我尽然哭了。。

wEll just now was chatting with cy..

den abit GL... but not to the extend of so jialak..

but cos he said he tired wanna go slp...

so i told him i am pissed and i log off...

den after 10 mins.. I think I log in MSN.. and saw he still there...

den dunno wad come Over me... I jitao take it as he lied to me...

den... I break down suddenly.. cos remind me of 'him'

'him' the one that actaully lie and lie

until i am so Scare or afraid of trusting anyone..

cy is a nice guy... so i trust him.. I dun wan him to lie to me

I already have lost all the trust in human...

but I trust cy. suddenly the forbidden memorries..

that I have forgotten all cam back.. and heart aches......

I started crying... thinking of all the past ...

and now 'he' happily with another ger 。。。

and me here, just a failure .. lost everything .. even my job.. everything gone...

I nv drank anything and was in a very clear mind state.. i nv force myself to cry..

but my heart started to bleed and tears came out....

我的心好痛好痛 。。 好难受。。。 我好辛苦。。

好不甘心。。 但又能怎样？？ 我只能选择遗忘过去。。。 放下。。

谁能帮帮我？ 有谁能体会我的心情？