Last nite.. I cried again~

Eh i found the message which i post earlier its quite true...
Becos... u wont cry infront of your frns... lor..
As for me.. i usually crys in the night... Even if my bf is with me..
he may be beside me.. but... he may not know that sometimes.. i cry
in the night while he was slping....

Even if he saw that i was crying, he oso like nv care like dat...
haiz... sumtimes it just hurts me thinking so....

Last nite.. i cried again... while listening to the song "Waiting For You".
He nv told me.. where he went again.. and i hated that...

thinking of wad happened that nite b4 we patched... and during the night dat
he promised that he will changed... and... give me happiness...
yet... tears is all i hv ... recently... i felt afraid... i was afraid to love him
once again.. i had this feeling... one day we may break again...

On thinking of all these ... my heart aches.. my tears... rolled down..
my cheeks.. Everything will.. so nice.. oways.. in the beginning...
and later... everything slowly changed... All becos of his frn..
haiz.. i really duno Am i really that important to him... or its just say only
and dosent mean it...

Dear, if u ever read this blog... please... stop testing my patient and stop hurting
me... and rem... wad u hv write the testimonial in frnster,,... and wad u wrote in
mutliply... When the time dat i really couldn't take it anymore.... i will disappear...
from ur view... i dunno where i may go... but confirm one thing...
u will nv had a chance to see me again.... trust me