~ sEriousLy iLL ~

I have bEEn Sick Since Tuesday.

Tot abit fever nia so i took Med... and slp..

WEd morning wake up high fever 38.6 den no choice go SEe dOc...

mom and Korkor also dunno.. i very sick... no choice.. but still able to eat..

den went to buy porridge~ den sEn and Sammy came my house that Nite to burn Mp3

for saMmy's chalet...And left my huse ard 2.30 am... den i go slp...

Thursaday Monring Wake up.. wOrst.. my TEmp Actually Went up to 39.1 deg.

And was quite worried..and try to wake my mom up to tell her...

deN mom ask me drink salt-water... my throat starts to hurts alot...

den i tOld mom doc nv give me anti-biotics...

and den i try to take med..and cool down my temp by using Cold water with towel..

Eventually my fever subsided.. and but ard evening time.. it came up again..

and my thoats really hurts alot.. do last time went TO clinic again..

to SEe the doc.. den.. frns.. and korkor say ask me to ask if it is dengue..

den i ask DOc.. DOc.. say no Rashes..leh.. should not be dengue.. he say..

becos of the throat...

say see if the next 2 days still fever den go see him.. do the bloOd test..

or see if my body gO rashes..:(

TOday wakeup// Worst.. totally can't Swallow Water...

my throat hurts dunno like wad... super Pain.. can' swallow water ..

can't swallow pills...so drag till abit late den took med..

but that time my temp went abit up again sobsob..really very pain...

feels like crying.. also no strenth.. today i just keep lying on my bed...

try to eat steam egg and white porridge also can't really hurts alot.. i forced

myself to swallow but.. only manage to swallow 3 mouth..

den felt very giddy den afaster took med.. and went back to bed..

was thinking if i Got the 'MAo Dan' so called mom to ask her how to TESt..

all she did was to scOLD ME.. say.. must drink the 'Lingyang' and ask me take med..

and KPKB.. en nv ans my question... i very Pissed off so just hang up the phone..

thEN thiink she Worried also.. even Called ah ma to tok to me... -_-|||

Ah Ma.. called me.. just now.. tok to me nicely.. ask me..

say fever must drink water...pain also must drink ... if not how to recover...

but it really hurts alot..den ask me.. go eat or not..

i told her.. can't swallow... water already can't swallow how to swallow egg and

porridge>? xianz... den ah ma.. say if tml.. can asK me.. go ah ma.. house..

they take care of me.. sobsob I told ah ma..

i whole day just lay on the bed no strngth to get out of bed lor...

know they all very worried...but i really very xinku can't swallow anything..

not i dun wan to eat or dirnk lor..den told ah ma ltr liling (my dear cousin)

will be coming to visit me... so ask her not to worry...

thoughts of the day

~ Thoughts of the day ~

"
不要刻意的追求爱，应为那样会很容易受伤。

当爱情来得时候， 也许你根本都不知道。

但是当失去的时候，你就会肯定他的存在。 "

But don’t go pursuing it. You’ll open urself to hurt.

Love may sneak up on you unaware. But when you lost it,

you’ll be sure of its existence.

Qutoed from ep 19 of A chinese Ghost Story.

- 脆弱 -

- 脆弱 -

当一个人生病时。。 人是不是都会变脆弱？

忽然好想要有一个依靠。。。

忽然好想要被人呵护。。。

好想好想躲进怀里。。。



鄭秀文 脆弱 LYRICS

＊爱　它已经困住我　透不出一点光　能够指引找到出口
　泪　它匆匆流干我　内心所有坚强　无法可想无话可说

＃想要伴着你　又怕被操纵　我想问为什么　却问不出口
　我装得很冷漠　却只是受尽折磨　害怕苦与罪　却很难回头

☆谁看出这样的女人内心里是脆弱
　一半梦　一半苦涩　一生都寂寞
　能不能贪点时间换一些感动
　承认吧　我也需要更多的欢乐

睡吧　白天的伪装　剩下来是脆弱
你的笑你的眼光快把我淹没
明白后又能如何　不愿意放纵
忍不住也要忍着　去唱这首哀歌　谁懂我

Repeat ＊＃☆

睡吧　白天的伪装　剩下来是脆弱
你的笑你的眼光快把我淹没
明白后又能如何　不愿意放纵
忍不住也要忍着　去唱这首哀歌

△幸福的泡沫　永远难捉摸　彼此痛苦都太多
　男人的温柔　来去像一阵风　不要存心敷衍我
　我不是弱者　只求面对自我　痛也痛得很光荣
　我只想摆脱　所有的脆弱　把一些自尊留给我

Repeat △

-sIck-

- sIck -

cOugH cOugh cOuGH...

Cough Non-stOp...

finally trying tO go slp NOW~! zzz

deCide to start 'it' again~

looK out for my hard WOrk~~~

wIll trY to finish ASAP.

周杰伦自导自演 《不能说的秘密》故事梗概

周杰伦自导自演　《不能说的秘密》故事梗概
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　　关键字：不能说的秘密 周杰伦(最新动态、个人档案、FLASHMV专辑) 桂纶镁 黄秋生(最新动态、个人档案) 故事梗概




《不能说的秘密》
小伦(周杰伦饰)与父亲(黄秋生饰)相依为命，父亲是淡江艺术中学的音乐老师，小伦自小在他的熏陶下，拥有非凡的音乐才华。

这天是小伦转读淡江艺术中学的第一天，当他跟着同学小依(曾恺玹饰)参观校园时，突被一段神秘的钢琴乐曲吸引。


赛德让男女高潮不断 我与早泄老公的日子 湿疣疱疹婚姻的杀手
湿疣疱疹—德国新药 患湿疣疱疹别滥用药 战胜肝病—全球震惊
45岁前停经不正常!! 征服女人的秘密武器 猛男让女人高潮尖叫


小伦随着琴音引领，走进一间百年琴室，发现弹琴者是一位清秀脱俗的女生小雨(桂伦镁饰)，两人虽然没有交谈，但在四目交投之间，双方都泛起微妙的感觉。

原来小雨是小伦的同班同学，由于冒失的小雨上课时总是迟到，故经常被迫和坐在后排的小伦坐在一起，两人的感情因此突飞猛进，更到达互相分享秘密的阶段；但每当小伦问及那天在百年琴室所听到的神秘乐曲时，小雨总是模棱两可地回答：“那是一个不能说的秘密……”。

距离毕业的日子越来越近，小雨决定向小伦公开神秘乐曲的秘密，于是相约小伦在琴室相见，小伦以字条回复小雨：“今晚琴房7:30，我也告诉你一个秘密”；怎料字条在阴差阳错之下，竟落在暗恋小伦多时的小依手上。

当晚小伦在琴室边奏着小雨喜欢的乐章边等待着，突然一双温暖的手盖着小伦的眼睛，双方情不自禁地拥吻起来，直至小伦张开眼睛，方知对方不是小雨而是小依；与此同时，小伦听到小雨的哭泣声从门外远去，小伦疯狂地追出去，但小雨早已芳踪杳然。

小雨自此仿如人间蒸发，音讯全无。小伦向同学打听小雨的下落，同学竟说从不知有小雨这个人。小伦到小雨家造访，竟被当成瞎撞。小伦翻看点名册，赫然惊觉名册上也没有出现小雨的名字……

直至小伦发现一张父亲和小雨的合照，向父亲追问关于小雨的一切，小伦方知小雨的出现绝非偶然，一切源自一首神秘的乐曲和一个不可告人的秘密……

~ 不能說的秘密 ~

~ 不能說的秘密 ~



Heard this movie is coming out soon~!!! I wana watched~ lolx...

wOO...

The Song not bad quite nice.. MV below ~>>>

When gege buying the PSP... the salesman.. was playing the song..

heard it today cos they keep repeating.. den I realize wad the songs is abt...

den I realisez that song GOt a Meaning..one.. Tmd.. noW den I know..

I AM SLOW! ...

~ tIreD ~.

~ tIreD ~.

sLP at 6am.. wake up at 12 noon..

deN gege Called went out with mei mei and gege...

weNt to queensway to makan.. i just ate 油条 and 豆浆...

no much appetite... think TOo tired le.. den after dat went to ViVO...

shop ard.. but.. i very Tired not much mood to shop also...

deN gege Bought A PSP ...anD den rush oFf to buy his gf her bday present..

and we WEnt to chervons to sing... den the last 1/2 hr.. gege and mike disappear..

den after our last song we went out tO find gege.. I was Stunted~ wHen i Saw...

the scar on GeGE's hand... mike told me.. dat Bitch just broke off with gege..

den gege Use CIggs to burn himself.. I see le felt very sad..

den My eyes very red... hoW can she Bully my Gege like dat...

gege vEry sad, he also dunno wad he doing.. den smk and smk and smk...

I very worried for him.. :( I hate that bitch... all along also dun really like

her... now still bully my gege..~!!!! xiaojiayi also very hate her... tmd.~!!!

Lets Hope gege will get it over SOon~

~ 黑色幽默 ~

~ 黑色幽默 ~



black humor is like satire, its like, kind of laughing at the misfortune of others, have you seen american beauty? That movie is filled with it. In this song, that is what he is talking about. He thinks that the girl is playing games with him and he is confused if she is serious or not.

要找一个懂我的人已经很难了， 何况是一个爱我的人。。。


TiLL noW... at the agE of 23... i Think only Jeremy

is the Only Guy in My life who truLy understands..me

WhenEver I am sad or.. fEEls trouble.. I dun even have to Tell him

anything.. straight away he knows... we weRe once So Closed...

buT howEver... we Lost contact eventually...

anyway not Even... that bastard.. understands..me..lorz

though... There is another frn.. where I think he is quite similiar to Jeremy

but somehow... its just like dat... maybe i just wanna find back the feeling when

times were back to sec sch... where Jeremy.. is the only one..

wHo treat me very nice and gd...as A frn~

fail my 2nd TP... and break into Tears..once i reached..home..

very saD... so sad.. haiz... try so hard.. yet still failed..

Too Nervous... le.. saddiEz... and Decide to ask Chinchin out..

for ClubbIng..


sAY is to 安慰 her.. actaully is I very sad and aNgry At Myself,

also craving... For clubbing lar... All their fault who ask them..

Kc, sam and sen nv wait for me to Go Club... they wEnt MOs on friday..

Where I be gd ger stay at home slp...


sO just now Went TO DBL O with Kc and Chinchin.. Angela and her ahmad came..ltr..

Guess the only time i Am Free from troubles.. and Worries.. and truly bE happy is

When I am On thE daNce Floor... Letting out all my engery....


Oh yA b4 dat I went Ah ma House.. heE Am So LucKy cos.. i Last Min decide to go de..

and Ah Ma Cooked My fAV Soup~ Lotus Black bean Soup~~ 好喝~！ lolx Also Have Rojah~

lol...aGain... da Gu..lolx mention .. abt.. wELL dun be So dishearted abt the Fail

relationship.. sayiNg next Time can Find a beTter One... WeLl hahA sOry I dun

bElieve in TRue love anyMore..


wELl when I still yOung Maybe... very Like To find a BF... a Guy who reaLLy loves

me, care for me.. and dotes.. me.. but.. Com on ..TELl me.. How Much LOVE can cost??

aLL U get Is a Guy who Pin all ur bubbles... trash ur hopes.. make u DisappointED

and gIve u emPty PromisEs... aLL guys.. are the SAMe.. !!


Chin Chin say ur buddy KC not bad...one.. lolx ask me consider..

dawn mention dat TOo.. since we sO click can go ktV 2 person.. sing and Sing.. lolx

haha erm,, haha ya Kc consider not bad..lar but he 1 yr yonger lor heLLO...lolx

haha KC, sam & sen all 3 are Super nice guys~... belIve they wIll treat Their GF

very nice de.. but.. lol 3 i also very Close de..lorx cOme On.. lolx they dun treat

me as A Ger de lor.. to them I am A GUY~!!!! thats Y we SO click~ lolx they Are my

gaY buDDies.. I love Them sO much~ ... wad My life will be if theY didn't appEAR ???

~MaPleMaple~

hAha started playing frm Ytd,..~ lala

ahah so happy can play with nini... though she in US~

muackZ love her So much~ lolx

PICTURE of the DAY~ haha

zzz played till I gastric le..~ thats ALl fOLKs.. Bedding Time~

歌曲：害怕

歌曲：害怕
歌手：林俊杰 专辑：第二天堂



wu~~~~~~~~~~~wo~~~~~~~~~~~
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
*我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

~Shit~

~Shit~

stuPid.. think i really quite drunk... last nite...

gege called me.. ask me go out.. den ask y I sounds..so gloomy..

I : sTill Seh ma...

I : Uncle 我昨天喝多少leh。。

den Gege start scolding me...lolx.. he say nobody ask me to drink... SO much lor..

den say I keep saying Uncle, 我喝多少。。...lolx I tot i only today just tell him.. this.. only..

he said i last nite keep repeating... this... lolx... haha .. xianz.. Think i must really be drunk...

Totally NO idea abt...wad I had done or tok last nite..lolx morning Wake up...

also can't even walk properly..zzz lolx... tmd... haha ok lar..

since i also long time nv drink till like dat..le..but Hang Over.. not very Gd.. fEELing..

tIred.. head spinning... gong gong~ stoning... xianz xianz xianx....

Right now.. GOt to Drink Alot of Green Tea.. den ltr still Goin out with

gege... mei mei and cheng...

Recently.. duno y.. keep having.. headaches.. till migranes... and each time..

last for 1/2 day... Wanted to Pop panadols.. But.. haiz.. I just have to endure the pain

cos I can't panadols.. Got phobia... unless fever den take..zZzz den ytd took 2 sts frm gege..

and asked isit becos.. I stop le..dats y... gege say.. ya.. if suddenly stops..

will somehow have withdrawal effects.. den i say Orh... den actually last nite at chervons..

after the 1st mug of beer.. It smoothens the Pain... evntually my headaches.. actually have

gone..

~ SuNday ~

~FianLLY Drunk~

ydT... Met Sam 2pm at Orchard Mrt... and we Went to Far East..

To Window shop...lolx For me.. we shop ard... and i tried some... Shades..

He say big one.. Nice... lolx... Asked Sam... My new Hairstlye Nice? he say nice..

lolx but not Punk enugh...lolx.. he say wanted tO Help me style...

haha Woo long Time nv Meet SAm and ah Sen.. Miss Them.. so Much...

GueSSed WAd? i really miss them.. alot.. and I love them.. so Much...

They are the Ones.. When I am so DOwn.. With wad Happen tat time..

They Are my dearest... help me...accompanY..me... through my darkest Part of Life..

WiLL nv Ever Forget them.,,muaKz... haha.. 3.30.. I acc.. SAM to weELock PLace... TO MTM

He book a Trail treament foR his EYe bag... haha SAm's $$ so Easy TO earn...

LucKy i Was there with him... Lolx SAVE HIM!!!!! ar bo i think he WOuld.. just SPent his $$$.

dEN Ah sen Came..TOO..haha We TOOk Some Pictures... in MTM... wOO nice nice...

haha .. WeLL then After dat..weNt back to Far East .. Conitue..shopping.. SAM bought A pair..

Of Pants.. Which both Sen and I toT WAsn't very Nice... but..lolx.. as eXpected... I knew he will

buy. tHen Told Ah Sen... : 'Sam's $$ very easy To earn ... Next time.. I got $$ I Open a Boutique

Just Selling Guys... clothing.. and.. Put Some xiao mei mei tHere serve him.. he sure buy... lolx.'

Sen LuFF..lolx gagaga...lallaa after dat.. we Went to ... the level 4?... to EAt diiner Culet rice..

den went TO cIne... Sen 'DaBao' Chicken rice.. for SAmmy.. and bring to Taka.. to find her..

and Acc her.. till she finish her dinner.. while me and Sam.. went to Cinie....to find CLover..

FianLLY.. Bought my Clover.. WOo Ex... $24.90 just for a Hp ...Accessory.. den That time..

gege Called.. me.. ask me where am i...Told gege..I was at Cinie... Then he said he was with

Xiaojiaoyi & cheng at The Califonial Fitness....then Ask me..how if wanting to meet them...

but they leaving Town.. Told gege i Will go find them ltr... sTill Choosing my CLover for quite

some time..just 5 mins.. ltr after gege called.. gege Called again...

GEGE: Mei mei~

Me: huh? simi?

GeGE: GUESS WAD~

Me: ???

GEGE : I SAW ur EX~~!!!

Me : where?

GEGE: califonial there.lorz.. walking towards... somerset MRT..

ME: huh huh.. really ar.. with a GEr huh?

Gege: Not yet.. alone...

Me: Ok~ .. SHIT~

.................................................................................

shit.. AFter dat.. I started feeling very Nervous.. unwell.. i very scare will meet..him..

And its.. quite obvious.. that I started.. to nervous.. den i TOld sam..

and when SEN came.. he ask me.. eh wad happen..? den i told him.. he said wont so suay de lar..

lets GO play Pool.... den i Started Stonning.. they tried to Crack Jokes.. on my Ex..

I knoew they trying to make me Feels.. better... haiz.. den I started having my Migrane...

ard 9pm.. ended the Pool... den went to Long JOhn... and...Sen wanted to makan...

den.. after dat we tOk abt clubbling... his gf.. my ex.. dat bitch.. and alot of stuffs.. till ard

9.45pm Den I Took 502 Express tO Chervons.. Find gege they all...

and drank gege's beeer...and Singin...After dat,, I felt no enugh.. told gege.. so how?

and Finally decided to go to XiaoJiayi's Place...

acc her back and went to 7-11 to buy half dozen beer.. and me one person drink again..

This time.. I am .. Drunk.. and after dat Took cab home.. Was Totally.. OFF...zzz

Did not have the energy anymore.. just drop dead on to bed.. till now. den Took oFF my Lens..

remove my make up... and while removing my make up... i saw my Eye liner.. drop...

not sure if Last nite,.. I cried or not.. totally forgotten..wad happen..

only know i drink and drink.. and drink and drink .. gege was on the phone with 'M' his ex..

me just drinking and drinking.. while xJiayi playing with her puppies... Piano and Misty..

WOo i Really love Piano Alot she is so cute...den now still thinking if i actually had cry.. zzz now..

very seh.. abit hang over..reaLLy.. fianlly Drunk? WOoo

《世界上最远的距离》

好几百年光阴流过去了，在与长江同样重要的河流--恒河边上，也有一位和李之仪一样蘸着水声作诗的人。他面前的涛声却化作《世界上最远的距离》：

“ 世界上最远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最远的距离
不是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱

却不能在一起......”

印度诗人泰戈尔和中国词人李之仪，太相似的是大江流日夜，客心悲未央。太不相似的是：后者，用心灵克服距离；前者，用心灵制造距离。

甚至，泰戈尔索性说：

“ 世界上最远的距离
是尚未相遇
便注定无法相聚

世界上最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天

一个却深潜海底”

Link: http://linan.blshe.com/post/73/41967

错了再错

歌曲：错了再错
歌手：张栋梁 专辑：王子



退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
爱或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧
即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲全为了失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也给刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

~ Sentosa ~

~ Sentosa 09/07/2007 ~

Pictures Up~

xIaoJiayi brought her 2 doggies...aLong.. the puppy in black is called 'Piano'

the White one is called 'Misty' I like Piano... she's so Cute.. dun U think so??

lolx i aLways.. like Dogs Since young.. I rem there's once i told my dad that

I wana a Dog as my bday present when i was quite young...

Den He Told my Aunt to buy me a Dog Softtoy... -_- lolx but i Told him i wanted real one..

He said cannot i still TOo yOung .. Can't even take care of Myself.. how to Own a DOg..

sobsob...Nvm.. now i can't Own.. next time..if I will get married...

den My husband must be a Dog Lover..lolx he must buy me one...

if I nv get married in the End.. I will buy myself.. 1 haha...

KBOX

~ KBOX Lastnite ~

wELl went to Kbox Lot1 with Kc...

haha Omg we are crazy lolx

2 person ktv for 5 hrs..

haha and the last 30 mins... with just keep repeating 2 songs...

1. I Still believe.. (cos KC.. wanna train that song..)

2. 窗外（I also wanna train this song cos nv sing b4 only
last nite lolx but KC is Gd at this song..
even taught me how to sing the female part.. haha）

sO we just keep repeating this 2 sOngs.. lolx

wOo like Long time nv sing till SO Shiok~

hm..KBOx system.. still The Best..and my Fav~ lolx

漩涡

歌曲：漩涡
歌手：孙燕姿 专辑：逆光



总装着很有把握
不准爱渗入生活
才发现闯了祸
让你当真以为我的心上了锁
让你绝望地走
成全独立的我
好想捂住耳朵
不想不看不想听谁说
好想蹲在角落
把谴责的眼光都躲过

像个黑色漩涡
将我吞没
悔恨已逃不脱

我承认这都是我
感情事处理得不妥
从不说
我爱你
那么多

原来人可能脆弱
爱让我很难振作
我坐在最前座
人生第一次面对什么叫落寞
经历你这一走
最大傻瓜是我

我不要谁好心帮我
每个人像在隔岸观火
看我犯错
提醒我说
都是我的错
提醒我说
逼你离开我

就算同情是条绳索
我也没办法伸出双手
拯救自己(除了你)
除非是你(拯救我)
肯回头(为了我)
扭转这个结果

方大同 - 爱爱爱

方大同 - 爱爱爱

作曲 : 方大同　填词 : 周耀辉　

在哪里记载第一个桃花贼　
谁在哪里典卖第一支紫玉钗
我在这里见怪更怪　
见过电影里面人家的海　
更枇去看海
唱过人家的爱更想找爱
你哭起来我笑起来　
都为了爱爱爱
有一天翻开辞海找不到爱　
花不开树不摆还是更畅快
爱还是会期待　
还是觉得孤单太失败　
我爱故我在

找到爱幸福的人肯不肯躲起来　
正在寂寞的人能不能站起来
我在这里陪你无奈　
读过小说里面人家等待　
更习惯等待
唱过人家的爱更想找爱
你喊出来我静下来　
都为了爱爱爱
有一天翻开辞海找不到爱　
花不开树不摆还是更畅快
爱还是会期待　
还是觉得孤单太失败　
我爱故我在
挥不出满天满地的尘埃　
买不起满街口袋的品牌
你闷起来我傻起来可以爱
会不会整个时代只有一个告白　
谁不爱过不存在
不明不白不分好歹　
都为了爱爱爱
有一天翻开辞海找不到爱　
花不开树不摆还是更畅快
爱还是会期待　
还是觉得孤单太失败　
我爱故我在

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Nini

Thanks Nini for ur E-CarD~ Love u always~

I like that pic.. very nice and sweet... Thanks babe~...

I know u are always there for me..no matter how far we are...

so when are u coming back to SG?? 还有多久？

窗外

窗外




男：点了支不想抽的菸YA~
思念像烟圈飘散在窗边OH~
女：泡了杯没糖的咖啡　
我擦的香水OH~
会不会飘到你面前
女：天空上的云　　
男：外面下的雨　　　　
女：彷佛像你的心情捉摸不定
男：捉摸不定
合：回想你扮鬼脸的表情　
男：难以忘记OH~（女：以忘记OH~）
男：爱离窗外越来越远　　
女：是我太顾虑尊严　　
男：下著大雨那一夜（女：虽然）　
男：你哭红双眼（女：我哭红双眼）　　
男：都是我不对（女：你没有不对）　
合：我才发现我无力挽回OH~
女：爱离窗外越来越远　　
男：爱以被画上等线　
女：已过了多久时间　
男：你哭红双眼（女：我哭红双眼）　　
男：都是我不对（女：你没有不对）　
合：我才发现这早已经是从前
休息一下（间奏）
男：点了支不想抽的菸YA~
思念像烟圈飘散在窗边OH~
女：泡了杯没糖的咖啡　
我擦的香水OH~
会不会飘到你面前
女：天空上的云　　
男：外面下的雨　　　　
女：彷佛像你的心情捉摸不定
男：捉摸不定
合：回想你扮鬼脸的表情　
男：难以忘记OH~（女：以忘记OH~）
男：爱离窗外越来越远　　
女：是我太顾虑尊严　　
男：下著大雨那一夜（女：虽然）　
男：你哭红双眼（女：我哭红双眼）　　
男：都是我不对（女：你没有不对）　
合：我才发现我无力挽回OH~
女：爱离窗外越来越远　　
男：爱以被画上等线　
女：已过了多久时间　
男：你哭红双眼（女：我哭红双眼）　　
男：都是我不对（女：你没有不对）　
合：我才发现这早已经是从前
女：我想拉上窗帘
男：OH~我想闭上双眼　
合：只是我不想看到窗外过去的情结YA~（OH~）
男：爱离窗外越来越远　　
女：是我太顾虑转变　
男：下著大雨那一夜（女：虽然）　
合：你（我）哭红双眼　　
都是我不对（你没有不对）　
我才发现我无力挽回OH~
女：爱离窗外越来越远
男：OH~越来越远　　　　　　
女：你等了多久时间　　
合：你（我）哭红双眼
都是我不对（你没有不对）
我才发现这早已经是从前
男：都是我不对～　　　　　　　
女：你没有不对～
男：都是我不对～　　　　　　　
女：你没有不对～　

My Big Workout

~ My Big Workout ~

wELL wOke up ard 9.50am.. den wash up...

changed and bring my bball down... to play...

but not abit 'lau hong' haha hm...

dunno How Long nv play bball le...

When i am Playing bball.. memmories of sec sch... flashes back

cOs.. I was thinking... the Way that hanwei taught me de last time..

how to bend the knees.. and use the left hand to support the ball

and the right hand to shoot,... den rem ... my class.. ppl..

xueni, jiayan, xiaorong.. when PE time.. ask to Play bball..

all siam... and very unwillingly.. guess i am the only one.. who is keen..

so Often Play with weizhang weejia and especially wenhong..

den suddenly.. flashes back.. all the memmories... in sec school...

girl guides.. how i frm.. a nobody promoted to Qm... and how to use our skills..

in camp... all that.. the fun we used to have... den i realised... how different I am

from last time.. and now.. i changed alot.. i Rem.. last time...

I am always very cheerful..and full of craps.. lolx and

I always have my funny thouGhts.. abt erything.


Most importantly... i am very Sporty and Strong ger,... not like now...

just keep hiding in a caves..of my own... aM I right nini??

I rem.. last time in sec sch days.. when i am unhappy i will just go running ...

and running and running.. to vent out... my unhappiness and sadness..right???

ya I rem... everything now... maybe as times.. gOes by.. as we grow up.. and

as more bad things.. happen to me.. I have slowly forgotten.. wad i am used to Be...

ya,,, everytime a bad things happen i grew to be more gloomy... and down...

thats y.. i am very sorry to all my friends.. who actually cares for me.. sorry..

to let u guys.. worry so much.. especially nini...

U at US already got thing to fret.. abt.. still must worry abt me..

hopefully when u are back to SG... we can have more time.. for each other..

I really miss u... i Miss Shuqun TOO.. i miss the old Ai Ling.

ღ Canny ღ sent 12/7/2007 7:45 AM:
想要好过一些，就必须参透
因为

没有付出 就不会有奢望
没有背叛 就不会有受伤
没有离去 就不会有孤单
没有期许 就不会有失望
没有执着 就不会有彷惶
没有放开 就无法了望。。。

可惜人就是犯践的，老喜欢义无反顾的把头往坑里栽！

ღ Canny ღ sent 12/7/2007 7:46 AM:
quoted from xu zheng roing's blog.. seemed so true ah...

Ya nini its quite true... :)

Don't Worry .. I am .. fine~

已经看破红岑。。。

Stay The Same lyrics

Title: Joey Mcintyre - Stay The Same lyrics

Artist: Joey Mcintyre

Visitors: 9265 visitors have hited Stay The Same Lyrics since Feb 12, 2007.

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Chorus
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.When you learn to love yourself, you¹re better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there¹s nothin' 'bout you I would change.

Verse
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Chorus

Bridge
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

Harry Potter

|~ Harry Potter ~|

wenT to waTch Harry Potter just Now..

Woo I Love Him so much lolx... he is sO cute~ haha

hm.. oVerAll QUITE nice.. but think Too　LittLe

Actions...As in little Fighting..for This.. time..

Hm.. overALL i wiLL give 3 1/2 out of 5 points.. haha

hm... dunno isit.. cos.. this time its not 'him' to watch with me..

I felt abit sad ? cos.. previously.. all the Harry Potter..

all watched with him... now different le...

he Will watched with her and no longer me..

anyway frns.. dun worry i really get over le.. just dat..

same actor... same character.. but the person watched with me..

different le..还是会有伤感吧。。。

aFter Movie rushed off to Meet Dawnie... called her.. she nv picked up

lucky fOund her at minitOons.. and She say nah: FOund ur Cupid VooDoo.. lolx

daWnie bought me the cupid VoodOo.. hp accessory that i Drop at Chervons..

that time. DEn... after dat bring her to Aries... to buy black pins...

and head Towards mY home.. cause..

I teaching her How to Style her hair for her frn's wedding dinner...

haha she say ... so diff.. nah its easy.. iF u Practice enugh...

COs Practice makes perfect~ lolx Finally.. haha She PassED~ lolx.. haha after some

demo...

当你孤单你会想起谁 II

|当你孤单你会想起谁|

This song I think suits my frn very much..

Cos.. just like the lyrcis... said..

aNd frm mY understanding of this frn...

你的心情总在飞

你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味

And tHis Frn told me b4 he is very afraid of being Lonely...

你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹

hm.. where else.. this part.. erm.. maybe ?

i not sure abt this but this frn.. of mine heath not very gd..

body quite weak... So try to Tough? yet So weAK? 经不起一点风吹

你的身边总是要许多人陪

Always... Meet 'frns' think mostly are Gers ba.. ~ For dinner.. movie~

你最害怕每天的天黑 this haha not sure Too.. but nite time..

Especially when he is very tired.. and slping soon

he will become very 温柔 ..

但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁

Recently he have been acting very strange...

Think he is trying to distant from me.. though i dun really know y...

but .. 人总要离别 谁也不能永远陪谁 .. this is HOw i see it ba...

而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对

SomeTimes.. we Do feELs lonely at times...

So Think becos of his current situation maybe he tends to feel lonely?

当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

当你孤单你会想起谁

歌曲：当你孤单你会想起谁
歌手：张栋梁 专辑：首选张栋梁



你的心情总在飞
什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回
music
你的心情总在飞,什么事都要去追
想抓住一点安慰,
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊
你最害怕孤单的滋味
你的心那么脆,一碰就会碎
经不起一点风吹
你的身边总是要许多人陪
你最害怕每天的天黑
但是天总会黑,人总要离别,
谁也不能永远陪谁
而孤单的滋味,谁都要面对,
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
当你孤单你会想起谁
你想不想找个人来陪
你的快乐伤悲,只有我能体会
让我再陪你走一回

Lonely

[范玮琪 + 光良 - 好寂寞]

Harry Potter

-Harry Potter-

Oh Harry Potter is OUT~~~!!!! TODAY!...

I wan to watch~!!! Most favourite movie~

Journey

歌曲：Journey
歌手：张韶涵



it's a long long journey
till i know where i'm supposed to be
it's a long long journey
and i don't know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i am lost and know that i must hide
it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you

many days i've spent
drifting on through empty shores
wondering what's my purpose
wondering how to make me strong

i know i will falter i know i will cry
i know you'll be standing by my side
it's a long long journey
and i need to be close to you

sometimes it feels no one understands
i don't even know why
i do the things i do
when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul
will you break down these walls and pull me through

cause it's a long long journey
till i feel that i am worth the price
you paid for me on calvary
beneath those stormy skies

when satan mocks and friends turn to foes
it feel like everything is out to make me lose control
cause it's a long long journey
till i find my way home to you.to you

Jb

~ JB ~

Today.. my instructor called me at 10.30am telling

me.. that I have lesson at 1pm. But i Totally forgotten..

Still I went for lesson after my bRunch.

And after Lesson gege called me.. say wanna go Jb.. so

3 of us.. me gege and cheng went to jb...

once we reached jb... i went to do pedicure.. till they came back to find me..

den cheng went for a haircut... and gege acc me go shop ard..but his back prb...

so ask me go shop...1st.. and also nv tell me.. to meet where.. or wad.. ltr..

sO i just went to walk ard.. but my headached got worst...

so just walk and walk... and eventually didnt notice that the time...

till I met both of them..at the 1st floor.. den gege was very angry...

I know he is worried... but.. haiz.. i also dunno wat to.. say

during dinner.. time.. i know he cannot tahan liao.. so went cheng was ordering... food

gege started his lecture.. he said till very seriously

Gege: No.1, I knoe its not ur fault... cos i nv tell u we need to rush back to sg.
No.2, I know its my fault cos i nv tell u where we going to meet.
But u should at least have some initative to go back to salon to find us..mar..
Do u know how worried we arE?
Do u know we waited 1/2 an hr at the salon for u?

Me: i know its my fault. but i dunno mar...

I really dunno mar.. haiz.. i dunno how to say ...or wad to say ..

den gege say i bo chap ... and said alot of frns.. said i very hack care pattern too...

haiz.. den i told gege ya I am...like this. cos I am inside a 框框。and inside the 框框

only me alone inside... when noone can enters... and i dun care abt anything...

this is wad i said to him.. cos i dunno wad i can say liao

but if i really dun care i think i wont be crying just now... and weeping on his car..

when they tot i am slping...haiz...

gege say his once like dat b4... so he know how it feels..

and said to me.. u inside there.. gd meh? den went u wanna Leave ur 框框?

I also dunno.. I can't find back... my old self... just like lost my souls...

i know.. everything I also know.. i know many ppl care for me.. and very worried for me..

but noone knows.. how much i Want to get out of it.. but i just can't

Maybe I am afraid...that once I am out of my circle.. i Might just fall into any pits..

and Get hurt.. again.. maybe this is the only way i protect myself..

Sunday

Sunday

tRiEd to Chat with him...

but he bo hiew me.. till i abit pissed..

den slp... take a nap... too tired.. wake up ard 4pm..

tOok a Bath and ate my lunch... after dat

wait for Gege's call.. and tOok a cab down to IMM..

go there to walk walk awhile.. see if can find clOver..

inFact there is.. but their clover leaves not very nice.. and yet so eX...zzz

just only a very simple hp accessories.. cheapest $10 but not nice..

design also not nice so nv buy.. went to SK .. look for JW..

ask him.. how much.. if i wanna sell away de ring.

den chit chat awhile with him.. tok abt the bastard and bitch abit...

den hE showed me his new nOkia 5700 wOo quite nice..~

haha wHen he served customer.. i was trying out his camera..

and took 2 pics.. of myself.. den after dat wait for gege to fetch me..

den went to gege house .. to play mj... haha then stupid mike.. keep craking jokes..

throughout the whole nite we have been luffing.. zzz luff till my tummy pain le..

haha ok lar.. luffin is consider an exericse tOO lalalala...

lolx overall haha won $5 haha .. den gege sent me and mike hm..

Mike say can lend me a better hp.. so i follow him up.. and lend me his spare nokia hp..

haha Alot better then wad gege Lend..me lolx~ Thanks Mike~ lala

haha now den realise i have alot of frns.. that are so generous..and nice to me~:)

though mike always suan me.. lol but afterall nice guy..~

lol even though not very very close.. frn... his actaully gege's guitar frn.. in SP..

lala ~ wELL... gd nitez everyone~ :) lalala

veRy happy to See GeGe and mike ~ lolx they brightened up my Day~

ulcer

Lala boring day again... my tounge got ulcer...zzz

waKe up again with gAStric.. finaLLy See through 1 thing..

Shyryln chated with me.. this morning..

S：Nv slp ar?

I: Ya lor.. can't slp lor..

S: iyo..y like dat?

I: like dat lor.. hahaz

S: still can luff ar...

I: haha last nite.. blog alot of things.. but.. detele all the post le..

S: Y?

I: dun Let the ppl see mar.. lolx so deleted lor

S: iya still tot i could go read ur blog leh...

I: dun wan lar..lolx

S: den defeat the purpose le..

I: nvm lar.. it doesn't matter already..

ya everything its over... wether its.. the 'hIm' or 'Him' or 'him' oR 'HIM'...

It doeSn't really matter le...

相通了就好了。。
　
Den Chat with 'W'

W: think ur feeling better today le right...

I : ya..

The bubble thoughts:
' lolx as if... just dun wan to contine to spoil ur day.. like ytd.. stupid guy
u everything also dunno lar... and wont tell u also...'.

陌生

忽然觉得，你好陌生。。

在你面前，在也没法跟你谈心事了。。

温柔的你变得不温柔了。。。

Change

~ 你变了~

你变了。。 是应为‘她’而变的吧。。。

朋友，舍不得就把‘她’找回来阿。。。

不喜欢你这样子。。我讨厌这样的你。。。

大哥

~ 大哥 ~

bOredness~

~哭了~

歌曲：哭了
歌手：范晓萱 专辑：darling

雨又在下了
看外面又湿了
我一直等著
让屋里灯都亮著
这样伤心地睡了
这样压抑地醒了
想著你要来了
可该变的都变了
而孤独是什么
心冷是什么
情是什么
你是什么
我不要再想了
我已经倦了
我不想再唱了
我已经哭了
想陪你坐著
想听你说著
想知道我值得
以为我们还爱著
把窗户都开著
风也是凉的
我一个人唱歌
声音也变成冷的
而孤独是什么
心冷是什么
情是什么
你是什么
我不要再想了
我已经倦了
我不想再唱了
我已经哭了
而孤独是什么
心冷是什么
情是什么
你是什么
我不要再想了
我已经倦了
我不想再唱了
我已经哭了
我不想再唱了
我已经哭了

换换爱

Extracted from 换换爱

嘉蒂：其实是我活该， 对不对？
小南：你在说什么阿？
嘉蒂：我怎么会忘记我来赖以生存的原则阿？
嘉蒂：不抱希望，就不会失望小南：胆小鬼。 我江小南的原则，才不会像你这么逊。。小南：就算失望一百次， 只要一次希望成真，
我们的生命就会丰盛起来， 一切就会值得的。。
嘉蒂：是那样吗？
嘉蒂：那如果， 永远都等不到希望成真的那一次？

PIcs

~nEw haIrStYLEs~

是你决定我的伤心

歌曲：是你决定我的伤心
歌手：张玉华/李圣杰


(女)我曾经以为　那是一次潇洒的邂逅
所以我一直以为　能够轻易说Hello
抱著游戏的心情　考验自己没有防备的感情
不在乎自己有没有这种能力

(男)我必须承认　不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信　也会是你的问题
太多太多的激情　闯进尘封已久的禁地
让我们失去选择的馀地

(男)是你决定我的伤心
(女)是你决定我的伤心
(合)如果我们还会重新相遇
我会用感觉拥有所有的你

(男)是你决定我的伤心
(女)是你决定我的伤心
(合)如果我们还会重新相遇
我不会让你决定我的伤心

(女)我必须承认　不敢释放我的真情
所以我相信　也会是你的问题

(男)太多太多的激情
闯进尘封已久的禁地
让我们失去选择的馀地

(男)是你决定我的伤心
(女)是你决定我的伤心
(合)如果我们还会重新相遇
我会用感觉拥有所有的你

(男)是你决定我的伤心
(女)是你决定我的伤心
(合)如果我们还会重新相遇
我不会让你决定我的伤心

(男)相信我　不是有意打扰你的心
但我如何知道竟会是你决定我的伤心

(女)是你决定我的伤心
是你决定我的伤心
是你决定我的伤心
如果我们还会重新相遇
我会用感觉拥有所有的你
是你决定我的伤心
是你决定我的伤心
如果我们还会重新相遇
我不会让你决定我的伤心


Somehow this song.. hm.. nice..

Things

~最近~

其实也不知道最近自己在想什么。。。

就是有点心闷闷的，可能正个星期躲在家里闷出病了。。。

可能加上担心朋友吧 。。。 想帮忙却不知道这么帮。。。

希望身边的朋友们都能幸福， 快乐。。

应为我知道我早已失去得到幸福的权利。。

我向神灵和上帝祈求保佑我周曹的人都能幸福快了。。。

绝对不要象我一样。。。。

Short hair

~shOrt hair~

ThEre Goes My Long long Hair...

WheNever I have things.. that I wanna 放下。。。

And think I am sTill StuCKed~ in my circle~

I would Go tO Vincent & Daniel Look for Collin.. and cuT my hair~

Now its Really quite ShORt...

changE styLe

~ChANge hairStyle~

y went to Cut hair.. at least 4 to 5 inch shorter..

Dyed hair brownish Red... adn treatmEnt... $130 broke liaozz

-_-||| haiz.. siAn... den came home to Eat dinner..

and .. the guy.. at DBL.. my frn's frn.. 'Hans'

ask me out for maybe ktv or a drink... not sure later still meeting him or not..

was worried abt 'P' guessed is ok.. sO ..

hm not sure meeting him or not.. he said after dinner msg me...

maybe go dink if 'S' dun want go k..

but abit Tired.. dunno wanna GO out lor nOTz..

Now still watching 热情仲夏。。。 2 more eps finishing soon

Just Finished Ep 10.. And Extracted this .. hm.. very meaninful.~

我不知道这样说对不对。

但是你不觉得，我们常常会忽略等候在身边像空气一样的人吗？

就好象有句话是这样讲的 ：‘暮然回首那人却在灯火阑珊处’。。

hm... nice drama..~ If anyone wanna watched this drama asked from me ba..

I d/l the whole set le~ (=^o^=)

Dream

~ Dream ~

hAi... Dreaming aGain..

another Long dream...

this Time I dreamt of many different story...

the longest one.. is... 'Him'

He came back ..and asked me for forgiviness

and tell me that he know its all his fault..

and asked me for patched back...

And Told me things abt 'Her' ...

haiz.. y Like dat? TiLL now still Dream of him and her?

omg 难道潜意识还在想他？？ 还放不下吗？ 不可能~ 我一定要放下。。

In my dream.. I did patched back with him... I dun understands y...

In reality 'NO' even if he one day came back to BEG for me.. also 'NO'~!

PLease let the past just go ~

Tired

~tIred Wed~

WOke up 8am.. prepare den go Granny house.. with brother..

Den reached.. there ard 9.45am.. cos we took cab down...

And waited till 10.30am.. for the ritual to start...

after everything Over... finish lunch and deN go 四马路。。。拜拜。。

den 'Change luck' also.. fOr me..

HopefuLLy everything wilL be fIne now..

AfTer dAT aUnt went back.. 1st cousin and me went to shop ard at buggis..

till ard 5pm... den went to marina sq for ah ma they all to come.. for dinnER~

we had ouR dinner at the Immperial Treasure... Brother Treat~

aftEr that went ard shOpping... DEn.. saw a few Mobile shopz... sony Ericssion

stIll LooKing at The Phones... w810i or w610i ... zzZzz haiz..

REALLY dunno wad to buy.. cOusin say .. $400 plus.. sO ex..

y spent so much for a Hp.....den .. ask me buy back Old one..lorz

$300 plus...Zzzz haiz.. i also Dunno Den i SAw the K800i think is $400 plus also...

WorZ.. but dun like that its JOyStick..haiz.. DEn cousin keep asking me to Go..

She say see le the price also wont drop de.. deN ... ask me to Go carrfour ...

to look for ah ma.. and gu gu they all..Zzz

zzZ.. Tired TIred TIred..

Slpy??

~Slp? can't slp?~

Can't slp tonite again~

haiz... y Like dat...???

xianZ... 明明就是很累。。。

yet can't slp... xianz.. tml.. nono is ltr morning

still Must waKe up Super Early... tml.. to go ah ma house...

Cos its ah gong's 49 days... le.. after dat.. can where red..le..

and CUT hair..

stupid

-sTupiDty-

A: maybe shouldn't like dat anymore...

B: i think you just let nature take its cause lor

B: some times the more you want to control something, it will turn out worse.

A: 不是我的勉强也不是我的。。。

B: ?

A: 其实，我还蛮傻傻的。。。 哈哈

B:??

A: a msg frm him... den.. after i came home frm dinner with my frn...

A: ard 10.30pm... waited till now..

A: also nv SEE him online..

A: tmd .. lolx ...

B: iyo ..

A: 傻傻的

B：its not your fault

A：got actually got see him online awhile den offline..

A：but i nv sms him and ask y .. just like dat lorz..

A：den watching my taiwan drama...den keep minising see he got online or not..

A: abit stupid hor..

B: no lar. its like this..

B: aiyoh. i really don't know what to tell you leh. haha. ask you msg him also
cannot don't msg him will feel uncomfortable.

A: lolx 很恶心。。。hor

B: take it easy ok.

B: anything just tell me lor. though cannot help much, but at least you can tell
someone.

A: hai hao lor..


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hM extracted from some frn's conversation...

I think A very very stupid...

only know how to wait and wait.. so silly~

Poor A...

SELFISH

~SELFISH~

NB.. I got a very selfish bro...

Y cant he just dotes one me abit???

Just becos he wants to play his game.. I can't even download..anything...

Can't EVen wAtched YOUTUBE...

Y always like dat.... DEn.. I can;t Do all these..

den I GO OUT till.. late..

deN ask me dun everyday GO OUT late.. Now i stay at hOme..

I can't Do this or DO dat?

为什么老天爷要这样对我。。。

最疼我的爸爸已经不在。。。 被爱人和最信任的朋友背叛。。。

这一切难道还不够吗？？？我失去的。。。 难道还不够吗？？？

我想要的。。。 也不能也得不到。。。 为什么要这样对我。。。

我在也无法掩饰我的伤痛。。。我真的很难受。。。 我好累。。。

爸爸能不能带我一起离开。。。。

vEry Poor

haiz.. Quite Poor Recently...

xIanz... yet ... reaLLy 好想好想 buy hp...

Yet dunno wad model to buy... still thinking wether should get back

w810i or w610i ... Function wise is Almost the same..

Yet.. w610i is newer and slimer den my w810i... but obviously $100 plus more...

sO far sEE the price $468 without contract for w610i...

if I am working.. maybe i won't think so much just buy...ba...

Now not working.. HP Still lost.. very sianz... haiz.. dunno how to buy lar~

nb~! den without my Hp... 没了手机就好像没了灵魂。。。 失去了自我。。。。

这么办。。。 天啊，掉些钱下来给我吧。。。

After driving today, went to shyrlyn's place.. to get a spare phone frm.. her..

Den after dat went to westmall with her, charlene and another of shyrln's frn...

to eat lunch...winDow shop ard... and .. went to see hp again...

sianz all so eX... haiz...

歌曲：问我

歌曲：问我
歌手：郑秀文 专辑：感觉百分百1插曲

问我欢呼声有几多
问我悲哭声有几多
我如何能够一一去数清楚
问我点解会高兴究竟点解要苦楚
我笑住回答讲一声我系我

无论我有百般对或者千般错
全心去承受结果
面对世界一切那怕会如何
全心保存真的我

问我欢呼声有几多
问我悲哭声有几多
我如何能够一一去数清楚
问我点解会高兴
究竟点解要苦楚
我笑住回答讲一声我系我
la...

无论我有百般对或者千般错
全心去承受结果面对世界一切
那怕会如何全心保存真的我
问我我得失有几多其实得失不必清楚
我但求能够一一去数清楚
愿我一生去到终结无论历尽几许风波
我仍然能够讲一声我系我
我仍然能够讲一声我系我
la....

Alone~

Kc and sam jio tml nite go club...

At 1st told them I dun want..

den they ask me.. y.. i Also dunno how to ans..

Den i told them i anything lor...

want to Go den Go lorz..

and Tell them dun tok to me..le I supER duPer.. no MoOd..

ＯＫ　confim le.. tml nite DBL O... again~

Already TOld KC　辛苦你了。。。　COs TML I will be drunk ba...

Miss sam.... alotx..tML ya..lets us drink till DIE~!!!! haha wE ROX~
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FOolish ~

今天又被人放飞机。。

我真的就那么笨吗？？

为什么就没人会心疼我？？

算了。。 也没什么。。。

我早已经习惯了。。

一个人的我依然会微笑。。。

zZZ

zZzz.. arh... Eye Bag... ...So Heavy... Dark Circles..

sianz.. wanna slp.. yet can't slp... DIE ltr need to GO circuit...

So tired.. dunno can concentrate on driving or not... sianz...

haiz.. wADEVER...~ trY to Slp ba~ zzZz

Tired... slp le..

歌曲：不够勇敢

我的关心。。 是奢侈的。。。

我的存在是多余的。。。

我的担心是不被了解的。。。

我的胃好痛。。。心更痛。。。

还以为想通了， 只要静静的陪在他身边就好，

可是他根本不需要这个多余的我。。

我是不是该放开一切远离他呢？

也不会有人在乎我的感受。。。也对啦， 毕竟才认识不久。





歌曲：不够勇敢
歌手：vj 专辑：王子变青蛙电视原声


不够勇敢 not brave enough (插曲)

守在你身边看你每一个笑脸
笑得那么甜是他给了你誓言

不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情愿
或许有一天我的爱你能看见

一天一点你渐渐走远
我却像空气被忽略

只怪我的爱不够勇敢
一直沉默的作你的依赖
让一切石沉大海
baby now i need you by my side
过去的一切该怎么放开
without you i can't fall in love again
without you i can't
oh baby i can't fall in love again
(i can't never fall in love)

til the end of time in a world so close to me
i'm just so in love with a girl who's in my heart

each and everyday i wanna have you next to me
and i say to the world i'll never let it end

明明知道直到有一天
发现你不再有笑脸

Nan Guo

难过， 伤心。。。

Zhu meme

oh.. did i Mention... Zhu me me is Jeremy...

lolx.. a very important yet special guy in my heart..

he is not my ex... he is just my frn.. :)

一个人的我依然会微笑

歌曲：一个人的我依然会微笑
歌手：林佳仪



如果想哭我自己会找地方
你不必担心我会弄湿你肩膀
走在街上到处是寂寞的人
我想谁都不要同情的眼光
受一点伤并不是可怕的事
人就是这样才会愈来愈坚强
谁叫男人永远比女人清楚
爱情它何时该收何时该放

你走吧我不哭无论多痛苦
你走吧我不哭就算会迷路

明天一个人的我依然会微笑
虽然它或许也是伤心的开始
爱情的轮回总是一次又一次
是悲是喜终将都变成往事
明天一个人的我依然会微笑
那怕早已没有人记得我名字
别问我为何执迷不悟的尝试
女人生来就多这么一点痴

Meeting GEGE

Today ... Meet Gege and cheng.. to makan.. at Hong Lim complex.. Bah GU tEH..~

Yeah Yummy YumMy.. nice nice.. ~ hee

After dat... Recieve a Sms frm .. him.. den haha dunno y abit buay song..

sO HP Off~ lolx den after dat.. went to SGH... Cheng need to collect med..frm SGh...

deN Go Odi's huse to fetch her.. den Go Chervrons...

Phone ON Agian.. Saw his msg.. reply..him...

den... ZzzZ like dat lor..den .. Go chervnons.. sing..

Today quite sianz.. dunno y.. abit moody ba..

Took 3 Sticks.. or i think 4 sticks..frm.. gege and odi...

den Go chevrons.. ask gege to Order duty FRee Beer drank ard 3 mug...zz

den after finished we Go CCK 302 ..eat 五香 and bee hoon and Tao huay~

DEn afterdat Came back quite sianz.. Still fEEL like drinking...

tml mosT probably carry Wad we had planned ... That is Go JB~ lala~

Woo Long Time no GO~ Suddenly.. TOt of zhu me me... I missed him...

'he' always remind me of zhu meme,... lalaZ of cos..

Zhu meme means alot alot more to me... but he no longer.. cares for me...

不作你的朋友

歌曲：不作你的朋友
歌手：s.h.e 专辑：不想长大

慢慢失忆
所有和你的事情必须忘记
爱的盆地
深怕在一滴眼泪就会决堤
我也不想被你肯定
在这个时候说我
让你感动过
别握住我的手
说我一定会懂
作不成的爱人
变成最好朋友
别牵著我的手
想著别人脸孔
换个方式牵手
并不会更好过
可不可以不作你的朋友
慢慢心痛
没有人发现我和从前不同
你的眼中
看得见另一个人给的感动
我也不要你心疼我
在这个时候对我
比从前温柔
应该放晴的天气
还下雨别这样下去
我难过但是说不出口
一直逃避我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记
我的记忆开始在雨天的七月二十三
慢慢经过我们一起绕过的十字街头
怎么走都走不到尽头
可不可以别回头
可不可以就放手
可不可以不作你的朋友

THoughts of the day~

Thoughts of the day~ [Thursday]

1. Be happy : Meaning be contented with who I am, what I have and don't think so
much.

2. Be healthy : Don't drink so much, slp earlier and have more hrs of slp.

3. Be a nice ger : Learn to give more.. and dun expect any return...

4. Don't be a bad ger : Not to be a 3rd party of someone else relationship.
Give them ur blessing..

5. Be cheerful : Though ppl might have hurt u, u dun have to hurt other ppl inorder
to stop urself from being hurt.

6. Stop thinking : Stop thinking of those that things that you can't change.
But rather thinking.. wad u can do to Prevent things from
happening.

to be continue .... going out with gege le... love him~ mUakcZ... hee

Thoughts Of the day`

Thoughts Of the day for wednesday~

When a Ger give her BF a necklace/tie as a gift,

know wad it means? She is trying to 绑住他的心。

Sort of to remind him of herself...

And if the guy is to wear it everyday, know wad it means?

He is true to her, no matter wad he do outside

or if his is flirting with some other gers or not...

Eventually he still loves his gf and will go back to her...

Hmm... A very nice Love story right? -haha- sOrry i am Just bored...

lalal

Tuesdays...

Work~~Till 7pm

Den rushed off to Raffles meet them for dinner...

And... tOOk Other Side of the Train to CCK....

Zzz Long long JouRney....

1/2 way slping.. and Poking.. him haha

tO keEp myself awake... but he GOt Hold of my hand...

den I also not strenght to struggle anyMore.. TOo TiREd..

sO FeLL aslp on hIs shoulder again... zZzz

ALways SLpy MOde like dat when meeting him SO paisei...

Think All my Energy have been used up for the past weeks... ba...

As thiNking of ToO much.. and Bad mood.. and CRy~ all the things..

自寻烦恼 . Then I this wEEk very TIred.. even though nv club or nv drink...

想通了就不烦了。。

Ytd ... rong sms me.. ask me to free to meet her for shopping and dinner..

sO after my driving went back hom to nua abit..

and prepare to go marina to meet her.. to shop and eat...

WOO long time nv Meet her... Miss her.. was toking abt jiayan... also..

but she seems.. very busy .. we already havent seen her since.. last yr?

think so .. can't really rem..

WeLL den I bought some Accessories for wirst..

and a pair of golden sandals...from VNC.

And a purple blouse from MANGO...

lalala ~ Zzz Den after dat ard 8.30 rUshed off tO meet him...

wELL the movie was kinda stupid yet cute...haha all the characters inside...

looked like him..de so funny especially the TANK .. lol the way he speaks..

and the BIG 'Z' his eyes... looked like when he is very shag...

After movie..he sent me home.. den on The way.. wanna buy mac icecream no more..le..

so in the end bought 豆花 to eat... was at nearby void deck awhile.. to eat 豆花 and

he went to buy drink. After that bid him gdbye.. and he Took cab hm.. i went up home

ZZzz lalala

Monday Blues... Came home ard 8am... in the morning..

last nite when to Cousin's huse to tranfer Mp3 for her..

and stay OverNite there... Didn't slp weLL cos my aunt oFf the Aircon...

den Reach home.. Slp.. den went to broWez his frnster again...

and Started tearing... sTill thinking... about how stupid I am...

The Ger who I Confide everything in... whom I trust Alot...

turns out tO be the one.. He is With... now..

haiz... crIed once again... Heart broken... How can I ever Forget?

The pain both have Cause me? I am just a very stupid FOOL...

haiz.. frns.. ask me.. to Be StrOng... haiz.. Not Strong..meh suan bu cuo le..

if not strong think i aLready dunno do wad stuns.. haha just kidding..

den... after crying.. slp again... until ard AfterNoon time.. hp ring..

gege Finally called me and jio me out... haha Miss Him man...

So When out with GEGE Odi and cheng... Go RC play Pool...

den was using the stupid lousy hp .. Have very Big diff in smsing ppl...

1 msg i think need ard 7-10 mins..

lolx until very pek chey den gege lend me his nokia hp...

at least better..haha TOt wanted to Meet him...

but.. think he dun really wanna meet me.. so nv say anything also...

den after that we went to makan at Tiong Bahru... Eat Teo Chew Muay ... Wah

Super EX $27 for 3 pax... cheng meet client so nv join us for dinner ...

After dinner we went to fetch XiaoJiayi... she at IMM working.. so we fetched her..

and acc her eat her dinner.. after dat went home as Odi not feeling very well..

zZzz...

一路上有你

Was out with gege Odi and cheng...

In Gege's Car... heard this very old song...

Yet very nice... suddenly tot this song very 贴切。




歌曲：一路上有你
歌手：张学友 专辑：吻别

你知道吗爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气

是天意吧好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去
也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去都是为你

一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离

你知道吗爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气
是天意吧好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去
也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去都是为你
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇

一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算是只能在梦里拥抱你

tIred Sat~

After Mjz... slp till late noon ard 2.30pm...

deN watcHing the Jap movie frm Cousin.

ard.. 4.30pm start to prepare to Go TOwn meet xinyi, dawn , mabel and Kc..

Lol i was An hr LATE~!!!! lolx supposed to meet at 6pm...

lolx KC and I reached at 7pm...

We went to Eat Pasta at the PASTA caFE opp MOS burger at TAKA.

lolx Then xinyi keep asking me Where I am going ltr...

cos.. she think its either I overdress or they underdress...

Cos i Wore a tube dress that a frn bought for me...

haha Went i Meet Up KC at JE station..

he looked at me.. and said y U wear till so nice?

Den i sColded him: I toT u ask me to wear nicenice...

ar bo dun stands beside u... den he Luff...zzZz

lolx not really lar.. cos I not sure after

Dinner we going anywhere to CLub or wadever ma so just wear out lor...

Since its a new dress.. So after Dinner..

KC and I went to Hereens for Aircon cos very HOT... and we are sweating le..

Then I told him i wanna Go up to 77 Street .. wanna buy and change my earing.

Finally Changed to the ring type... I think better ba.. Cos.. after 3 weeks of

pericing.. sTill quite pain... the Salesger ask me to must be careful cos.. so long

le shouldn't be so painful.. THen i told her.. i Keep knocking on to the new pierced

ear. thats Y... zzZz den she helped me changed.. WAH SUPER DUPER PAINFUL~~~~ *ouch*

Pain pain .... :( den when she told me. start to bLeed le..

Zzz pain... but after she put the alcohol ok..le shOik~ lala haha finaLLy changed my

earring... think we this would be better deN the Studs.


Den after that Kc and I nothing to Do very Bored... and went TO dbl.. O

And when we reached there.. Its wAS RETRO pARTY~ xianZ

haha but later In the part.. they played those very popular.. english songs..

which are all my favs... then.. WOO Dance and Sweat Like HeLL ~

haha did enjoy last nite... but my Feet almost break...

COs of the stupid HEELs.. I swear nv Wear that pair of heels to club...

I am who I am.

Some Things are better left unsaid...

wEll recently...i aM changing..

anD somhow... there isn't any better choice for me...

panda said i keep changing topic or not answering to his qns..

all his qn... so extreme how to ans?

Ans to his qns: I think u already know ba... some things dun have to say out de..

[This is wad u said b4 Too right?]

tIrednEss

The LittLe pebbles have grow into a Stone Eventually..

tHings Changes...as The Weather changes..

dat NiTe ... MoOd ChangEs.. TOo... as Ppl changes..

不能说出的感受。。不能说出的情感。。不能放下的回忆。。

一个被他遗忘的我， 在你心里又算什么？

背着上一短的种种伤害，难过，心痛，心碎，到心死。。我又能怎样？

时间能冲淡一切，那时间能告诉我对现在的‘他’该如何是好？

我和‘他’是不可能有结果的。。。

‘他’对我的好， 我明明就知道应该要拒绝， 但是我却拒绝不了。

我最近被自己压得喘不过期来。。

明明很想得到安慰。。。 却又怕动了真情。。。而开始选择逃避。。

My mind and Heart is no longer 1 piece...

Mind: 我不该这样下去。。

Heart: 却很想见到‘他’。。



于是，那天晚上。。。

应为上一短的错侧让我非常地难过， 愤怒。。

‘他’安慰我是， 我的心开始动摇了。。。

看着‘他’对我的关怀， 我却有痛彻心非的感觉。。。

我为了要压抑自己。。。变得很暴躁。。。‘他’却以为我不爽‘他’。

其实是自己不爽自己。。。 应为‘他’什么也不知道， 而我什么都不能说。。。

最近，也应为很多的反脑。。一直得喝酒。。。 希望能够麻醉自己。

tIrED~ HOt HOT HOt

wAds wROng with the WeaTher nowadays..~ sUPER dUper Hot ... Hot HOt Hot..

ya.. after i Went tO Collect my StufFs wenT down to meet them...

but i reached there awhile nia then panda said need to go back to WOrk lorz

lala .. then like dat lor.. i went to buy Green tea ... den i go enjoy aircon..

called up miss lim.. but she said ToO many things to complete.. so she working Ot..

Wanted.. to ask See got any ppl free to acc me to Go for mobile hunting.. as my hp

Lost... but noone free.. den panda sick... so tot of going ah ma huse... to visit

her.. was at the basement there resting and enjoying the air-con .. was actually

for someone's sms.. haha also dunno wait tilL wad time.. I think i TOo bo Liao le...

was thinking wad if he already left.. den.. me wait for nothing.. -_-||| but.. if

wait for nothing the most den... Go take bus to ah ma's huse le lorz.. In the End...

he told me.. let go Off together if i still ard there... Of cos.. still there lar.

zZzz. WOo Hoo.. then reached ah ma huse.. lucky ah ma always Cook more.. cos i nv

told her i going. hAd my dinner.. at ah ma huse then Tok to ah ma and da gu...

da gu said last sat called me.. cos.. ah ma.. worried for my sunburnt...

and misses me...SO here I am... :). Ate quite a lot tonite.. hEe da gu said wah I

really like to eat ah ma's food... lolx I told her Of Cos.. ah ma cOoked one..

Sure nice..de marn so Must EAt more...think i going to fall sick sOon TOo...

KeEP sneezing just now... den throat still very very dry... since last sat. zzZ

Hope Tml wake up fEEls.. betTer~ zZzz

Love SiCK

Love SiCK

sObSOb... last nite.. slp ard 4.30 morning.. very early WaKe Up

MiSs my Dear~ [dun be mistaken still single.. my dear is my HP]

HP is Even More important then BF lorz...

TMD... I cursed the guy who Took awaY my W810i....

sObsOb.. Moring wake up felt so Sick...

我要我的宝贝 W810i ..... Today is shYrlyn's bday...

Ltr meet her for lunch At lot1 ... den Go CoLLect my SIm card

go Raffles to Collect my t-Shirt ... and to Outram to submiTt Application

FOrm.. for BATTLE oF VOices ...

Hp LOST

wELL ..wad to sAy??

went to watch Shrek 3... but dun have tickets..

frm Cin to Ps tO cathay back to Ps..

Watch Ocean 13 .. dunnno wad movie is it...

but dun really know HOw to aPPriciates...it

take some small naps.. in bwt...on his shoulder..

dunno ... i can just fall aslp very soon whenver i lie on his shoulder...

anyway... was wearing my wOoLlen Long sleeves.. weather quite humid today.

Was Feeling very hot.. and cos we travelled here and there.

was quite Pissed by the Hotness... sO asked him to Go get Tickets when i Go

giO to buy a tank top.. was changing... when he called.. then Left my hp on the sofa

seat inside the fitting rm...and 4get to bring it out.. just wHen i was abt to pay

$$ den realise my hp lost.. just a few mins..nia.. and fuck~ someone tOOK it AWAY~

My dEarest Hp... :~( ... dEn weNt up TO find him... told Him wad happen..

he look at Me in shock... zzz :( ask me.. am I ok.. how to ans.. this kind of qn.?

when mE myseLfs..dun even kNow Wad just happen...:( if i say i NOt ok... den how?

make him worRied meh... kns.. haiz.. who can I blame.. blame myself lor.. for bEing

so forgetful or blurness lor..wadevER..la tmd~ ... haiz.. xian... maybe 老天爷 really

want mE to Lost everything~ ... now Even hP also Dun have le... maybe... u PPpl think

iya just a phone... buy new one lor... but.. U all dunno how much my Hp Means..

to me..lor... Feels so totally naked.. withOut my HP....

歌曲：我很想爱他

歌曲：我很想爱他
歌手：twins 专辑：八十块环游世界(内地


(sa)天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着
(g)可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的
(sa)我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
(sa)爱情是模糊的
可怜的是
没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者
(sa)当爱情陷在危险边缘
(g)是否都会伤痕累累
(合)是否都会苦不堪言
(合)爱情教会我们都放不下

ButRFLy~KTV pub...at chinaTOwn

lala... jsut reached home not long...dunno drank how much tOnite..

agReed not to drink so much with a FRn ... but.. zZZ... play games.. LoOse alot..

Hm.. I am suay tonIteZZZ lolxx laa bO bian drink lor..

方正心情是不好的。。。dun asK me y... I am unHappy... I am just unhaPpy

I know in my heart Y i am..unhappy.. but i cant say it out here In my blog..

ALL i know is am quite seh tonite zZZ... maybe cos i wanna get drunk TOtally drunk...

Though i can't lar.. cos tml wOrking.. Kenny's Lobang.. Part-time or ratHer Temp admin..

tml and sun... zzZ still thinking tml wan to GO Velvet dragon or not..

ZzZZz I am so ShaG~ zzZz...

好累 好累。。。真的好累。。 好想静静的休息。。

谁懂我？谁了解我？谁明白我要的是什么？？

短暂的记忆

Friends recently keep saying I got very terrible short-term memory...

I think should be 选择性的失忆 ... Ever since 2 months ago...

I decided to forget everything ... And chose to lock my heart ...

Recently someone tries to open my heart once again ...

Somehow ... When I found out that my heart is starting to feel again ...

I decided to lock it up again ... Cos I dun to get hurt ... besides...

I think its better this way.. when i can't feel anything... at all

I wont be sad, nor happy... 我只希望朋友都开开心心的就够了。。

我尽然哭了。。

wEll just now was chatting with cy..

den abit GL... but not to the extend of so jialak..

but cos he said he tired wanna go slp...

so i told him i am pissed and i log off...

den after 10 mins.. I think I log in MSN.. and saw he still there...

den dunno wad come Over me... I jitao take it as he lied to me...

den... I break down suddenly.. cos remind me of 'him'

'him' the one that actaully lie and lie

until i am so Scare or afraid of trusting anyone..

cy is a nice guy... so i trust him.. I dun wan him to lie to me

I already have lost all the trust in human...

but I trust cy. suddenly the forbidden memorries..

that I have forgotten all cam back.. and heart aches......

I started crying... thinking of all the past ...

and now 'he' happily with another ger 。。。

and me here, just a failure .. lost everything .. even my job.. everything gone...

I nv drank anything and was in a very clear mind state.. i nv force myself to cry..

but my heart started to bleed and tears came out....

我的心好痛好痛 。。 好难受。。。 我好辛苦。。

好不甘心。。 但又能怎样？？ 我只能选择遗忘过去。。。 放下。。

谁能帮帮我？ 有谁能体会我的心情？

黑色星期一

A black Monday indeed...

Already can't rem wad time I fell aslp last nite..

But fell aslp with 黑色的心情 don't really know how to describe this kind of feeling...

A misture of , confused, happy, unhappy, sad, awake...

Awaken by some understanding abt somthing...

爱情和友情只是一线之擦 。。

还来不及说出的话。。。 已被深深地隐藏在心里。。。

I chated with xiaozhong last nite... he saw my nick and say : haiz...

I asked him y , he said my nick sounds so sad..

I told him 还好吧 ya and is abit sad lar..

He seems to understands... but I not sure wad did he know...

So was hearing that song 你给的-石欣惠 den just for that little moment...

A few tears drop out... AFter dat xiaozhong went to slp..

Den I also went to slp..

Morning I can't get up... feeling very terrible.. whole body no strength at all..

Body weak like jeLLy head spinning...

Nightmares~

I wOke up today.. with a nightmare... in my dream I saw him and her.. together.. very happy...
y... y do i have to dream of them? I felt my heart broken once again..... but i wanted so much to cry it out... but i just can't... and its so painful so hurt..... and i can't do anything at all.... my heart is bleeding... and crying.... finally.. I weeped... and manage to squeeze out some a few drops of tears... Can anyone help me? PLease~!

boRed~!!

bOreDom is Wad I fEeLs recentLY...

sweet is wad i FeELts recentLy too frm a guy frn..

thOugh I not suRe y he is so sweet and Nice to me...

maybe he piTy me beCos of wad I have Gone ThRough..

I reALly appreciates...his concern~ bUt I hoPe hE doEns't Get the wrong iDea

as He is aTtached.. I treat Ppl nice.. when ppl Treat me nice...

wHen told about this thing with my another ger frn..

she asked me.. you want tO get involved meh...

nope. I nv.. jusT dat I am ToO boRed.. and I realLy enJoy with his companion...

bUt I know he Like me... but To wad ExTend I am Not very Sure..

but He said he is treat all the Gers.. tHat he like very Gd one..

sO i suPpose I am not the Only one herE~...

I tOld Him b4.. that Treating me so sWeet and nice.. will make ppl misunderstands...

anD he Told me then Dun think so much lorz...zzZZzz -_-

tHe poInt is.. I am sinGLe.. ppl misunDerstands me nvm..lor.

but his Attached..lor if pPl misundesTands.. him not very gd..right?

hm.. i also dunno~ wELL wADEVER lar~ haha

gAsTric~

arGh... EvEr since that night I have beEn having Gastric... comming On and Off these few days.. zZzz

tOday went to bugis with Angela... to shop shop and done pedicure...

deN mEet cy for lunch and dinNer.. but nv really eat... cos not hungry...

zZzz I gastric... again.. at this time..Zzz so painfuL~~~


haiz... so boreD~ :(

Lost everything

[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
lolo
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
jz
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
?
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
nothing
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
?
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
why sad
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
i am a very stupid ger .
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
what happen lehz
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
haiz.. long story
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
now the truth is out...
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
my ex haben break with me.. that time.. he already with another.. ger.. and de ger is i know one somemore..
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
ok...
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
u just found out ah?
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
nope
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den dat time.. i found out.. he book a resort at puket...
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
then?
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den make special request sumore change to non-smking rm and king size bed.. den
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den i called the ger.. up dat time.. i told her abt it and cry and tell her.. i suspect.. of somthing..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
she is his sec sch gd fr... dat time she still have bf somemore..lolrz
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
lor
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
but u didnt know the girl is the one ur ex is seeing?
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
yar.. its taht time after we broke up around 1 week his sis told me..one..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den i couldn't believe initally
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den finally when i confronted them b4.. they say nv..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den alot of things..happen..lar.. den after dat.. he still deny lor..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
dun understands we break le still wanna lie to me..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
dat time he still say i anyhow spread rumours.. abt them
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den now confirm le..lor he really went thailand with that bitcH!
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
how u confirm
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
saw their pictures.. in that bitch frnster
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
she came to view me..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den i go see lor..
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
haiz
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
den saw lor
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
a ger who i trusted so much ... and confide everything to her...
a guy with me for 4 yrs....
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
dun sad le la
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
??????????~
[??] needs a part time night job $_$ says:
no ur fault ma..
-[ xIaOaI ]- ????????????????????``` says:
becos of him I lost everything...
my happiness, my tears, my health, my job and somthing important......
-[ xIaOaI ]- says:
http://www.friendster.com/photos/3121999/0/399908838#pic=0948158001
????????????????????????

Truth is out.

Well guessed I may be really stupid... actually wanted to believe him that.. ya, maybe his sis really hate him so much wanted to say all his bad things to me that is not true. And still trying to believe that he and that bitch wont do such things... Still though i had really wronged them. Well I am stupid enugh la. But the truth is finally out. Cos even b4 me and he still together... I once found out that he actually book a resort and spa in puket. which is 18 - 21st of April 2007. Dat time when I confronted him. He told me it was his mom and his anuty going. But I dun really believe. COs there is this special request. 1. Non-Smoking Room. 2. A King Size bed. And he knew I would call his mom and asked about it. And he asked his mom to Lie to me. Very good. Well even now still want to lie to me. Disgrace on what they have done? He said I spread things about him.. and her.. Say till as if I have wronged them. I am pissed.. over myself. And I hate to wronged ppl so I am determine to find out the truth. Well so 'qiao' lor both of them frnster account last login day is 3 days.. and I try called that bitch yesterday. And her hp was off.. And I belive it will be off all the way till 21st when they came back from THailand. Also I try to call his house also. And his mom picked up the call. Gd 1 point Proven too. His MOM was in SG. So... again his lie... is broke. Y I am very pissed off. Cos I really dun understands how cum. This guy that have been with me for 4 yrs plus.. can do this to me. And Worst of all y am I such a fool to trust that bitch frn of his? I am very pissed off with myself. And was thinking.. right now. I am here in sg feeling upset all becos of all these. Yet they are happily at thailand enjoying their lives... there.. I hate them. Y must hurt me? Even if they really wanna be together.. y must hide and lies. I hate Liers... I hate them. Though many of my frns.. said they will have retribution... I know they are trying to console me. But will they really have retribution? I hope they will disappear from this earth. I don't want to see them. They really make me feels disgusted. Even his mom also told me b4. Even if they really together. U think they will lasT? I dunno. I dun even want to care. I just want my Laughter back... my Lively days. Back... THough many told me wad you need is time.. to heal. I know.. toO.. But I just can't take this lying down. They really must have retribution. I cruse them. (I may be very evil now. But no choice.)

FRnster account hacked.

Well he hacked my frnster account. I felt his so childish. And he still can use his own account to add me testimonial and after that use my account to approve it. My message to him after he change back my account.
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Still I think u dun understand this. I tell u one Last time. I nv spread anything bad about u. I only tell my frns around me... You say u dun love me.. wan to break with me and I accept. Ur sis told me that thing. Its until dat nite I called u and confronted u both. Then I told them what u told me, jiahui told me and ur sister told me. Anyway... i chat with jh b4.. at MSN she did admit. SO stop saying I say bad things of u. If u and her really got nothing.. den nothing lar.. but its.. u 2 want to let me think that way, den be it. You should be affected. Cos u choose it to end everything this way. Initially I was thinking of being frn with u. But ur attidute and ur childishness stops everything. And I really can feel u being a navy officer is so immature. U can just hack my frnster account. And approve those testimonial that i didn't want to approve it. Thanks really thanks for that. And u can also add wadever testimonail u want and use my account to approve it. U are really childish. Sometimes I really wonder, being together for 4 yrs... And u could do all these stupid things to hurt someone u love b4. I dun understand y. Initially we would have really a clean cut at the start. You are the one holding on. I dunno y. U wanted the breakup , I agreed to. And I asked for my things back. You could just returned me.. everything and i return u every thing and we would have just go separate ways. Things would be the same as now. Even till that day... Maybe I really mistrust ur sis... and wronged u and her.. I dunno maybe i was wrong... But still that next day that u promised me.. Could be the last day we met and contact each other. And we will go separate ways. Still I let u have ur way. You dun dare to face me. Not u dun wan to see me. cos u scare I asked u wad happen and u dun wan to ans me. U just want to be irresponsible. Still I granted ur wish. I go personally to ur house leave ur things there. And I nv take back my things. Should u be thankful to me.? Den nvm again we can have a clear cut after this... But still U go SMS me.. that stupid message and Hack my frnster account. Dun tell me not u.. OK.. Even not.. u I ask u to change back u can just change back.. Y go use ur own account to add me that testimonial and use my account to approve it. And.. btw... its none of ur business whether alot of guys.. gd to me or not. Anyway that testimonial is wad I asked my frn to add one. Initally wanted to make u angry, But i felt childish so I did not approve it. And yet u use my account to approve it. I dun need to explain to u Too. But unlike u. If i Never done anything I DONT LIKE PPL TO MISTAKEN IT. And I wont admit somthing that i did not DO. Think about it if u nv hack my account we already go separated ways. I would have to call u and ask u change back and call ur MOM to ask u to Stop harrasing me.. and my life. U have hurt me enugh. And I am trying to get out of it. So please just leave me alone. If i really wronged u den I am very sorry and from Now on. I think no body will say u anymore.. I will Go tell them is I wronged about u and ur dear frn. OK.
ANyway this one u must know. being together for so many years.. I really have to tell u this.. U really nv understands me b4, or maybe U nv... tried to understands me b4. If u really understands me, u wont be saying me bad mouth u. If u really still dun understands and insist in saying I got spread things about u. Then u just take it as that.. Cos.. I already told u I NV. Anyway. If u really want to have a clear cut bwt us. dun appear infront of me for at least 6months. I will appreciates that.. Maybe next time we still can be frns back.. but I am sorry now.. I just dun wan to see u. Not I cannot face u.. Is I wan to forget all this memories about u. Whether its happy or unhappy. Ya we did have happy memmories. But I wan to forget. Again This is the last time I am saying this. Previously .. 2 years ago, you ask me dun contact you. You wanna break off with me. And I did. Yet U wanted to pachted that time. You promised to give me happiness. But instead of happiness all u did so to hurt me deeply once again. Ya you told many ppl say I dun trust u didn't give u privacy... check ur emails.. ur hp ... ya.. I did check. COs I know I no longer trust u. Thats y I agreed to breakup. ANd Y i dun trust u, U should know very clear urself. Anyway, I am thankful to you. For those days that you really put in ur heart and love me i did appreciates and cherrished this relationship. But I know you need ur freedoms more den u need me. Maybe u wan to fight back on all this that i written. In this relationship there is no right or wrong. Its just the love for me was not as strong as the love I had for u. But u dun have to hurt me. I told u b4 if one day u dun love me just tell me... I will leave u. I did told u very long time ago. After reading this mail if u think I tok rubbish u can just ignore dun take it to heart. But dun try to reply me.. cos I will take it to heart and.. again we will not have a clear cut. I dun wan to break le still must quarrel with u. And I wont disturb ur family. Thats all. Bye 4Eva.

HOw can i get all this OVER!~??

Msg : I know u r spreading alot of bad words abt me damaging my reputation. But I dun care n i wun borther to do any explanation. One thing I want u to know is u can talk bad about me all u wan, just dun affect my frns. I dun wish to see my frn get involve for nothing. I feel sorry if i really hurt u that bad but everything is over. Treat it like a man. Uptill this stage, i believe we can't even continue our friendship so lets end it here. Once and for all! Take care.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------I got this msg from him this very morning. I am so upset, cos.. he rather hurt me once again also want to protect that ger.~ well. Ask me to treat it like a man. Hello.. I am not man.. I cannot treat it like a man.. I am a WOMAN. And dunno is who dun treat it like a man. Dun even dare to come and face me, when he actually promised to meet up return wad is suppose to return and Settle everything. And he selfishly thinks that I would still wan to be his frn when I found out all this? How navie this man is? Wad had gone into me? Falling into this man trap? 4 yrs plus relationship.
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Reply: I nv talk bad about her, she admit herself. I did ask u 2 wad happen. If u 2 did nothing wrong y u dun dare to come and face me dat day?U got that day to explain to me not to anybody. Cos u owed me. Is ur own sis told me all this. At 1st I tot we still can be frns... but when i found ouyt all this lets forget everything. Do u know wad happen? This is such a big blow to me, I got into high fever for nothing just becos of this. And u dunno wad i am foing through right now so please just get out of my life. My grandfather in hospital, and my god-father just passed away. I dun have the eneryg anymore. Anyway I just tell ppl wad i heard from u, ur sis and her. So if anything isn't true, please explain urself not to me anymore but to ur frns. Cos u already lost the last chance to me. This will be the last time u see my no. Cos today is my last day using this no. Thank You. If she is not the one, u better tell ur mom. Cos I think ur mom doesn't like her.. or the idea of u bring her home.
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When I wake up this morning... and got all this again.. I cried... I very weak leh... nabei
already not feeling well.. Then went to ang mo kio... to the wake.. see everyone crying... feeling sad for my god-father. Haiz.. I lost 2 fathers... This is wad I felt. Not much... feeling anymore.. numb. Den i THink i Got fever again. I felt body unconfortable. Once I reached home and bathed, I took med, got 1 is relaxation pills, panadols and antibiotics.. and slp.... from 4 all the way to nite....8.30pm.... now feeling abit better le... When can things just get better?

歌曲：逆光

歌曲：逆光
歌手：孙燕姿 专辑：逆光

也许我一直害怕有答案
也许爱情仅在风里打转
离开释怀很短暂又重来
有时候自问自答
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光那瞬间 是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解 为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光那力量 我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光 感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁
我不要困难把我们击散
我责备自己那么不勇敢
遗憾没有到达
拥抱过还是害怕
用力推开你我一人留下
有一束光那瞬间是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见
那是泪光那力量 我不想再去抵挡
面对希望逆着光 感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在我身旁

我以为无路后退 反复证明这份爱有多不对
背对着你如此漆黑忍住疲惫
睁开眼打开窗才 发现你就是光芒!

有一束光那瞬间是什么痛得刺眼
你的视线是谅解为什么舍不得熄灭
我逆着光却看见 那是泪光那力量
我不想再去抵挡 面对希望逆着光
感觉爱存在的地方
一直就在 我身旁
光芒你是光芒

This song is specially dedicated for my dear frns... who actually give me the support through this period. I am sorry if I happen to bring my sadness to you. But I really appreciates you guys.
Thanks.

歌曲：不痛

歌曲：不痛
歌手：张韶涵 专辑：梦里花

一点点痛的感觉
加上一点我对你的思念
承诺不算太遥远遥远
只剩一瞬间一步步靠近终点
再差一步我们踏上永远
谎言让人太陶醉陶醉
在你给的世界
我不想不愿不去承认我的执著
怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留 oh~
是爱伤害了彼此的自由
你不看不听不说为什麽要离开我
我不哭不笑只剩下沉默
带著我的骄傲高飞远走
紧握过的双手拥抱过的温柔
所有的对错跟着脚步你一定带走oh~

其实很爱你

演唱:张韵涵

张韶涵-其实很爱你

离开不会太悲伤

有些心情该释放

直到眼泪它自己落下

才发现骗不了自己

其实很爱你

现在学着去遗忘

躲开有你的地方回忆

被谁放在书架上

把他从最高的地方落下

感动越是深刻寂寞就越伤人喔

每个人的心里都会有一段伤痕

像白纸的天真

仿佛被你伤得好深

相爱不需要理由

离开也没有理由挽留

背叛

歌手：曹格 专辑：superman

曲:曹格词:阿丹 邬裕康编曲:涂惠源

雨 不停落下来

花 怎么都不开

尽管我细心灌溉

你说不爱就不爱

我一个人欣赏悲哀

爱只剩下无奈

我一直不愿再去猜

钢琴上黑键之间

永远都夹着空白

缺了一块就不精采

紧紧相依的心如何

say goodbye

你比我清楚还要

我说明白

爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢

我用背叛 自己完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句

当作最后一次对你的溺爱

冷冷清清淡淡

今后都不管只要

你能愉快有一句感慨

还能够跟谁对白

在你关上门之前

替我再回头看看

那些片段还在不在心

Betrayer !

Fuck.... I recieved a BOMB last nite... His Sis told me.. that after we broke off only afew days
he bring home a ger. And bathe at his house and stay over nite. The worst thing is this ger is I know one... and I trusted her so much I told her alot of things. FUCK OFF BITCH....... Den Everything I also tell her... and she also ask me to break with him.. fuck... fuck fuck... na bei.. I am a Fool~ And to thing that she can do such things and just pretend that nothing happen.
And.. gd.. the bastard and bitch hanky panky... den me... stupid... suffering alone... n GOT into HIGH FEVER..... BECOS OF THIS... WTH

Guitar Lesson~

Well guess today is a better day compare to yesterday or the day b4.. At least I not moody.. anymore. Guess maybe I sort out my thoughts...Cos.. I kEep rushing myself to forget him.. and forget everything.. but I guess thats not the right way to handle it. I give too much stress to myself. This kind of things.. can't be rush... The more I want to get over it faster.. the more I can't get it over. I am so stucked with my own thoughts. Hopefully, time really can heals.
Well today I went to ge ge house for dinner. Yummy! GeGe's mom cooked nice dishes... Btw did I mention why I went to Gege's house? To learn guitar lor from him. :) Trying very hard..~ lol

I am so fed up with myself can anyone get me out of this shit?

From what I found out, he really don’t love me.
And if its really true, then why must drag until now?
It really hurts me so much. I don’t know how to act anymore.
I told my frns, his frns that I am ok.. and very happy. I am enjoying my life.
But who will knows. This is just my way to stop my frns.. worring for me.
I know my dear frns.. you all care a lot for me. But I really dun wan you guys to worry.
Am I really ok? I don’t know. I just felt heartbroken. I hate to luff after I cry.
I hate to pretend that I am ok when I am not. I don’t know how to go on with my life.
I am very borther by it. I hate him. I hate myself. I thought after the 2 days rest at home.
I can forget everything and carry on with my life. I thought. Yet. I tried to convince myself. I completely dunno wad I am doing now.

Break up

Well finally ended... 4 years plus relationship.
I took 2 days off to cool down...
I cry and cry for 1 whole day and nite.. until I could not cry anymore.. Cos.. already no more tears and den I rest for 1 more day at home.. to slp... Finally.. today I went to work...though still feeling very sad but bo bian must work..The problem is I kena arrow today at work also... haiz.. long story next time den tell you guys... I only.. know.. i very sad..
I told my cousin about the breakup.. She say its good..
Haiz.. infact many ppl ask me to give up the relationship.. Finally.. haiz.. well
guess this time I really heart dead.

Testing

hello Long time no blog... Testing testin

16 August 2006!

I hate this DATE!!!! I hate it!!!!!
Cos He Doesn't Give A DAmn CARE!!!!!

Frisay's Meeting With Ni Ni~

Last FRiday, finally we have met out after so long since we graduted.~
Xueni~ my sec sch gd frn~ On 5th August She become MRS LE~ lolx
Attended her ROM on that Day~ Everything Was Nice~ :)
ALL the BEST ger~ aNyway well last friday we agreed to meet out to have some Chat~ shopping~ and Finally to sEe the FireworKz~ And that day's FireWorks is the BEST~ one~ :)
Very Beautiful~ Well heres a Picture of me and Xueni~

我很想爱她

sa)天空下起雨了
他撑的伞
在你的身边陪着
(g)可是我不快乐
因为看见
他脸上的笑
是很勉强的
(sa)我很想爱他
但是眼睛在说谎
隐瞒比较容易吧
免得感情变得复杂
但是理智在吵架
退出可以解围吗
谁能给我一个好的回答
(sa)爱情是模糊的
可怜的是
没有勇气选择
如果再舍不得
这样下去
我们每个人
都是受害者
(sa)当爱情陷在危险边缘
(g)是否都会伤痕累累
(合)是否都会苦不堪言
(合)爱情教会我们都放不下

FinallY submitted my resignation letter~

Cheers~ finally after signing my employment letter yesterday and follow with submittion of my resgination letter~ Its finally all Over~ :)

Hk Pics Uploaded~

Hi frns.. wanna see the pictures that were taken in hk? Look under Links~ :)
Have uploaded it... Enjoys~