i Am GivINg hIm Last ChanCe.... if Later By 4.45am he nv COme... den Thats It Lorz... we ShaLL JusT sTOP ANd LiVE WeLL WIthOut EAch Other.... aLL THeSe WhILE I aM sTruGGLing wEthEr He is The RighT GuY fOr ME... THoUgh We have been 2Gether FOr 3 years... And IN BetwEeN wE AlSO BrOKe Up FOr 3 Months... aNd PaTch Back AGain.. THougH I kNow iTs NoT thaT he CAn't Live WithouT me... Its Just That BeCOs THat Time WE WEre Still STuyding In tHe SAME cLAss ANd i Just TreaT Him As a NorMaL ClaSSmate Or actuaLLY USe THE WoRD as "StrANger" . beCOs THat TIme He CAn Sees Me EVeryDAy .. In Sch... anD Me TryIng TO PreTend THat Nothing haVE HaPPen Between US... I DO NOt know WHu Is this Guy.... ThatS Y He can"t FOrget Me... bUt Now is a DIffErent Thing... we ARe Both GRADuated... And I have my JOb.. ANd He is In NS ... he get TO Know More FRns... INside Ns... And He Got his UsUaL FrieNds.. I BELieve If we ReaLLY break NOw or aNyttime... Right NoW... I think it WiLL ACtuaLLy Be A very Different STory from the Last tiMe... Maybe a weeK Is ENuGH tO ForGEt EVerything aBout Us... cOs He GOt His FRns... weLL For ME... is Just Back To My sInGLe Life...
PerHaPs BEing SInGLe Makes Me FeeL StronGer... When i aM with him... I May be vEry dePendent on him... MayBe I AM JusT use TO be SIngLe and I WiLL Just Live HaPpiLy... dun need tO THink Where he is ... now... WAd he doing now... Or is He Lying to me now...
tOdaY i just Went Ah Ma Huse ... Were Toking about my deacesed Father and howmy mom keep compaining.. al those THings... Even My DA Gu SAys me.. Last TIme iwas so cheerful Oways like "siaOsiAO" one... how cum nowadays See me like... sOmtimes MoODy MoOdy den Like GOt "FAn NaO" like dat... haiz... for PerSOnal Problems.. StiLL Got WAd? $$ and $$ and $$ .. mY Mom and .. aLL these TroubLes that i have i bet my dear dosen't really knows.. He Oways SAying Y aM i So "Ji JiAO" on $$ MAtters.. with him... he Didn't KNows... hoW My MOm Sees $$ and rather EVeryday eat Maggi Mee Go out With frns Try Not to OverSPent ... aLL these is tO Actaully Trying to SAve The $$ ... sO thaT when Dear Book Out we Can haVE a Gd MeaL ... Maybe a Movie or wadever... that needs $$... i know iam working... i should bother about $$ so much... but Me And brother is sharin the Elecrticty BiLLs.. and Transportation fOod? If i Dun save a little bit by bit How Am i Going to SurVive in this Society ? i need $$ to taKe dRiving liENce ... i need $$ for a House... and $$ to Marry if i wan to in the futurE.. even I dun WAnt to get Married i also wanna Buy a House And live by my Own...
aNoTher Big ProBlem is i dunno WAds the Matter With me after i Start Working my Body like coLlasping Anytime i gto diarhorrea and diarhorrea... KeEP FaLling Sick DuNnO wads WRong with Me somtimes Like very giddY like dat like wanna faint like dat... den all these day dear wasn't by my side taking care of me... i dun blame him cos he was in CamP... he can't Chose i understands ... but tOdaY he lied TO me .....
somtimes i really miss my Dad... i rem when i am sick he is the One whu oways DrAG Also must drag me to the clinic . he Knew I dosn't Like to go See dOc.... coS i oways dun like to TAke Med... but now i just gOt to force myself to Go even if i might just faint if i still carry on walking ... cos... I am working right now and must take care of my health so dat i wont need to KeeP Taking MC... working for 1 month plus already taken 2 mc... and 2 anual leave plus the 3 days compassionate leave.... i also felt bad.. haiz Wad tO dO?
Y can't i just live a simple life? had a Gd bf whu is understanding and oways there for me???
And that my DAd didn't Leave this world ? Then Maybe our Life Would be different?
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