Jb

~ JB ~

Today.. my instructor called me at 10.30am telling

me.. that I have lesson at 1pm. But i Totally forgotten..

Still I went for lesson after my bRunch.

And after Lesson gege called me.. say wanna go Jb.. so

3 of us.. me gege and cheng went to jb...

once we reached jb... i went to do pedicure.. till they came back to find me..

den cheng went for a haircut... and gege acc me go shop ard..but his back prb...

so ask me go shop...1st.. and also nv tell me.. to meet where.. or wad.. ltr..

sO i just went to walk ard.. but my headached got worst...

so just walk and walk... and eventually didnt notice that the time...

till I met both of them..at the 1st floor.. den gege was very angry...

I know he is worried... but.. haiz.. i also dunno wat to.. say

during dinner.. time.. i know he cannot tahan liao.. so went cheng was ordering... food

gege started his lecture.. he said till very seriously

Gege: No.1, I knoe its not ur fault... cos i nv tell u we need to rush back to sg.
No.2, I know its my fault cos i nv tell u where we going to meet.
But u should at least have some initative to go back to salon to find us..mar..
Do u know how worried we arE?
Do u know we waited 1/2 an hr at the salon for u?

Me: i know its my fault. but i dunno mar...

I really dunno mar.. haiz.. i dunno how to say ...or wad to say ..

den gege say i bo chap ... and said alot of frns.. said i very hack care pattern too...

haiz.. den i told gege ya I am...like this. cos I am inside a 框框。and inside the 框框

only me alone inside... when noone can enters... and i dun care abt anything...

this is wad i said to him.. cos i dunno wad i can say liao

but if i really dun care i think i wont be crying just now... and weeping on his car..

when they tot i am slping...haiz...

gege say his once like dat b4... so he know how it feels..

and said to me.. u inside there.. gd meh? den went u wanna Leave ur 框框?

I also dunno.. I can't find back... my old self... just like lost my souls...

i know.. everything I also know.. i know many ppl care for me.. and very worried for me..

but noone knows.. how much i Want to get out of it.. but i just can't

Maybe I am afraid...that once I am out of my circle.. i Might just fall into any pits..

and Get hurt.. again.. maybe this is the only way i protect myself..