as i Told him i wILL trEat him as A fRn(A hi-bye frn)..(though I think its VEry DiFfcult)Yet i can't Bring myself to Even say a Bye tO him.

The same nite i went KTV, at clementi. I met huizhen(pri sch frn) at the escalator at clementi. Den we went to Party World For FY's bday celebration. Until around 11plus... den we went home. Den i reach home bathe le, i surf net until around 2.30plus... tOt of wad haPpened tOday in Sch... i SMS "him" DEn ..m around 3 plus, he sms me TOo

Friday(TOday) Went tO scH as UsaL can't reaLLy rem...DEn after sch rusH Off HOme... on the WAy back On buS 67 .. its so sunny outside so wARm.. and i felt very tired just doZed oFF on the waY... Then after dat i rush back to home.. bathe le gO to Lot1 meEt fy they all...Then we mEEt le we went fy's huse tO EAt... his mom Cooked alot of fooD...yummY Yummy... and i Ate thoSE fOod which i not Supposed to EAt.. now abit "buang" i still not yet reCovered.... sadded...

weLL TOday MC(aT home)

hEe TOday waKe up Quite EArly beCos so many ppl is like Sms me..lor and WAke me Up.. i MEt Travis(SP) and Rong at lot 1 for lunch... den i return her t-shirt she gave some closthes which she cannot weaR.. den we mEEt janice and SOtonG(TianAi) and went muy husE play majionG... until 6plus.. dEn Janice went to teach KeyBoard and And left Tian Ai and travis we sing karaOK until around 9 den went for dinner.. and den cAMe home.. fRom a FRn i GEt to KNow.. tHat the CHriStopher ReaLLy no GD.. one..lor.. tO me i think is he GOT attitude problem and i dun like it..lor...Just like today Christ Called me i jio him Go sentoSA... he say wad sure got alot of guys go one.. he say he dun wan den ask me go hhis house accompany him... i told him i sick leh.. he say i go his huse he take care of me... thinK i SO bo liao.. meh.., if i GO sentoSA is confirm Meet EVeryone there one..lor i not so FRee.. lor.. go his house find hIm.... Wait long lOng..

arghh:SianSation

wah Dammn Sianz lor.. i sick... cannoT gO out... i joblEss no $$ to cheonG le.. den waste $$ to See DOc.. sadded.. haiz.. "haO lei wOR" haiZ.. y huh he onlY Noe how he Feels.. did he EVer Care about how i Feels?


缺席 by SAmmi cheng

曲：袁惟仁 | 词：袁惟仁 | 编：

这应该是我们第一次分离
此时此我还不相信
你的衣服鞋子都还在我家里
我的忠贞你要带到哪里
我已经不能够再去疼爱你
什么事情我可以帮你
回忆又塞不进抽屉或箱子里
没有行李 还能去哪里
都是你 没有我你怎么挥霍你的任性
原谅你 如果原谅是一种证明
都是你 让我贪图渴望过去的甜蜜
原谅你 容许你在最后还是 缺席
你的聪明我还在学习
你的错误都还来得及
我的决定你比谁都在意
我沉默你怎么看不清
都是你 没有我你怎么挥霍你的任性
原谅你 如果原谅是一种证明
都是你 让我贪图渴望过去的甜蜜
原谅你 容许你在我生命里 缺席

CouGh cOuGh cOugh(x-Ray if still nOt recover by this week)

OMG I wakE uP 8am today.. i was already late for mY IS ... i knew i will be late.. last nite forget to send my frn my hp num cos.. he wake up early... can give me morning call. In the end when my hp alarms activated i stop the alarm and went back to my slp. Anyway i am quite sick to wake up oso.. yet today so many ppl called and msg me... In the end i got to GO clinic See Doc.. cos Mabel say IS cannot skip class skipp once will recieve warning letter. So in the end i go sEE Doc for MC. Doc told me if my cough carries on for the next week den i hv to got take X-ray to check my lungs and chest. Scareded me sia.. And i ask Doc to help me check my fractured bones.. cos yesterday in class accidentally hit the table with my left hand and it really hurts .. sO i scared my bones fracture again... bEcos i hit on the same sPot. Lucky Doc say its old injures...

My ex just msn msg me told me how "xin ku" he is... He told me he very xin ku cos everyday we got to face each other and pretends dat we nv saw each other...I told him dat i didn't nOe he got feelings wan will xin ku one... If he would hv tOt abOut it beforE maybe thingS won't Even Turn Out this Way... I Rem I wanted to ask him out for a TOk .. he aVoided me.. i call and call msg and msg... he just rejected, ignored... And Even Add a Testiomial FOr me in FRnster...
(I WOULD GET LOST PROVIDING U STOP CONTACTING ME) i didn't approve this nor reject this .. I wan to remind myself... DAt I will Nv eVEr FALL in aLL thiS AGain.. i will nv trust aGain.. I wan tO remind myself Everything is He did wan he is the one who spoils Everything he, the one who threw aLL the hAPpinEss away ..He SteALs my heart and brEAks it into 2 pieces.. NOw My hEart is Dead, No More loVE, No More Hate, Just A "broken" heart dat use to TrusT daT alwayS believe THere is True Love in this WOrld.. Yet i am aWAken .. no longer the nIavie Ger that i onCE useD to bE.. NO... He is the one who avoid me.. ask mr dun contact him.. and now.. he say he very xin ku.. and now he is the one whu say if we still can be friends? dEn he say :"I bet u dunno wad i did in the Past 1 mnth!" In my mind i was thinking... : den u think u Noe how i suRviEve in that past 1 mnth... ? haha i bET NoOnes KnoWs.. tOO but i Dun cAre anymoRE.. wHether theRe is ppl CAre anoT... is not my buiness ANymore.. I Just Do things which i Think is CorREct anD whaT i like.. I TOok uP modeLling.. EVeryone tOld me... how complicated it is... and everyOne was saying its "pian ren de" but i believe i really Learnt Somthing FRom There, daT is i WAnt a BRand New ME.. i wannA A ChangE. I will nv cry like the way i did beFore... no Matter HOw pain i was no matter how high i fALl i will nv CRy... my Heart is DEaD... nO onE can undeRstands the FeelingS... I dO some kinD of Stunn Dat ppl Tot was bad For mE but i just Dun cAre... i KnoW waD i am DOin...I knoW.



A story tells that two friends were walking
through the desert. During some
point of the journey they had an argument, and
one friend slapped the other one in the face.

The one who got slapped was hurt,
but without saying anything, wrote in the sand:

TODAY MY BEST FRIEND
SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.

They kept on walking until they found an oasis,
where they decided to take a bath. The one who
had been slapped got stuck in the mire and
started drowning, but the friend saved him.
After he recovered from the near
drowning, he wrote on a stone:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.

The friend who had slapped and
saved his best friend asked him,
"After I hurt you, you wrote in the
sand and now, you write on a stone,
why?" The other friend replied "When someone
hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds
of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone
does something good for us, we must engrave
it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."

LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND
AND T O CARVE YOUR BENEFITS IN STONE.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them,
but then an entire life to forget them.

Send this phrase to the people you'll never
forget. It's a short message to let them
know that you'll never forget them.

Do not value the THINGS you have in your life..
But value WHO you have in your life!

Kelvin/Yonghui/KunCheng/Dex/Kester/Janice

Can't Slp(SiCK)

COugh anD cough .. Cough until i reALLy voice changed.. sADed... can't SLp noW.. sHit later 9am claSs...Sianz...Yesterday(Sunday) WEnt training: Learn how to put on Make up For photoshots ome... Sianz.. i reach there around 3.30 instead of 3.. and i very rush so in the end my make up abit haha ugly.. i think haha anything lar.. den i got to rush to Dobby Gaut Mrt to mEet Ah buanG to Return his hp and take back mY.. Suddenly the hp i tOok back wah sEems sO small and light.. hEE i miSS my phone..sia..DEn i rush over to bugis to meet Janice and Fy. We went TCC to eat (consider dinner) ba. Cos she got Coupons sO is very cheap la. The food not bad lar den.. today i bought a top and a small handbag(quite unique). And Janice finally bought a TOp she so Happy...until Sot sot haha
den afterdat we went back to TCC for a drink thier ice blends noT bad.. and we order chicken wings... To Eat. After dat we went home.. On the way home we tok about relationships and guys stuFFs. And then christ called me today and ask my whereabout think he trying to be concern.. den i ask him y he nv call me for around 2 or 3 days.. he say tOo busy can't called. ANd told me he sat book out ask me to meet him. hm i wonder how he looked like when his boTAK.. is He sTill AS handSoMe as b4? Haha i really dunno.

[Saturday]
i Went GrannY house. And Quit my job on the same day. Never go for work.. Cos have been taking Off quite a few times.. and wanna take a break until my training ends.. and find a new job. After granny huse visit, i mEet Janice and fy at Tiong Bahru For dinnER.. They GOt CLub Gathering.. aound more den 10 ppl there.. some are seniors that i didn't know. After dinner i walk oFF 1st to Tiong Bahru PLaza FOr Toliet.. hEE i prefer toliet in ShoppinG cEntres rather den koPitiam. Den aftdat Left Janice, KC, Yonghui, Kelvin, DEx, Kester and Fiona.. We went Coffee beans for a drink. And Took a Few Pictures there..

Kuncheng/DEx/Kelvin+YOnghui(wEaring white)/Kester/Fiona/Janice


Janice/Finoa/Me


Me/Dex


Yonghui/Kuncheng/DEx


Kelvin/Yonghui


DEx with a Comdom(hAhA)


Its actually My PLaster la (They say Look like Condom)



AFter dat when they about to leave i meet Janson At Tiong Bahru with ShiHao and his frn.. Shihao DRove us tO fisherMan Village.. They drank Some bEEr i Drink FruitPunch cOs i sick.. le tHen Abit bored we played some games.. And after dat Left fOr suPPer. Afterdat WenT hOMe SLP...ZzzZ ThaTs ALL FOLks hEE..

hM SatuRdAy tOdAy (FinAL deCision)

Zui hou jue ding = QuiT(my weekend job).
If u ask me why i will tell u : Low Pay, Far, Unstable incenetives!(They kEEp Changing)
And i need to go for my training on Sunday(They changed the timing to afternoon)So i hv to take off most of the time. No Point continuing this job. But i haben called malek to tell him. Hm today i goin ah ma's huse, i just called da gu ask them to cook my lunch. Hm dunno after dat is going to meet who. See who jio me out lor.

Yesterday ah Sen came with his nEw FunKy HairStyle wOoHoo so handSOme. Hey ah sEn niCE look sIa hEehEe i like ur nEw HairStyle, But still pREfer ur long long hair.

AhSen/SAm(stupid face)


AhSen(new hairstyle)/Sam

4th day in sch (MUsiC UndERgrOund)

yEstERdAY moRning WaS rAinninG mAn... sAdded.. sO i wait tIll rAin OveR den go Sch sO i waS Late... My CLass starts at 10am, i reach around 10.37am but i nv went into the class cos consider absent so i went up to blk 39 outside the rm i sit there play with the nokia phone... and tOok a shOt oF mySELf slpinG on thE table.

slp


haha Then after lunch break the guys tOok my phonE and Took somE picS... hEre ARe Some oF them..

Irene & Mabel


Leonard/AhSen/Sam


Weixiang/Leonard/Ziyou/Sam/AhsEn


After class i jio yijun, grace tO muSic undERground last nite to go chEong. bEfoRe that i went west mall with them they Go cut hair at Pro trim.. sO dAmmn Ex lor... and.. service no Gd oso... and we waited very veRy long... Janice and Fy came to meet me at westmall Oso... Cos i jio them to mU oso..Den after dat we went to thE kopiTiam outside westmall to eAt after dat janice and i went back to my home and i go bathe den put on make up den rush out to mU. We suppose to meet yijun on the way but, hehe i mIss her stop in then end i meet her at sPecialist shoPping centre...

Irene(Me siaNz Waiting For yiJun At SpecialisT)


YiJun's new hairsTyLe(Specialist)


dEn i caLled JanSon he Came out to bring us in.. cos i jio him gO mU oso, den his side got shihao and another frn den he told me he saw marcus and candy and candy's frn oso. Den my side is janice, yijun, grace, fy and me. hEe.. den yijun dunno y she very seh after a few drinks... she vomited until very jialak and more den once in the end grace and fy got to send her home 1st and came back again to find us... by that time i oso quite seh lE cos i drink and drink and drink i think i drink quite alot and very fast so abit seh den the last time i went toliet with grace and Janice, aFter i Wee Wee hehe i dunno y squat down and started sobing.. den both of them saw me nv come out den worry and ask me if i am ok... den i was crying by that time and didn't even want to go out of the toliet den eVEn i think 1 or 2 gers which i dunno one oso trying to be helpFul la.. keEP asking me to go out... so in the end i went up.. den 1 ger think her name is angela ar hug me den i jsut cry and cry and cry ... and said somthing like "wO heng xin ku, zhen de heng xin ku, mEi tiAN dOu yAo jiAn daO tA" den cry and cry haha haiZ... dunnO wad i dOinG.. fANcy a Big gER like me just cry suddenLy in the toliet... den AFterdat when we finally gEt out of the ToLiet, we tOok a cab tO cck interchange 24hrs koPitiam to makAn i told them i dunn wan EAt they kEep asking me eat in the end i ask them to help me oRder twO 1/2 boiled eggs and toSated bread hEe..

At CcK KoPiTam(AbiT Seh aR thiS piC)


aFter eating we walk aLL the way back to my huse den i the 1st one go bathe hehe den after i bathe i told them i cannot le i slp 1st u aLl make urself home ok? hehe den i slp and seh all the way until i kEep coughing and coughing and woke up around 8plus... sianz.. den fy ask me y wake up so early i told him mY "jiu xing le" so can't slp anyone... the alcohol effEct Gone le...den Janice told me last nite i hug her like my boaster like dat and "bua her face" haha i laugh and laugh...haha sO cutE kawayii nEh.. haha den they say wan eat breakfast i make 4 1/2 boiled eggs for them 2 each and i nv eat ... cos i not feeling very weLL my mum Cook porridge for me i goin eAt now le lateR going sch lor...