- tIreD -

TOtaLLy wOrn Out..

monDay
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Went TO see Doc...

DiaRrhoea, sorethoat.. meet gege Go makan..

GO chervons Ktv...

Tuesday
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中秋节 - Feeling very down...

Went To Lot1 Pass tix to a WG member

Sms Cy ask him free anot ...

He called up and reply maybe not free...

Sianz.. sad.. down... GO back hm... Watch Drama

Evening Time abt to Go buy dinner... called up cousin..

Cousin.. meet me at lot1 for dinner~

Chitchat... makan.. den go back home..

Wednessday
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Whole day Rot at hm... Watch Drama... slp.. rest

can't slp... tIred Shag..


Thursday
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wOke uP ard 7.30am

Raining wait for instructor to fetch me..

after driving .. I went Lot1 Mac.. to eat big breakfast

rot abit... went back hom.. watch drama... chat in Wf forum..

Prepare ..went to granny house for dinner

met up wendy and TBP den take train to Clark Quay go Central Walk walk

den Went TO MOs...

Club till 4plus am... den left..

Harris'frn sent me back...

went back to granny's huse..

SLpzzz

Friday
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WokE up ard 12 plus... den Wash up.. ate Porridge..

den nua... and watch drama.. acc granny.. till evening.. 6pm.. meet up gege for dinner..

den cheverons again Ktv..

after dat... went to Holland V..Breeko.. chillz

Story: Triangle Love

Story: Triangle Love

Author: Irene Ng


BGR is very troublesome one.. ~
BetTter Dun ToUch~
haiz.. Last nite just went to a Confrontation Dinner..
triangle love...
haiz.. wanna know the story?
Its so Complicated.. It aLl started with ME.. and the nite AT MOS dustySHow Down..
mAin lead:

2 Male Ex-colleague of my ('C' & 'J')(Main Male Lead)
1 Gf of my ('WW')(Main Female Lead)
1 Extra (ME) Outside of the Triangle. (Narator,Listener, Observer, counsulor)

2 guys 1 ger

haha See u ppl interested in the story or not.. if interested den i continue..

-PART 1-

C and J are my ex-colleague in my preivous co. Well I’m quite close to them.
Both are very nice guys.
So there is this day. I asked theM to go for the MOS event(16AUG2007)
I asked this gf of my name WW to go too. That time she still attached,
but very unstable with her bf, its on breaking terms.
Ok so that’s the 1st time they saw her.
That nite I was very busy running ard to entertain frns,
cos I asked a lot of frns down.
Thus. I asked them to take care of her since she is alone.
So that nite.. She Told me.. hey J is really Cute..
Ok 1st part of story ENds..here


-Part 2-

Well there is this FIRDAY where the 4 of us went to KTV at AMK till very late.
Then the following day(SAT)WW is very bored nT do to. So sms all of us ask if wanna Meet up or not.

For J he went out with his frn and was saying that at nite his gf goin his house to stay..

For C he went out to Queensway to buy CAr... pay Installement

For WW I ask her.. to come cck lol find me.. and rOt at my huse 1st den evening go meet C and J for dinner...
Ok up tO this PArt.. the FRiday and SAT event is... WW jio wan....
lets Contiue... So.. WW came... and C said he comming my huse too...
So we all rot and slack at my huse,... den by right is going out in the evening for movie.. but It rained heavily.. and i dun really wanna go out..
So I suggest i OPEN my Jack DAniel and play poker and drink...

haiz.. IT ALL STARTeD FROM The DrInKING SESSion at my hus...

tO be Continue ....

-Part 3-

So afTer Dat nite ... I think The 2 Guys like her.. zZZ

So for J side wad i understands is... Ok he and his gf is just draggin.. is the girl dun let go...
FOr C side i nv ask him anything... cos preivously he like me.. so i didn't noe he like WW too...
For WW all the way she told me is she like J.
den I didn't know alot of things.. cos i dun wanna get involved.. When i am came abt to know that 2 guys like WW... So i just invisible mode to them...

So finally there is this day...

C told me... He will wOO WW no matter wad.. even if his Gd buddy likes her TOo... but nothin will change btw the 2 guys.. its so-called a FAir treatment.
J told me... Like WW also can't do Anything cos.. he still attached...
WW told me.. like J... but J doesn't Seems to like.. her.. and C is very nice to her...

to be continue...


-Part 4-

So.. 1 Fine DAy...
which is.. Last FRiday I think...
I heard abt WW and C together...

And That same Last WEek On wed.. J broke off with his gf...
So J status = Single
So J actually also Wooing WW but.. Cos Its not Very Obivous.. SO
in The End.. WW chooses C..

DEn.. on tHat Friday nite.. I recieve a SMS frm.. J
J SMS: EVerything Have A Conclusion le... hApying ending.. She Chooses Him...
My SMS: U ok or not? SAd? dun think so Much lor..
J SMS: No lar.. the most sad awhile only will be ok de. 有种被耍的感觉 .

Den.. Sunday Nite... C called me.. Sounds very serious... and Pissed...
I was very stunned.. cOs.. he ask me.
C: U know me and WW stead le right?
Me: ya .. y?
C: No MOre Liao.....
Me: how come?? i TOt u all just Started on FRiday???

C: DunnO Wth Is WW thinking... actually... friday is the 2nd time WE Stead .. agian.. meaing.. Previously... already Stead... once... and broke.. off .... u Know Wad... AFter that day (refering to Drinking session at my huse) The next day which is a Sunday.. I go to meet WW.. Monday Meet her... tuesday meet her.. also.. den.. wed... DEn Stead...
Den Suddenly.. one day she just say eh... lets just be FRENs...
den ok nvm... since.. she say wanna be frns.. Consider break le lar.. den the next day after brk up.. we meet again i need to get back my MP3 frm her.. den ask her.. to go eat.. deN.. Cos.. break le mar.. so nv really sound as nice as b4 den she suddenly cry again... zzz
den... on friday.. which is last friday.. i met her.. again.. den she hold my hands say '舍不得' .. den in the end we together again.. Den today..
She bo chap me.. whole day.. sms her nv reply.. ask her with who she also nv reply den i ask J did he meet her.. he say got...Den At nite just now she called me..she Keep Quiet.. den.. I just ask lor... ya wad u wanna say ? lets be frn again/??

So.. I was Totally Stunned after hearing all these
Cos.. on friday during office hr.. I was chating with WW and also tok abt...
if 1 day she go stead with any of the guy must tell me..
but she did not.. I tot Friday den she started with C... yet.. I was like .. keep in the dark...

thins Got even mOre ComplicateD...

SO C Felt a sense of betray cos.. Since J already know dat C and WW together.. Y still Meet her..

To be Continued...

-Part Five-

So I met C on monday(which is last monday) for dinner...
THen.. tok abt it.. .. like dat.. so This Is wad We toT.. like the WW is
inDecisive... SO cause the 2 guys tO like Dat.. and hurt C...
sO C put his msn nick: Kena Played by love.. kena betray by brO..
So he nv really tok to J wHen both at work...z So WW saw leh very upsEt
DEn.. She came to Chat with me.. saying she very sad... told me.. that
WW: I am not wad u all think I am... Its not wad u all think as it is...
ME: huh?? wad is the way that we think??
WW: that I am the BAD guy lor...
ME: den???
WW: there is somthing that u all dunno and I can't SAy...
WW: I can't SAy I need TO keep My Promise.. to protect the person..
that I want to protect...
ME: isit? ... den?
WW: but i really Wanna Say Out.. but.. i Can't...
ME: if u wan den say lor i listen lor..
WW: can I called u now???
ME: nOpe i working.. and my hp flat.. my hP Off ModeZ...
WW: oRh....
den .. she wan to say dun wan to say like.. dat me.. SO sO frustrated..
den KeEP saying..
WW: ya I am the Bad guy... If i Leave..
everything will be Settle...
I am.. like : zzZZzz DOtdotDOt... she Aggitated me.. until I gastrIc..pain that DAy...
den I nv Reply her.. MSN. cos in pain.. den I SMS C...
My sms: C can u Kill me??
C sms: Wad happen?
My sms: dUnno Wad WW wants... she say she is very upset.. den
say Got thing wanna tell me.. a monent she wanna say .. another monment she dun wan to say.. make me.. den Say wad wanna Disappear
zzz I am very Affected... until I in Serious GAstric pain lor

den I think after dat... C called up WW asked her.. dun aggitate me... Cos I not feeling well...

deN dat EVening After work C worried abt me..so Came to meet me for dinner.. after work... den J told him he and WW meeting ... when C told him his with me.. ...

Den I told C.. dat Since.. WW is With J and I am with u right nOw.. lets Go meet thEM... den SIt down and have A confrontation.. la.. SEE wHo say one is the right story lor.. since.. both J and WW are saying Different thing...

(eg: C asked J : u asked WW out or she asked u?
J : WW.
C asked WW : u asked J out or he asked u?
WW: J.
)

tO be Continued~....

-Part SIx-


[10-09-2007]
Before sit down, C finally see J at work.
C asked J between things of J and WW. J said he will do nothing currently.
Since he just broke off. doesnt wana get into another so fast.
J explained that he will afraid he cant reject WW if he meet her.
C said that he will just get outta the whole picture since shes so indecisive.
Carry this thing on will just hurt brotherhood between C and J.

This is Wad C told me.. lar.. before the CONFROnTATION dinner.
Ya It’s a Monday.. Cos After wad I have heart that Sunday nite.
Though I know I should just dun be bortherd, but seeing C so sad,
I can’t bear to scold him also(cOs I did Warn him b4). All I could do is
Be his gd listener try to cheer him up, so I asked him out for dinner on
Monday. But initially C doesn’t wanna meet cos he feels very sad, dunno
Wad to say we meet up. So to try not to make him feels so bad, I got to act as if I very poor thing no ppl acc me eat dinner. Ya that’s wad I told him when he said he dun wan to see anyone. Still on Monday he sms me said wanna meet me for dinner.

So on monday, he told me wad happen to them excatly.. and the bottom part is a summry.

after drinking that week

mon - with her till wednesday
tues
wed
thurs - lets just be friends she said
fri - bring her go see doc some how she hold my hand again
sat - with her whole day
sun - hard to contact ended up she met j at nite.

mon - she meet with j
tues - meet her she cry and stuff. need time. gave her time.
wed - she meet j, at nite j broke off
thurs - met her go ex house take stuff. she said take things slow.
fri - she said together.
sat - sat nite she meet j.
sun - she said lets just be friends again.

to be continued..

CONFRONTATION NITE[11-09-2007]

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-Part Seven-

CONFRONTATION NITE[11-09-2007]


bad light is on WW since it seems like shes playing C around.

Once the 4 of us met up... WW dragged me to the ladies.. den started tok to me for 30mins...

So she is telling me that.. she is not wad we think she is...

She Told me.. that actaully all along.. J like very on and off thats y...

she is stuck in bwt the 2 guys.. She also told me.. after that Sunday breakup with C... she and J started steading ...Zzz

dEn she Showed me the SMS... that J asked her not to tell us... zzz

After dat We went out of the ladies.. den order food.. to eat... As all of them already eaten.. only left me.. eating.. sO i suggest the 3 of them start to tok... while i eat and listen ...


C asked WW why like that play him. friday thought she said she gave him so much assurance
that she will be with him. WW even asked C not to leave her because of J.
Now WW because of J leave C.

WW speechless.

I asked J whether he got anything to say. He said nope.

C used a kinder tone and explained: ' Now situation is clear. You both carry on. Whereas i
will just get outta the picture. And no one shall bother irene again regarding 3 of us.'

WW: ' no no, there are things that are not clear'

C: 'whats there to be clearer about. Ur deicision is made.'

Me to J : 'U got anything to say?'

J:'Nope'

WW seems to have something to say to C, therefore asked Me to ask.

C suggest to go buy drink together with J
J went toilet.

WW told C that she and J are together since sunday. and that J said that he will settle
everything. Seems like J did not informed anyone at all.

C to WW: 'Why tell me this now.. when i wanna get outta the picture already. Just let me
be ignorant of what J do to me. How am i gonna face him now!'

WW: ' Now u see that whole picture. I'm not as bad as u see. He promised that he will settle
everything. At least i felt better now. '

to be continued....

-Part Eight-

C cannot take it and just leave.

C's feeling: He have been telling both WW and J in the first place.
If they wana be together. Just let him know
He will just leave the whole thing. And wish both of em the best.
They just hide everything from him... C have told WW that J have broke up.
But WW still choose him after. So he told everything is cleared but just to get more screwed up after.

So WW called J to find me ans J...

WW came alone.. I was like... where's C?

WW: He left.. He said he cannot take it anymore..den his eyes red red and left..

ME: OMG~ hE left w/o me... zzz

As my hp is totally flat i Can't even called him to check where he is..
But feeling quite Worried abt him... ask WW to call him.. he ans the call

Me: Eh where are u??? y leave me alone hEre..

C: I cannot take it anymore.. so leave lor.. SoRRY..

Me: den me how?? zzz..

C: u GO home 1st lor..

Me: Where u At? I go find u... At least come Here find me mar..

C: DEn wad u Expect me tO do?? Cry in front oF them??

C started yelling at me...zzz(Not My fault.. yet.. zzz)

In the end I took cAb home...

Den Once i reached home.. charge my hp.. msg him ask him to called me ASAP dun let me worry...

Fianlly wait till ard 1 hr he MSN online.. so he asked me for my Comments..

I asked him to Call me... den WW called him.. and tok and tok .. while I am WAiting.. for hiMzzzz den he msg me say she dun want to hang up just .. keep toking and toking..zzz Again I waited and waited.. Till I pek Chey den msn him.. dO u know how long I waited for u since jusT now u left ??? its like 3 hrs le lor.. and u expect me to wait somemore??

If u all still wanna continue to tok den u tok to her..lar.. i Go sLPz lez...
den Finally he hang up with her and called.. me...
All I can do is try to cheer him up...

-Part Nine-

Next morning..zz
WW called C that she wanted to see him.
C meet WW for work. C asked wW why still meet him.
WW told C that she have broke off with J.
C said so??
WW said just to let u know.
WW asked C out for dinner.
C didnt said anything.
WW said set. Meet for dinner.

At work.
C asked J: 'Why like that'
C have been doing all the asking whereas J keeps quiet.
'If in the first place you just tell me then things will be clear already.'
J quiet.

10 plus am.. C called me.. was trying to cheer him up..
Yet.. he told me.. WW wanted to meet him for dinner ...
I was Pissed Immediately.. already not feeling very happy when he mention morning she meet him b4 go to Work..Thus, I was Totally Turn OFF. Den I told him: Isit. anything ur wish I dun care anymore.. well I got to go busy with my work le..ok.Bye!.

Mine thinking: Firstly U ppl get me involved when i Didn't know at aLL...
Den I also dun really wanna get involved.. till I see A MESS u guys are in.. den i Try to Step in to help u ppl Solve the problem.. I tot After that controntation nite.. EVerything Will be setTLE.. but Its Seems.. I am wRONg.. I try TO get C out of that Shit.. When He himself Try to stEP inside again... I dun WAN to SEe WW get stuck in bwt the 2 Guys.. Cos I already can Foresees wad will happen if.. C meet WW again .. WW will again.. BecOme.. like wanna Go back to C den If J continues treat her nice again.. She will GO back tO J.. That is wad i Dun WAnna SEE YET... C ... haiz.. SO in the end i Give uP~ .

12 plus C sms WW not to meet as it will complicate things further.
WW said that just a dinner. Asked C not to think too much.
Ww promised she wont be saying anything.

Afternoon at work.SMS from J to C
'All i have to say is i have no guts to tell u i like WW. I just cant say it out to u.
Cause im afraid that it would jeopardize out frdship. I know the damage had been made
but i dun feel good either.'

C replied J
'Thought i have explained everything in the first place. That we both liked her.
And that anything just tell me. Why keep me in the dark?'

No reply from J afterwards.

SMS frm J to Me:

I aM sorry Abt.. WAd had haPpen.. I chose not to Say Cos.. I'm aFraid of hurting ppl ard me.. Yet.. i did hurt.. and the most Dat I hurt was not protecting Candi... I am SoRry if Loving Candi was wrOng I will Still Continued to love her..

Immediately After i Saw the msg.. ard 2 plus I sms the 3 of them..

I think the biggest mistake is me. U 3 have no wrong. My biggest mistake is to get involved and end up to this. i shall make no more comments. I thot everythin will be settle last nite. But on hearing something again, i decided to give up on de 3 of u. I try to protect everyone and its seems like i am de Fool.

3plus WW smsed C
'Argh. Feeling so terrible now you know? i know i hurt u. Seeing u hurt now makes
me feel more upset. i have down what i think i should done. Really hope u r fine.'


C seeing all other 3 is so upset over the whole thing. Decided to end this once and for all.

C told J she will not meet WW for the time being after that nite dinner.
And that they are still friends even though all this..

C meet WW.
C told WW that he will not meet her or contact her for the time being.
If after this whole time she is single. Then C will woo WW again.
WW started to cry.
C sent sms to other 3.
' I shall start off first by saying everyone's at fault. So stop blaming or pointing whose
fault is it. After tonite no one shall mention bout this again. I'm really fragile.
I really dun bear to see anyone get sad over this whole thing anymore. It hurts me more
than anything seeing u 3 sad. I realli love u all. Reply that u all love me too and tmr
we shall be good friends again.'

C asked WW to be his gf for the nite until he send her home.
WW cried. Saying she dun wan just for the nite.

C promised WW that he wont be attached for 1 month as everyone needs time to rearrange their
feelings.
WW promised C too that she wont be attached for this 1 month.

to be continued...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

-Last Part-

This part onwards all frm C. Cos I already dun care abt wad happen.. lolx this is a summarised version.. Last part~ zzz

Friday.
C asked J how are things between he and WW.
J said that they seemed be together again.
C stunned upon hearing.. ' Seems?? How come cannot confirm?'
J said they hold hands on thursday nite and she stayed over at his place.
C told J of the 1 month promise with Ww.
C asked J to confirm with her whether they are together on the nite.

J called C on the nite. Saying that when he asked WW whether they are together.
WW answered J saying that were they ever seperated.
C and J stunned..
C told J that he will not contact WW ever again after confirming with her.

Saturday

C asked WW how are things with her and J
WW said she chose J
C wondering will WW keep quiet until he asked her?
WW asked C still good friends?
C replied things have developed that C and WW can even be friends anymore. Bye.


-END OF STORY-

任性-孙燕姿

喜欢听歌感人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的
睡不着我就醒着
喜欢唱歌动人的歌
它让我获得一点心得
得不到我就放掉
不再让日子被打乱了
寂寞很吵我很安静
情绪很多我很镇静
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒
固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错
承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动
当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要从混乱解脱
不去碰触到我的需要
喜欢听歌动人的歌

- very bad mood -

wELl i dunNo y.. this whole week since Monday ..

i have been Very Bad mood ... it Doesn't get any better

haiz.. Frns.. fly my Planes... FRns.. take me for granted..

After wad i have done.. FOr all my frns..

All i Felt was just being taken for granted...Suddenly felt so sad...

how I wish there is NO one.. in this world just Me and MysELf only..

aLone.. I wanna be Alone.. :( haiz... very Down..reaLyl very down :(

全世界没有人了解我。。。 明白我。。

whO can uNderstands hOw I am Feeling?? Who careS?? As If..

i am just Transparent... FRns.. in troubLe i tried to help..

frns sad.. i try my best to lend my listening ear...

try my best to cheer them up..BUT.. Who.. knows.. how i am Feeling..

If they understands me... they wont Even mention that I seems happy nowadays..

and busy ... so many things..

我心中的痛， 我经历的一切， 并没有你们想的这么简单。。。

我只是想让时间冲淡一切的一切。。。

Nini... Wo hao xiang hao xiang da ku yi chang...

wo zhi xiang zai ku yi xia xia... zhen de...

当一个人一次又一次的承受失望和打击时。。

渐渐的他的生命在也不会对任何人或物报有任何希望。。。

心事谁人知(原唱沈文程)

心事谁人知(原唱沈文程)

心事若无讲出来
有谁人会知
有时阵想要诉出
满腹的悲哀
踏入七逃界
是阮不应该
如今想反悔
谁人肯谅解
心爱你若有了解
请你着忍耐
男性不是无目屎
只是不敢流出来
心事若无讲出来
有谁人会知
有时阵想要诉出
满腹的悲哀
踏入七逃界
是阮不应该
如今想反悔
谁人肯谅解
心爱你若有了解
请你着忍耐
男性不是无目屎
只是不敢流出来

http://www.9ymp3.com/song/41821.htm

-sICK-

fIanLly ... I strain my Body Till I fell sick again..

Recently have been Busy .. day time with Work... nite time..

Busy with frns.. buddies, gege, frns, frns from WG..

Getting Tix.. for frns... Going CLub...

Recently like keep raingin... Friday WEnt to bai bai,

Bai ah gong, Bai, Bei Gong, Bai tai ma Tai gong, Bai papa...

when Saw's papa pic... my eyes become teary ... sO long nv sEe him..

I really miss him... nv tot .. that the Last time i saw him.. was so long ago..

and He just left... and nv come back again... I miss him.. so much...

that day.. rained... most of us were drenched.. i knew i sure fall sick de.. haiz..

den we went to makan... at jurong aRea den back to ah ma huse.. went to watch 881~

the Movie quiTe nice... very Funny... but there's a part... quite touching..

And i Qctually Drop tears 2 times... After dat they went for dinner and went off..

den I window shop ard Tiong bahru and ..den went to amk... to meet jz...

after dat.. went Mos burger..eat and wait for the candi and cy.. den WEnt to KBox..

zzzz Sing... Till 3am supper and home sweet home... Was VEry Tired...

Stupid Driver... bluff my $$ $30 FOR CAB FARE... WTF!

deN ofF my hp... sound and went to slp... So when i woke up... WOO hp flooded with

SMs...deN saw CAndi sms.. And call her.. she ask if wanna meet up... ltr..

so i told her.. ar bo Come Cck find me.. nua 1st lor haha she say she dun mind..

so she came... den.. cy also came... den jz also ... den actaulyl plan to watch

movie... but i lazy haha but cos.. it rained.. so nv go out.. for movie...

so i suggest with play poker and drink lor.. i Open my Bottle of Jack Daniel...

den all drink till Seh seh... BOO~! ytd still went out Whole day.. with gege...

TIred TIred Tired.. Yeah finalLy.. Exhuasted le.. body Can't take it anymore ~

tIred~ busy~

boREd~ Stone~

no mOre Nuaing~

dYing~ heART dead~

gRastric Serious~

very TiRed~

hao lei hao lei

bOO... THink i quiTe busy Recently~

dId i Ever Mention in my blog? tHAt i Took uP a TEMP iT Assgment

for ard 1 mnth... At Bugis Office Tower! IES...

haha 1st day GO.. See another TEMP staff is uncle~ *faint*

deN xian 1/2 lolx.. den haha LUCKY my Team Leader... lolx Tall Tall guy..

haha consider not bad Looking ba.. wOO VERY TALL i think slightly more den 1.80m

frm my 1st day... 08-08-07 till now.. Everyday eat with him..liz and noOr.. wOO..

they Are frndly and kind Souls... :) ENjoy Working with Them.. haha

i Also Very harDworking.. they are nice to ME.. :) haha

But tODAY .. already VERY tired yet.. was Pissed off with 2 users..

lolx.. gOt one very NASTY tERRIBLE~!!!!HORRIBLE ~ bully ME SOBZ another..one..

very TRoublesome~!!! poO~! xian xian xiAn...

Oh yar and my Application one WHOISGOIN.com.sg have bEEn approved~ SO I am a junior

ambassador right now.. haha .. SO this thurs MOS got EVENT anyone want tix??? msg mE~!!!!!

- Toughts of the Day -

没有希望 就不会有失望

不是你的 勉强也不会幸福

不想就不会有烦恼

放弃是位一的选者

Was Toking to gege Today abt.. BGR.. thing..

deN we Heard somthing... that's quite true.. on 93.3FM

and is actually wad i told Gege also...

交朋友最重要是。。。 出去时的感觉开心就好。。

不要想太多。。。 也不要管对方的朋友。。。

Was discussing this with gege..



Meaning somtimes.. when a Female go out with a Male frn..

Like got feeling for each other.. Yet cos not close yet..

sO somehow abit like act till Too courteous like dat...

anD Feeling bECame Weird...



And Sometimes.. JusT Sometimes.. .

When both got abit of Feeling for each other??

yET the TiminG is COmplEtely..



And WOrst Thing is When 1 tRies to Think Too MuCh...

The One Who thinks.. WiLL actually suFFers Alot in Pain...

Want to Say can't Say..out Want to ask also can't AsK...

And The Other Party also dunno.. Then When This Happens..

It became worst when u Actaully Go out with that person Yet ..

he/she dOesn't kNow.. That U are Actaully Suffering...

fRM ur Own 压力 ... And sometimes can lead To breakDown.. of Own's Feeling~!



Was Telling Gege somthing like dat happen To me.. previously..

but Tell gege.. just dun think So much den.. no Stress le lor..

was Trying to make him understands.. that.. sometimes its like dat de lar

Just Take it Easy lor.. and Dun think Too much den.. dats ALL..

你道歉　你難過　於是我給你笑容

誰在乎我的心　還會不會寂寞

＃曾經以為等待會改變什麼　你總會屬於我
　但是最後時間證明了　你只喜歡我

你退縮　你冷漠　於是我放開雙手
不在乎我的心　會永遠的寂寞

dUnno isit becos last nite saw thier pics..

wOke up dreamt of them... again.

wOke up ard 10am.. den watched 换换爱 ep 10. after dat...

ate breakfast.. den nua all thE way till 2pm..

bathed prepare and rush off to clark quay..

Met that guy andrew.. A shortie.. weLL in the End ya Sort of Wasted my trip.

SLM... zzz rUshed off to meet jz,lt for tea break.. tok cok for ard 1 and 1/2 hr..

Den they waited with me till my cousin knock oFF..

Went to Tiong bahru collect her heels.. den makan.. and walk walk awhile and

weNt home.. surf net.. chat with frns.. surf frnster.. and saw a msg frm weikun.

Didn't really rem... but.. lolx to think that ya his my classmate in my pri sch

for a few yrs and went to the same sec sch.. being schmate..

wELL we Chated for quite long.. on msn... den watched the drama till now..

finally finished the serials...

StIll can't slp... weLL i Should faster try to slp.. aR bo ltr OBAK...

scared ppl lolx..

weLL... dIdn't gO Mos on sat nite...

weNt tO meet Gege, meimei, cheng and mike...

went To geylang tO makan 豆浆油条 ..

den after dat went to east cOast...

I suddenly gastric.. but i nv tell them.. so just 忍

have bEen Thinking about wad haPpen to me..recently

I think I changed alot... even da gu and some of my frns.. say so..

I like beginning to be more and more anti-social... anti-hyper...

Very Low~ ... eVen that nite They were toking this and that...

I did Not really listen to wad They are toking.. just siting back facing them..

Looking at the Stars in the sky... and listening to mp3 on gege's PSP...

I think i really becAme very quiet le.. hm... dunno y... xianz~!

SOmetimes.. when TOking.. My soul will suddenly fly to dunno where like dat..

very Fast i wiLL not be inTerested in the Topic.. we are toking...

OMg waD haPPen TO me.. xiAnz~!!! Zzz I am the one..

asking wad time Are we gOing home..tOt oF goiNg home Early.. to Rest..

So dat Today Can wake up earLy.. for the audition..

In the End.. i try to slp ard 3 plus.. but.. lolx can't Slp dunno y..

Anyway .. lolx I didn't make it trough the audition..

sHy went with me... and I came out and shake my head..

lolx Anyway I expected tat outcome tOo... Didn't really take it very serious...

Den after dat Went to PS .. to walk ard till 4.30 meet sam and sen...

Den all like very tired and nua.. nv really walked much .. went To Wisma TopMAns

Sam say wanna try the purple top.. but me and shy told him not nice..

Den after dat we went up starbucks.. to drink cOffee...

DEn my ringTone rang.. lolx den i started to sing the chorus of the 不能说的秘密

den Shy scold me..say.. neh u can sing wad .. even better den me...

Y dun wan to sing properly during Audition... lolx..

I told her.. actaully dun go in better like dat i can stOp dreaming and

find a proper job.. and face the reality lolx ...

lala den after dat.. went pepper lunch for dinner only sen and sam eat...

lol we watched them eat... cos we eat lunch abit late.. still very full that time.

den after dat.. shy went home.. we 3 went cini... sen and sam.. play billard.. while

sit down there play sen's PSp..wOO nice gAME haha ~!!! till 9pm.. den i took 190 hm.

lolx think i crAzy... Keep Trying to Rub Salt on My Own WoUnds..

lolx See thier pic again...but i totally no Feeling.. lolx

Den after that went to Delete his Pic frm my Yahoo Account

haben have the time to Do it.. haha fianlly ... deleted...

Tml Having aN IntERviEW~ laLa... at Clark Quay area~ lala

FianLLy.. starting tO reCover le~

just Finish Drinking my HL milk~ yummy yummy

nicenice :) I love Milk Milk~ hehe

I wana Eat Fries~~!!!! arGH!! I wan To Eat cHeeZe Prata~!!!

I WAna EaT piZzaS~!!! sO much CravingZ.

I wAnna Go out! i wanna Go dRink... i Wanna gO club~!!!!

I wana Go haVe FUN~!!! I wana knOW more GUYs~ lolx

I wanA try To have A relationship again~!!!!!

haha... think i aM boRed to Death le~

不能说的秘密 LYRICS

周杰倫 不能说的秘密 LYRICS

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐(oh~~)
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖 指示我說再見
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

-Thoughts oF the Day-

说不出的感受
表达不出的难过
过了不知多久
最终只能忍住无奈
选择离开。

-[小爱]-


hM.. thiS is Created from the Idea of Jay's song.

不能说的秘密
==========

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

-dOen't know-

He dOesn't know...that I miss him..

He dOesn't know...that I have qNs for him..

He dOesn't know... everything anything...