沒那麼簡單

Hm.. was chating on Msn with zhong, he ask me abt hows things going on... and i told him roughly wad happen...I couldn't force him to tell me his thoughts and i couldn't force him to reply me..so the only thing i could do is to give up and stop all this by not contact him anymore.. and tell him when i start to open my heart this is wad I get...
I told him actually its not like i really like him that much.. its just that I dun like the idea of y is heaven being so unfair to me? y does it always be like dat? Am i really asking too much? anD its not like I like this guy.. I ask him out kinda of thing.. its he makes me think that he is interested...so I started asking zhong... qns that I acutally I asked kc before too... lol am I not gd enugh?,am I not pretty enugh? am I not attractive eungh? am I that kind of ger that u will ever like? he replied was: u are gd, and above average... but maybe because sometimes u keep to yourself too much.. let ppl have a feeling of too distant...感觉有点难接近 ... hm... i guess its might be true?
Perhaps its all becos of the terrible experience that I had 3 years ago... with that jerk...