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A Frn of mine

2010-11-04T01:49:00.002+08:00

wEll lOng Long time no blog...i lost a frn of mine.. or maybe he lost me as a frn...
I am not going to contact him if he is not going to contact me ... Let beyonds.. by beyonds...I can only say I am so disappointed in him.... i think its been at least 3 mnths that we last contact.

我想爱

2010-08-07T01:53:00.001+08:00

歌手名：魏晨
歌曲名：我想爱
专辑名：千方百计
感谢｛253057646｝辛苦编辑Lrc歌词，并提供给大家分享
魏晨 - 我想爱
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一个人也不错只是有一点寂寞
在朋友散去以后心突然被掏空了
想着一双手可以被我紧握着
那属于我的轮廓在世界哪个角落
倦了累了的时候有人听我说
互道晚安的温柔
那竟是我忘记的感受
能不能找一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
不管她到底是关怀还是伤害
我想要让一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
我真的想全力付出我的爱
想着一双手可以被我紧握着
那属于我的轮廓在世界哪个角落
倦了累了的时候有人听我说
互道晚安的温柔那竟是我忘记的感受
能不能找一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
不管她到底是关怀还是伤害
我想要找一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
我真的想全力付出我的爱
www.99Lrc.com =>速配歌词配词
能不能找一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
不管她到底是关怀还是伤害
我想要找一个人爱对她说甜蜜的对白
我真的想全力付出我的爱

闷闷不了

2010-06-28T14:13:00.002+08:00

最近发现自己越来越孤僻，纳闷，不爱说话，不爱出门。对人事物也都没什么耐性。就算和朋友去逛街，一下子就累了，闷了，不想再逛了。和一群朋友吃饭聊天时，也是很快就闷了。。我的灵魂就像是掉入另一个空间，在那空间里什么都没有。。只有蓝蓝的天。。什么声音都没有，在那空间里很平静。。却总觉的心里空空的，有些朋友了解我，有些朋友误解我。知道他们关心我，可我什么什么都不想说，因为说不出口，很多事情只能默默地往肚子里吞。。。

三個字

2010-05-14T14:11:00.002+08:00

你日日笑得這麽燦爛我怎捨得你喊
做小丑我都原意爲了搏紅顔一笑

從來沒有這麽想一件事原來有這麽一件事
才值得我們留戀今天為你死都可以

從前有那三個字天天講你知雖然沒新意但有意思
我儲埋儲埋這麽多詩句我只想你可以跟我一起笑
從前那三個字人人都鐘意好不可思議
但是又有幾個人真正明白那意思我只知道我只想你快樂

趁住人多多講講心裏話咁先至值囘票價
從此得你知我任何事都不會怕
從來沒有這麽想一件事原來有這麽一件事
才值得我們留戀今天真的為你死都可以

從前有那三個字天天講你知雖然沒新意但有意思
我儲埋儲埋這麽多詩句我只想你可以跟我一起笑
從前那三個字人人都鐘意好不可思議
但是又有幾個人真正明白那意思我只知道我只想你快樂

就算今天不再闖過昨日我怎麽講都無謂
就算今天不再闖過昨日我願意等下去
再等下去再等下去

從前有那三個字天天講你知雖然沒新意但有意思
我儲埋儲埋這麽多詩句我只想你可以跟我一起笑
從前那三個字人人都鐘意好不可思議
但是又有幾個人真正明白那意思我只知道我只想你快樂
我只想你快樂

领悟

2010-05-11T13:39:00.002+08:00

领悟,是我在这半年的收获. 我不应该还相信, 世界上还会有那么一个对的人. 在也不会期盼着在茫茫人海中能遇见那个能过再次让我心动的人... 没了期望,就不会有失望.. 原来, 暧昧也能很受伤..

友情又是为何那么脆弱? 做朋友的不是应该互相体谅，包容和关心对方吗？为什么会为了小小的事情而伤了和气？
我一直以来都非常的珍惜和每一位的友谊。。。可是，我看到的只有无聊的讽刺，争执和背叛。。

一次又一次的伤害，让我在一次看到人心丑陋的一面，让我在一次不想在相信任何人。。。怎么相信？如何相信？

好人未必有好报，只是让人家爬上头欺负的对象罢了。。所以，我不在当好人。。

天使终于变成了恶魔。。。

I hate myself for the stupidness I have before..

2010-04-22T12:06:00.003+08:00

Well, I just heard abt some news abt my ex. He actually start being together with that Fking bitch for 1 year before we broke up. I felt stupid. Somehow maybe I did know somthing is amiss but I ignore it? Cos I was emotionally unstable that time...

And I got to know this after 3 yrs... Well, i dunno how should I feel or react when this news is brought up to me. I went into totally blankness. I told a few closed frn abt it.. they asked me not to get affected since its been over for so long and I am living well now.

True enugh its past.. I shouldn't be affected by this. Though I think i might be thinking abt it again at late nite, but i guessed its all over.. I am not affected by it.. but still I really hate myself for knowing this bastard.. and get hurt in such many ways and wasted 5 yrs of youth on him.

Ever since I chose to throw away the memmories with him.. I have also somehow lost alot of other memmories.. somehow now I am very short term memmories.. maybe this is 1 gd thing abt me now.. Everything that I am unhappy abt, will be forgotten very soon.

Everyone tells me he will be retributed.. but after 3 yrs wad I see is only how he dumped that bitch and be with someone else.. well though i think the bitch deserves it.. but.. when will he get retriubuteD?

I seriously hope that he will one day learnt a very serious lesson... for doing all theses.. when will this day come? I dunno...

楊丞琳 - 匿名的好友

2010-04-22T11:59:00.004+08:00

楊丞琳 - 匿名的好友

杜松混合茉莉的风回忆里被爱那股激动
天色好红温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的脸容
一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字心还跳动
却没重逢只有想碰却又不敢碰的那种悸动

也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎麽说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱那股激动
天色好红温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的脸容

也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什麽让彼此选择又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果只有失去的温柔最温柔

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执著依然执著却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果只有失去的拥有最永久

你不是真正的快樂

2010-04-05T13:15:00.001+08:00

作詞：五月天作曲：五月天

人群中哭著
你隻想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢或痛或心動了
你已經決定了你已經決定了

你靜靜忍著
緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜就是越傷人了
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割

你不是真正的快樂你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇
於是你含著眼淚飄飄蕩蕩跌跌撞撞的走著

你不是真正的快樂你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然后才后悔著

你不是真正的快樂你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快樂你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻重新開始活著

Sadness

2010-04-02T04:38:00.001+08:00

Well I gussed its oways teh alcohol that can make someone change the feelings...

Trying very very hard... toForget everything.... nothing much on the groud either...

Heaven knows....Heaven knows.....

Busy Days and Nights ~ usED up all my Engery since last monday till noW~

2010-03-12T15:23:00.004+08:00

Well, I guessed the emo period should be overnow..
Was actually quite surprised that, that last sat night go ktv pub with KC and Sam.
To acc Kc as he became emo too. I tot with the Aid of alcohol I will, once again feel very emo and maybe teared. Instead, no tears, no feeling. Emptyness is wad I feel now.. No sadness or frustrations like before. I guess everything even my feelings.. is gone after the call that nite. Not sure if this is a gd/bad thing. Cos I belive when I mentioned that my heart is sealed up this time rd, I might be just saying it for now..But i gussed It just happened to be that way too. Cos now I totally feel nothing no sadness, no happiness, just emptyness and the fact that I go out everynite after work.. to keep myself busy... till When I reached home I was damn tired and I would just washed up and collaspe into my bed.
Sometimes its gd to cry when u are sad, but what happens if there is no tears???
Though during that call that nite, we did said that we are still friends.. and he even say he will treat me better as a frn.. suppose to be no hard feelings but i guessed that's our very last contact.. he didn't contact me, neither did I...I am glad I have many many frns who care alot for me.. There are always there when i need them, though I didn't say anything to them.. I guess its always damn diff to express my feelings to frns.. so somtimes they tends to mistunderstands.. and i dun liKe to explain.. i just leave the misunderstanding there... well that nite was the last time i ever explain... I will nv do that again.
It used up all my Engery and Courage.... that I have accumulated for this few years..

Fang Le Ai....

Finally Over - The Ugly Truth

2010-03-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

Well, let me start off with why I am so tired this whole week. Cos I have alot of thoughts in mind... Qns and no ans... I only can make myself busy to distract myself. Monday, after work i went out with gege and mike... Tuesday, I went ktv pub till 2plus am with a frn. Wed, I went ktv with joe, kexin and a frn till 2.plus am again.. and Totally Shagged out till i need to take 1/2 day leave... today.. and after work.. I went out again with yan... to get my baby G and shop shop... I was so happy when I finally Get my many years WISH(TO GET a BABY G!!! I nv have had one)... But when yan reached bugis and we went for dinner at V8 cafe, she ask me so wad happen ? I told her i dun wish to say cos i will be sad... in the end i still got to say..out... haiz... so after that I got Totally EMO mode again =( and She tell me if she was me.. she will Call him and ask exactly wad happen shouldn't keep inside the heart ... will feel very xinku... And after that we went shopping.. but i wasn't in the mood.. cos already turn EMO mode... lol wadever she tell me or ask me.. i just say ya.. nice.. go and try... I was very tired at the same time...

And this time i really think through wad she told me and... finally when i reach nearby my place... I called him up... to have a chat with him... Finally everything was clear... he mentioned that it was all his fault... and I did nothing wrong... well i also xian already .. I just wan him not to misunderstands..me.. he said that he feels that he couldn't really put in 100% effort cos of his previous experience too so... he dun wish to hurt me.. so when all this things took place he decided not to disturb me and stop everything... To him : he might thing ya since we have not even started so it might be a gd thing.. that he stop early... but sad to say,.. actually its tOO late for him to even appologize already. Cos for my part I am struggling myself.. he dunno or no one knows how hard it is for me to even unLOCk my heart for the special one to come in... and now i think its my fault to cos my own misery.. I shouldn't have even give any hopes for anyone ... I shouldn't ... cOs when there is no hopes, there will be no dissapointment... and no dissapoinment means.. i will be gd... at least i won't be eMO =( .. Well but at least everything is clear now.. I suddenly feel so relax now...

沒那麼簡單

2010-03-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

Hm.. was chating on Msn with zhong, he ask me abt hows things going on... and i told him roughly wad happen...I couldn't force him to tell me his thoughts and i couldn't force him to reply me..so the only thing i could do is to give up and stop all this by not contact him anymore.. and tell him when i start to open my heart this is wad I get...
I told him actually its not like i really like him that much.. its just that I dun like the idea of y is heaven being so unfair to me? y does it always be like dat? Am i really asking too much? anD its not like I like this guy.. I ask him out kinda of thing.. its he makes me think that he is interested...so I started asking zhong... qns that I acutally I asked kc before too... lol am I not gd enugh?,am I not pretty enugh? am I not attractive eungh? am I that kind of ger that u will ever like? he replied was: u are gd, and above average... but maybe because sometimes u keep to yourself too much.. let ppl have a feeling of too distant...感觉有点难接近 ... hm... i guess its might be true?
Perhaps its all becos of the terrible experience that I had 3 years ago... with that jerk...

Tired ~

2010-02-28T21:59:00.002+08:00

Well, finally everything is over~ end of FEB!

Look forward to a brand new month! Lets hope it will be better for all of us =)
Cheers~!

Had a funny lunch today with family~ lolx - for more info watch the video at my FB

Cried

2010-02-28T03:29:00.002+08:00

I cried ./.. after going to v's place... cos drinka bit too much and today's chinese valentine;s daY + my chinese bday... =( SADED... have beebn emo recently... but trying to keep it to heart for verylong till i bursted out.., finally with the aid of alcohol.... finally... .. I cried... =(... i fellvery very terrible... all I wanted is.. to let it go.. everyhting.. let out my frustration, my agonuy, my feelings// everything......

2010-02-27T02:24:00.000+08:00

New post of the Year 2010

2010-02-26T14:02:00.002+08:00

Sad to say I lost my SE W705 on 1st of Oct 2009 =( and used back my stupid old Motorola phone.Have been using it since then..till now. Wanted to get SE satio, but i still have more den 1 year contract =(. Alot of frns ask me to get iPhone instead. LOL i told them i anti-iphone.. so diff to use lol. Played with a few of thier iphones... that day I played with Cy's iphone. I was telling him iphone so difficult to use. And he was telling me how difficult can it be, theres only 1 button. And my reply was its difficult cos ther is only 1 button lol. I wasn't use to touch screen. I still prefer using buttons.
Well hm, this year is just the beginning of the year.. and there is only 1 major wish. Is to open my heart and try to accept new r/s and FALL in love once again~! After resting for 3 years... I felt that its time to open my heart again.
And finally, when he comes to my life 'suddenly', he was catogizied as a very nice guy. To me, I am okay with him... i mean i need to know more abt him before I could really open my heart.. As time goes by, we txt sms everyday.. and he was very caring.. all that... but as time getting by I was suddenly afraid that i might just fell in deep again. So I am in a delima.. wanted to try yet.. I was afraid.. of loving and getting hurt again.
Everything changes on the day I went dbl O.. or maybe even b4 that.. I am not sure how it happen why it happen.. but.. I swear i have no idea how I got drunk. That nite I was drunk.. I actually I asked my frn to call him to ask him fetch me..omg (I felt so stupid for doing that.. I must have really develop some kind of trust in him but i think he is mistaking it.. might think somthing else...)Cos I was totally drunk.. I can't really rem what happen that actual nite. But my frn told me what accutally happen that nite.
She told me that I accutally ask her to call him to fetch me.. but he sounds very sian and asked how come i drank so much till drunk? And she told him cos they make me drunk... Den he told her that he will call back again and.. immediately after this call.. she told the rest of them wad happen .. they were saying if that guy is really interested in me he would need so much time to think and no hesitation. So thier conclusion for him was that maybe he is not really into me? and soon after that FY told hz that he asking ym to come and sent us home...
So after I heard all these i was thinking 2 things.. 1st. I feel very ashame of myself for the call part. 2nd thing. I felt upset on the conclusion that hz and the rest came up to.And after that I was feeling very tired and that day suppose to reach v's place earlier but since he mentioned b4 he will reach late.. and I have to go K'huse to bia nian .. so I tot might as well stay at K's huse long.. and only reach V's huse ard 10.30pm..
And when i was on the way there i msged him ask him wad time he reaching.. he replied that he was already there.. (I was suprised that he reached even earlier den me) and when i am reaching then I saw his 2nd msg that he already left.. saying that he was tired. Iam very disappointed again.. Still thinking of wad happen ytd.. and today.. so I tot he was avoiding me.. perhaps.. perhaps.. then the 3rd msged came in.. saying abt wad happened last nite.. say my frn called up said i was durnk and ask him to come fetch me.. i reply him ya.. but i can't rem a single thing and reply him sorry.. he said that he did caled back but no one pick it up and then hz called him to tell him no need to come as another frn will be comming.
At that moment.. I was thinkgin abt his msg.. should i believe him? he also mentioned that time he already fall aslp.. didn't think much.. was tired.. and to make things worst.. after everyone left, only me, v & bro.. we talk toking abt this.. and they try to be funnnythey sent him some stupid msg.. that I later found out.. but i just ignored.. i think he totally mistaken.. already.. after that msg that they sent out... =( I was sad.Totally saded.
And ever since that day i feel that he is being cold.. and i feel the coldness.. I dare not think too much.. And I dun like to keep on guessing and having any false hope... so I posted on fb.. Lock up my heart once again. I am tired. I might be too over protective over myself.. i just dun wish to get hurt again.. i rather give up.. and after that post that nite.. he sms me ask me if i know the meaning of cest la vie.. and told me its a song by fish leong ask me go listen it.. ok and i swear i listen it before i even have the MTV downloaded b4 and i listen and listen i still dun understands wad is he trying to tell me.. or he just wanna counsel me asking me dun feel so sad cos he might not know what acutally happens..so I msged him and ask him to explain cos i dun understands... but no reply.. and after 1 day .. I asked him again.. still there is not reply.. well I hate the feeling go guessing.. so I can only tell myself... I got to stop all these..he is not into me.. come on ger, let it go... Well he can choose not to reply me.. but i cannot force him to do anything.. so I can only force myself not to text him anymore.. if only human brain is same as a PC where u can restore its setting back to the day you wanted? ... I can only choose to give up and forget everything..
I have been emo since that day.. i hated myself being too emo.. cos my frns.. will be worried for me.. and i dun like dat.. they must always rem me being cheerful, crazy and crappy! My frns are the only precious gifts in my life.. so glad to have them... though kc very gayish at times.. haha but he still quite nice haha let me disturb him even though he is busy when sam actually told him i very emo.. haha Sam too thanks.. cos though i nv say much of wad happen he also realised that i am being emo.. thanks.. and zhen zhen.. after i told her how my feelings these few days she give me a very depressed looked.. even more upset den me.. when i asked her.. y look so sad.. i am ok ar.. her reply was..: I feel sad for u ...

Also to avoid any further misundetstanding i decided not to post anything much on fb..so that he wont know.. all these. and its only for me to vent all my frustration out... i hope he will nv find out. =) ALl the best to him.. and now i can only let time heals.. or rather washed off any bad or unwanted memmories.. and hopefully I will still be able to go one to find a right guy...

My Tarot Cards Reading

2009-07-03T01:57:00.000+08:00

刘力扬 - 寂寞光年

2009-06-21T22:19:00.001+08:00

刘力扬 - 寂寞光年

紫.ｓè制作 QQ：253057646

是谁从我天空摘走了星星
一转眼眉头聚满乌云
从来快乐悲伤都自己横行
忘了我也值得被关心

一双手一个梦
一路上不断的俯冲
痛到忘了要怎么喊痛

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想要拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹

是谁将阳光都剪成了雨滴
天灰了快乐总有限期
从来都陷在孤独的流沙里
忘了我也配被人在意
一个人一直走看着梦像做了又空
精疲力尽有没有哪里可以停泊

漫长的寂寞淹没我的难过
我的世界是零下的沙漠
其实我也想有拥抱的温柔
融化这颗坚强的泡沫

漫长的等候让人特别失落
锋锐寂寞把天空都割破
还有谁能够紧握着我的手
陪着我期待消失的彩虹
那是谁的温柔留在我的小手
微不足道却那么重

漫长的寂寞把意志都吞没
整个世界是沉默的漩涡
有谁能陪我手牵着手出走
带我离开空洞的星球

还有什么值得追求
还有什么可以拥有
把怀抱借给我是不是就不再颤抖
有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁
能让我相信被爱的理由

My Weekends~

2009-06-07T03:34:00.002+08:00

Friday:
Well went for a swim with FY at cck cresent, ate my lunch at ard 4pm and rushed home for my w705~@! Finally got my new phone~ Its quite cool with the Wifi feature~ Camera not bad too came with the light but without auto-focus this time. But more feature all in 1. Quite a good deal~ I am Glad~ Was supposed to meet zhen for movie(Blood: The last vampire)But all the good seats are taken up. Thus, we decided to go to KTV at taman jurong. Though we didn't really have craving for KTV but once we are there we are quite high haha and we did enjoy the KTV session~. Sing from 8.30 to 12.30 and after that we went to west coast park Mac for supper. Janice send us home~.

Sat:
Bro came to pick me up and head off to granny's place. Had our lunch there, watched variety show on the SCV, today not much ppl at granny house, and the weather as usual damn hot. Thus, I sms zhen to ask if she wanna go shopping with me at orchard. We went to far east to shop ard, didn't really buy much things just window shopping I guess. Well and as usual, got a msg from both Grace and Sam asking me to go clubbing.. But I think I really need to cut down on that cos I dun have much $$ and Its very tiring... Perhaps I am getting old. Conclusion: I turned them down and went home straight after shopping.

FinaLLY W705

2009-06-04T01:46:00.004+08:00

Fianlly,
I have purchased a new handset My Fav brand as usual, SE Walkman phone... this time W705 its my 3rd SE Phone(My previous 2 are walkman phones too but I lost both of them...) Well, I have waited long enugh for w705 to be launched in Singapore. But I only saw it with singtel, though I did saw some in the dealers shops. I was so lucky that I went to the starhub website and saw this promotion that was only for purchasing it online~ it was only $198 for the 2 yr plans that I am going to subscribe. Cos initally I only saw it with singtel, so thought I might need to change operator from starhub to singtel as my contract already ended. Well for singtel it was $298 weLl guess I saved at least a hundred bucks and remain in the same operator. Though alot of would have think that its a better choice to sign up for singtel. But i still prefer Starhub becos I am so used to it~ =) And usually starhub have this 3 months freebies such as FRee caller number display, international roaming & etc for new signups (as in new plan, new number) So, I dun really mind changing a new number, but to my surprise, the guy from starhub called me to contrim my purchase order had actually ask me if I wan to just recontract with my old number~ and offered to waived 12 months caller number display charge~ Thats awesome, isn't it? WeLL my w705 will be arriving this comming friday~ YEAH! CheerS~

No Women can Stands a Stingy Man~

2009-06-04T01:37:00.002+08:00

craPs~ My old lady talked to me awhile ago...

Was Complaining abt some stingy Man...

I hated it when tHey quaRRel at home.

sO quaRrelsome~ fULL of RUbbisH~ WeLL i GEt that $$ stress again from her.~

Expected nothing less from her. I also dO hope I can tell Her that I am accepting

the Job offered. but As the Basic is quite low.. and I really dunno If i can Do it

weLL? sO I better Dun give her any False hope.

zZZzz

2009-05-16T02:09:00.002+08:00

Haiz~ Hm.. 'J' hm.. another Guy frn... that I used to Love him alot~!

ATTACHED! Sadded! lol haha I was nv with him.. but.. I can say ...

他是我这辈子，唯一不可能被取代的人。。。

我们重来就只是有缘无份~ But I still wish him all the best! haha

haiz~ xianz... been in this Part-time marketing/sales for ard 1 week plus..

So Far so gd~ manager very Gd~ but.. i am still iN a Lookout for new Opportunities..

Though CPF board had offered me.. a position but.. i think i will Reject the offer

cos the pay doesn't meet my min expectation and i think it will be very stressful

working there... and alot of PAPER WORK! Anyway I will be going for 2 interviews

next WEek really Hope i cAn find something that is.. gd career Prospect.. and $$

sKipped my Work today`

2009-05-12T01:54:00.002+08:00

WeLl I went to CPF board for interview on MondaY mOrning, and decided to skip my part-time job today cos wasn't really feels like working today as i was having some flu... Thus, Sam asked me to go watch movie with him as he is very bored. I agreed, and we went to the new cinema to watch X-men[wolverine].

Well its quite a nice movie, gd story line and the romance part quite touching.
Initally thought it might be a boring movie as they acutally act the part on the wars... but eventually there are many twist and turn ard the story, make me kinda ponder... and well its COol.

And after movie, we went back to parco buggis, oh btw did i ever mention abt the new cinima filmgarde http://www.filmgarde.com.sg the sounds system i not powerful enugh~ lol So i wait for my cousin with the acc of sam.

After I meet up my stupid cousin, we went bugis village to Shop~ zzzz DAMAGE today .. $30 for 3 dress, $5 for a watch. $5 for a blouse. hm total spenditure is $40 for nite zzz weLL the FEELing to shOP IS GREAT! haha .

Ok thats all folks! gD nitez =) muAKz

Family Gathering At Brother's house

2009-05-03T02:45:00.002+08:00

Well eaten damn full today~ We have a family gathering sort of a Mother's day Celebration for my GRanny~ WELL FOOD FEAST! Bro cook Curry Chicken, prata, salad, grilled chickens, grilled salmon.. OMg So delicious..

Spend the whole day there, singing, eating and playing board games.. haha Kor house like, Kbox, Partyworld, cum Settlers Cafe. They got ard 5 to 6 board/card games.

Had a Fun day today~ and weLL think after Today I will be worst in my health condition, now I can already feel the pain and the soreness of my throat.. And the terrible cough....

Last Wednesday~

2009-05-01T14:40:00.002+08:00

Last Wed, was suppose to be a bday Celebration for both Mabel and YJ. XY and Dawnie never turn up. So, only Grace and I plus the 2 bday gers. We ate dinner at MOF.. the Food not really nice, yet expensive. But their desert is nice... After dinner, I asked Grace to club with me at DBl O.

When we reach there its ard 11 but still not much ppl at the dance floor. We took 2 free drinks and walk ard looking for seats. Finally, found a spot to stand. But was kinda bored cos there was only 2 of us. Then Grace suggest we find another place. While browsing ard looking for a nice spot, I saw GH and the vball players frm ex-SQS. Glad and surprise to meet them there.

Gh and I were quite close when we are in sec 1 & 2 .. but eventually we somehow nv contact much and finally lost contact. Think we haven't met for ard more den 2 years at least. The whole nite we chat quite long though its was quite of difficult to talk in DBL O with the loud music on. Den we play games.. drinks and dance. Nice.

You know somtimes its so nice to get into contact with ur long-lost friend. SO glad to see them there that nite. Keep into contact! Cheers for our friendship!

2009 1st Blog of the yeAr

2009-04-19T22:05:00.002+08:00

Well, after sO long, finally I start to blog again.
Hm... wELL I got retrenched 2 months ago.. rEsted well enOugh, and started my Job hunting again. HoPefully I can get a Job or rather Career. And perhaps a Degree after I got my new job. And Maybe a someone? Haha Though I know its kinda diff to find a SOmeone~! Lolx

ThOugh some of my frns do really help in introducing me to some guys to be friend with.. but none seems to catch my eye. The one that probably I like might be 'Him'
but difintely he wont know about my feeling for him. Cos I know I will nv ever tell him that, maybe alot of you will ask y? But becos I know him well enugh, he is that 1kind that is same as me. Not really into relationship, dun really like stuffs like marrige. I enjoy being frn with him. So for him I guess we will just be frns.

Hm... waiting for my new opportunities in 2009~! I hope i can have some changes in my life in 2009. Like get a job that eventually will lead me to some gd prospect and should pursue some degree and get a someone for me to feel that my heart is beating once again?haha

WeLL hopefully Everything goes well.

-Tiredness-

2008-08-22T01:46:00.002+08:00

-tIredness is the only thing I feel now.-
OverLoad Work ~
emPtyness is everywhere within me.
nO lOve, nO HurTs nO tears... only Jokes, lame jokes.. forEver..
wondering, pondering, thinking.. of nOthing...

is this wad I want? iS this wad I want? - i Dunno
frns ask- so how? any r/s chance? any guys? - my ans is .. there is no ans to this Qns.. dunno how to ans..dunno what To say dun even wanna think abit it..
-tOo busy- Tired-

2008-06-18T00:56:00.002+08:00

Well,

Hm... Its been a very long time..that i have eventually stop blogging..
Cos.. I was DAMN busy at work.. and even when i Off work.. i am.. like working..
Even beyond Office hrs.. and aFTer sO much hard-work finally everythin is kindof
settle dOwn and finally got confirmed.

Den I began to have personal time.. for myself.. to reflect on myself,
my life, my smiles, my tears, my heart, my voice, everything.. abt me..
sTill I dun have the Passion that I once had... I lost it.. still trying hard to find it back.. but i doubt so..

For R/s:
WeLl i am Afraid... I tend to avoid.. having any chance that would lead to a new blossom ... some frns, or rather colleagues, try to introduce guys to me.. but..
i tend to be kind of escape...Recently.. keep goin out wiht my sec frns..
weLL there's a guy.. he seems to be very nice and friendly.. still
I am.. back off.. we tok on msn.. and chated.. some stuffs.. and.. I guess my toughts abt r/s is really very negative..
which already might have turn him Off..or away from me ..

ME:
recently have been thinking.. How long would i continue to be like this?
Be single forever? I am ok with single 4eva.. but.. family are worried.. for me
but.. I can nv love again.. I dunnno how to trust and love the guy.. if there is one for me now.. perhaps.. I am just being so Me..

WEll Thats all for tOnightz...
:)

Because of You

2008-06-16T02:23:00.000+08:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

陈奕迅婚礼的祝福

2008-04-03T04:06:00.000+08:00

陈奕迅婚礼的祝福
词:许常德曲:陈建宁

时间一秒一秒一秒
倒数计时
往事一幕一幕一幕
突然静止
你挽着他
他挽着你
向我走过来
同桌的人蜂拥而上
将你我隔开
我干杯
你随意
这是个残酷的喜剧
我的人生早留在你那里
我却还要故作潇洒地
你和他
我和你
这是个讽刺的交集
是你太残忍
还是我太天真
你要我来
就真的出席
我的请贴是你的喜贴
你要的一切
如今都变成我的心碎
你总是太清醒
我始终喝不醉
连祝福你还逼我给
你的喜贴是我的请贴
你邀我举杯
我只能回敬我的崩溃
在场的都知道
你我曾那么好
如今整颗心都碎了
你还要我微笑
( music )

2008-02-06T02:11:00.000+08:00

Recently finish watching the 星光大道 heard this song very nice.. decided to learn int ...

cheng zaO。。。。

2008-02-06T02:07:00.000+08:00

vOmitted just now-

weLL tOO long nv drink?

Too mUch of Unhappiness?

drank too much??

duno.. well if Val nv jio me.. i might be goin back home after granny place...

weLL.. i went drinking .. again at Ktv pub... drink drink drink... drank abit Too fast tOday?

very seh... i try to hide.. to act normal... but i knew i can't stay as wake as I seem Too finally..

went to ladies to vomit...szzzzzzzzzz :(

bIrdday

2008-02-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

xan.. its Time again...

EveryYear Somthing Bad will happen on 16 feb... :(

wELL thiS Year... hm.. Maybe I should just forget abt it.. dun Even have to brOther

Last Yr had a very bad Bday :(

Met Richard today.. Twice somemore at bugis..

I am so glad to see him.. lolx Omg and I couldn't regonised him (my 青梅竹马)...

Its nice seeing him... so nice.. though i abit Too shocked..lolx and quite paisei to see him.. lol

没有心理准备。。。 weLl anyway he Agreed to meet me next weeK :) but scare dunno got

thing to say or not.. So long nv contact already...

:(

2008-01-17T01:02:00.000+08:00

I am so tired ... feel very restless.. and no mood no passion in anything..had a small disbute with mom ytd... went to V's coy today to interview.... den we went to pub.. drink.. now just home.. y am I crying?? I dunno.? i really dunno.. All I felt now is pain....tears just flow non-stop... Y?
Y can't I stop all test pain? i dun understand? y? Ho long can I cry? How long can I strive? I dunno ... I really dunno.. How long do I need to sTop ... How can i Forget wadever dat have happen? How Can I overfcome all the fears dat I have? I am in a cave myself Again.. where no ppl can enter.. y?
dun asK me.. i dunno.. i dunn want to know... I dun feel any warmth here.. sOMtimes just how i wash.. father is here.. whever I cry.. father is there.. to pacified me.. where is he now.. y father is not here :( Y?

2007-12-15T14:12:00.000+08:00

歌曲：想太多
歌手：李玖哲

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落
所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么
虽然你不说或许错在我
太晚我才懂爱了你太多
是我想太多你总这样说
但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

Xiang Tai Duo

2007-12-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

你怎么可以这么自私？

说来就来说走就走。。。

觉悟

2007-12-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

觉悟。。领悟。。
--------------------

wEll wEll well, finallY my $$ is realLy drying Up...
This one Week, Thought things Through...
tHe One that Takes Me for granted.. stIll Taking me for granted..
and .. finally.. Came to this.. thought.. he is not my cup of tea...
he wont be the one that I'll even try... nv will..
Instead.. the one Who is all the time with me.. acc me here and there..
I will treasure.. this frn of mine.. even went to NUH with me.. for scoping..
wELL.. SCOPING results: Nothing's wrong with my gastric~ :) YEAH~! TIME to Drink, DRANK DRUNK~ haha.. ITS PARTY TIME!@

Oh Ya sO wHole Week have been busy with my Flea Market.. Preparation~
tIll i very TIred.. :( lalala.. I wanna CLUB but i NO $$ hahaha zzz shIT..
Hopefully Next week caN will get a call from CREATIVE.. I wanna Work there..
Please Please PLEASE ... Shortlist me!!!!

Personality Test

2007-12-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

Temperament
Idealist
You are the quintessential dreamer - spending more time thinking about the possibilities that the world holds for you, rather than your reality. You don't settle for anything less than what you truly desire and you work very hard. You tend to live in every place except the present - you are prone to daydreaming about the future and re-thinking the choices you made in the past. Sometimes you get overly caught up in your thoughts.

Interests
Simple
You are continually pursuing a simpler and less complicated life - you don't allow yourself to fall victim to all of the "should do's" that society continually bombards you with. You are thoughtful about your life choices and think in terms of yourself, others and the world in which we live. You have a great sense that we are part of something much bigger and we must be good to others, if we want others and the world to be good to us.

Amusement
Thoughtful
You are easily stressed out and overwhelmed - you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Because you tend to be self reflective, you know your limits quite well and must remember to not exceed those limits. When you overwhelm your life with obligations and responsibilities, you tend to shut down and go into yourself even further. Take some time to find your serenity and kick back your feet.

Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.

tIreD

2007-11-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

-TiRed-

Sunday Night can't slp... Monday went to do the 1 Day temp Recept..

after Working on monday was feeling very tired.. still went to meet cousin...

when I reached home. try to surf the net for awhile.. and found myself..

dozing off infront of the com. tOtally Worn-out... REsted on the bed for a few mins..

and Force myself out of bed to bathe... very soon fell asleep...

Tuesday.. got alot of calls.. and sms frm... job agency/ job opportunity

& my poly classmates...felt alot of disturbance... but I was totally tOo tired to be border..

SLept till ard 12 plus.. noon ..managed to wake up... wactch 斗牛要不要 Ep 2 and 公主小妹

and went back to slp... all the way till 5pm den wake up. Prepare to wait for time.. and go

clementi meet the ladies.. to go to our Lecturer's wake.. very SAd... Micheal is a very nice and gd

lecturer. The ealier time when they mentioned that he was in hospital, I was thinking which

lecturer are they refering to.. totally.. can't rem his face... Ytd went to the wake ... saw his

picture there.. finally releasied its one of our favourite lecturer... Sadness filled up my heart

when we went to the front to pay see him ... The lecturer who is so friendly, helpful & cheerful

now lying in the coffin feeling cold.. and he look so skinny and differnt...:(

after the vieing... all of us... tried to hold our tears... all eyes red...For me.. I felt very very sad..

cos all the memories from poly.. suddenly keep flashing...den i realised.. becos.. of the

unhappiness of my ex... i tired to erase all memmories.. in poly... everything..

even my lecturer I can also forget how he look like... :( I am so sad..

Hope he may rest in peace and don't have to suffer from the pains of cancer...

Micheal I love u. GOd I pleaded U to bless Micheal.. He was a gd lecturer.

After the wake ... gege came to fetch me.. and together with gege, jiejie, munmun, & cheng,

we went to HV .. Breeko.. to chill and went home ltr...

As I woke up Late ytd.. so in the end.. I can't slp again.. I only slp alrd 6.40am this morning...

while.. was afraid of Friday... NUH.... :( nobody is free to accompany me.. go...

I cried

2007-11-24T05:30:00.000+08:00

WeLL I must have drank alot till i cIred... :(
I drank and drank feeling not enugh at all..
alot of unhappiness suddenly fills me up...
All i Could DO is cRied.. CrIed Cried..
Again,.. I Cried in the Ladies.. till Wendy came to look fOr me...
Sadness Filled my heart... all i can feel is saddness... only..
I cried... den wendy came.. to look for me.. I told her.. i dun understand y...
but I will nv forgive him... I wont ..I really hate him and her alot .. alot..
she told me wad cOmes Around goes ard... i hope.. they really get retribution... :(

2007-11-05T00:56:00.000+08:00

Well started my temp at XXX call centre.. last tuesday..

haha as i told kc, dawn.. and some frns.. that ..haha i dun like it..~
Give me $$ to get scoldings..zzz lolx customer just call and start
screaming and screaming... siAnz.. dun Like it.... whole Week been a very gd ger
slp early.. cos tired... and need to wake up early for work... Friday met up dawnie
at town.. for dinner and we chit chat.. for hrs..lolx well tOo long nv meet up..
alot of things to tok abt.. Tok abt.. that bastard... that 'guy' that I always tok abt
... and many other things...abt my eshop.. den haha i told dawnie kc also wanna open eshop
den told her last week we went clubing.. den dawn.. lol told me y dun consider abt kc.. again..
lol she Keep telling me.. Kc is a very gd guy..leh.. and she keep telling me..
Kc like treat u very nice.. and gd leh.. den every time.. go out with u club with
u and go ktv with u .. Den i told dawn.. ya.. sometimes.. I also TOT he like me.. lolx but
after .. so much things.. that happen.. i think wELL he just enjoying my company only..ba
lol same as the 'guy' lolx.. and i dun wanna think Too much.. actaully aLl guys frns treat me..
really nice.. but i think maybe cos.. To thEm.. I m Too roudy.. boish.. thats y.. they treat me.. like brothers or buddies... can just go out with me alone.. not really like 'interested' in me..lar
haha i think alot of guys frns are like dat ba.. lol anyway haha y I think I am a Born ACtor..
haha soMetimes when I am very Tired... my true feelings will just come out.. lolx cheng that friday nite said this: wah how come tonite u so nice.. will pass the cushion to me..
haha ya I am very nice.. just dat i dun like to treat guys tOo nice.. cos.. i dun wan to have so many bEes ard me.. lolx thats..y haha

失眠

2007-10-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

Totally nv slp..last nite.. Felt super Tired .. worn-out shagged~

Today's 1ST DAY at Samsung.. Tired.~! zzz very busy...

PAPA 生日快乐。我很想念你。

歌曲：不想懂得

2007-10-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

歌曲：不想懂得
歌手：张韶涵作词:姚若龙

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折
我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的

2007-10-26T11:17:00.000+08:00

weLL checked my email.. saw his invitation to join his frnster network...

Not sure is him... or is that bitch who did it.. most probably is that bitch...

purposely wanna me to go view her frnster? Y dO such childish thing?

She aLready Won me.. but sTill want to disturb me???

So instead of emailing him which I think she Got his password.. to his email or frnster

I sent him an sms online... :

00: not sure if u are the one who sent frnster invitation or if ur GF. but i can tell u.. i will nv forget & forgive u. We can nv be frns.
00: And Tell her.She aldy Win and have u. so ask her 2 leave me alone. Theres nt u2 can do 2 pay me bk so just be it. N leave me alone. Thanks.

My ESHOP

2007-10-26T03:03:00.000+08:00

- xaoa's [E]Shop -

Finally~... 1st Phase of my ESHOP is Out~ Yeah!

wEll hm.. have quite a number of positive comments

Thanks... PLEASE give me ur sUpporTs DEAR frns~

See anything nice..or interested... den BUY frm my ESHOP...

If nv see not keen also nvm.. u still can support me buy spreading it to frns ard u~\

xaoa's [E]Shop = http://xiaoai-eshop.blogspot.com

PS: However, frns who know my this blog please dun let other know abt my personal blog...

Cos i Wont be linking it to here.. yet frm here i will link to my ESHOP THANKS ALOT~!

2007-10-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

WeLL actually prepared a gift for him.. but

still after some consideration.. i decide not to give him...

Cos i did not get enugh gifts ...zZz didn't manage to get engh gifts.. though.

haiZ.. while I was in bangkok.. choosing Gifts.. all i had in mind was tO

chooSe and think abt wad to buy for him.. and end up forgoting that I need to get

gifts for Others tOo zzz...haiz.. Wad Am I DOing ??? omg..zzz hai ...

BreakDown

2007-10-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

tOtaLLy breakdown for 2 hrs..

va Sms me.. said she saw him.. in his co..

den she told me wad haPpen when they Met in the lift..

she say he look very paisei and stunned when they met in the lift

den she Ask him still with her.. den he nodded.. den va's colleague

Said: Thats wad called faithful...zZz

Va shoot her back: there's something u dunno..

Va look at him and speak: I dun have the time to Scold u only..hor..

zzzz haiz.. I hate him.. i really hate him.. I hate myself tOO

I dun understands.. y... he Can be so heartless to me..

throughout all these years dat we have been together?

Y Does things have to end it this way??

And Y he and that bitch.. can be.. TOgether.. And SO HAppy?

whIle.. I have to Suffered in the pain.. and misery that he causeD?

After so long... aLL I did .. was.. trying to escape.. away from.. everything...

I still lives as in normal.. but.. I know its all just becos.. I am very GD at..hiding and acting..

EVeryone tOT I am fine and ok.. already... but.. Still whenever ppl told news abt him or weva

I will breakdOwn... YYYYY!@@@

2007-10-16T16:35:00.001+08:00

[元] says:
firday nite go drink??
[元] says:
ailing aimai?
[忠] says:
i ok
[小爱] says:
哪里？
[元] says:
boat quay?
[忠] says:
那里!!

[小爱] says:
是去喝而已还是去跳舞？
[元] says:
go drink nia ba
[小爱] says:
this one must say early~
[小爱] says:
lolx~
[元] says:
if i dance.. i cant survive working the next day
[忠] says:
不想跳舞
[小爱] says:
ok
[小爱] says:
nice picture taken just now~
[小爱] says:
lolx
[小爱] says:
i slept through the whole journey~ｌａｌａ
[元] says:
u wana see us kiss ma?
[小爱] says:
ｅｈ
[小爱] says:
LOL
[小爱] says:
dun wan
[小爱] says:
dat one digusting lorz
[元] says:
hahaha
[忠] says:

[小爱] says:
diaoz
[小爱] says:
y put ur snail out?
[小爱] says:
eh wad u guys doing?
[小爱] says:
lol
[小爱] says:
eh play online mj leh
[小爱] says:

[元] says:
just pao mai pian
[元] says:
hungry
[元] says:
online mj?
[小爱] says:
yaya
[小爱] says:
lol
[小爱] says:

[元] says:
from where?
[小爱] says:
eh
[小爱] says:
yahoo ?
[小爱] says:
lolx
[忠] says:
brb
[小爱] says:
go wherE?
[小爱] says:
lolx
[元] says:
忠 go 便便
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
so must wait a while
[爱] says:
ixix
[爱] says:

[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
[元][爱][忠]
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
...
[元] says:
LOL
[爱] says:
got meaning leh
[爱] says:
u love him
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
because of u i love him?
[元] says:
hjahhaa
[爱] says:
diaoz
[爱] says:
nope
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
did i scared u just now
[元] says:
for being too high?
[爱] says:
not really lar..
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
ok lor
[爱] says:
gd mar me him and lt very down today
[爱] says:
u high Gd mar bring up or mood
[元] says:
wah la..
[爱] says:
our mood
[元] says:
yah la..
[元] says:
must smile
[元] says:
smile more
[元] says:
but glad u guys look okie just now
[元] says:
thot u gonna look black face
[元] says:
and loon thai's forever sianz look
[爱] says:
smile and luff doesn't mean happy u know
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
just now got lor during lunch
[元] says:
i know
[爱] says:
lolx
[元] says:
haiz..
[元] says:
lonely lunch for me..
[元] says:
qi muo de eat my pork chop
[爱] says:
face black black den we 3 all feeling down..
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
nv tok much
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
den i suan jz mar..
[爱] says:
say he complain i tok to much and luff too much
[爱] says:
so i today tone down lorz
[爱] says:
lolx
[爱] says:
den he say very 不自在
[元] says:
hahaha
[爱] says:
den say his testimonial is joke only dun hold it in heart~
[爱] says:
lolx
[元] says:
but to some extend true ma
[元] says:
:x
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
say i tOo noisy huh?
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
and crazy ar..
[爱] says:
lolx
[爱] says:
gd mar..
[元] says:
u laff too much..
[元] says:
lol
[元] says:
cannot control
[爱] says:
at least entertain u all mar..
[爱] says:
not cannot control..
[元] says:
so 伟大
[爱] says:
if i tell u i luff to make u all luff and feel happy when i actually have no Feeling at all u believe?
[元] says:
辛苦你了
[元] says:
don't quite believe
[爱] says:
lolx dun copy lt la.
[元] says:
cause u laff until....
[元] says:
so.....
[元] says:
激动
[爱] says:
hai hao lar..
[爱] says:
i already lost my feelings..
[爱] says:
2 months ago
[爱] says:
lolx
[爱] says:
now i luff is for the sake of other ppl
[元] says:
biangz.. so jialat meh.
[爱] says:
i can no longer feeLs
[爱] says:
ya
[元] says:
okie okie.. we will 努力 to un-numb u
[爱] says:
but i will feel better if i can make my frns.. around me happy ma
[忠] says:
got say my bad things bo?
[元] says:
gonna try use fork poke u
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
bo
[爱] says:
bo
[爱] says:
only compain u say u bully me
[爱] says:

[爱] says:
brb i go take milk to drink~
[爱] says:
lala
[爱] says:
dun tok behind my back horZ
[忠] says:
lol
[元] says:
nothing much to talk behind ur back also
[爱] says:
back
[爱] says:
hee
[元] says:
so fast....
[爱] says:
yummy yummy
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
nice nice
[元] says:
i haven;t even start typing..
[爱] says:
i take to my room to drink mar..
[爱] says:
lala
[爱] says:
i love milk~
[爱] says:

[爱] says:
ahhh... nice~ lala
[元] says:
i love seeing ppl drink milk
[爱] says:
diaoz..
[元] says:
with the white stuff around the lips
[爱] says:
abit bian ai leh
[爱] says:
bian tai~
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
isit??
[元] says:
zhong like??
[爱] says:
he MIA again~
[忠] says:
mia?
[忠] says:
i like milk.....
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
i drinking HL milk
[爱] says:
u want?
[元] says:
eee....
[元] says:
dun like HL
[忠] says:
hl not bad
[元] says:
prefer marigold
[爱] says:
lol i like daisy hi-lo also
[爱] says:
lala
[爱] says:
irene got weak bones.. need to drink more milk~
[忠] says:
oooo
[爱] says:
ya~
[爱] says:
lolx tell u all a JOkE~
[爱] says:
let u all luFF
[爱] says:
I got a tOoth in front..hor.. the 1/2 of the tooth is .. fake de.. is filling like dat~ got chipped oFF
[忠] says:
i can see...
[元] says:
not farnie.. sounds painful though
[忠] says:
yah... dun think its funny
[爱] says:
no mar..
[爱] says:
GOt story behind it one..
[元] says:
*waiting*
[爱] says:
cOs i went to Mcdonal...
[爱] says:
and knock on the glASs Door.. and broke my Tooth~
[爱] says:
erm.. when i was let me i Think is after sec 4 i
[元] says:
and may i ask how old are u?
[爱] says:
waiting to go poly

[小太保] has been added to the conversation.

[元] says:
friday go drinking
[爱] says:
lol
[元] says:
friday go drinking!!
[忠] says:
LIM AH!!!!

[爱] says:
but its a painful plus PAISEI experience~
[爱] says:
xian.. den since then.. i go 1/2 faKE TOOTH
[爱] says:
!
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:
den the color drop liao.. should go dentist changed~
[爱] says:
lala
[元] says:
hahaa
[爱] says:
xiaotaibao so quiet
[忠] says:
i scared dentist
[元] says:
保保乖
[爱] says:
used to scare tOO..
[爱] says:
after the mcdonal incident not scare liao
[爱] says:
lol
[爱] says:

[元] says:
haha
[爱] says:
den take x-ray dentist say 1 tooth got 3 nervs
[爱] says:
1 broken
[爱] says:
he say if another or 2 more broken...
[小太保] says:
u say wanna c me on9 onli, not to chat.. so keep
[爱] says:
must take out the whole tooth den do crowning~
[爱] says:

You have just sent a nudge.

[元] says:
ps
[元] says:
abit bz

[忠] just sent you a nudge.

[小太保] writes:
[元] says:
brother... i always like ur drawing..
[元] says:
can draw me?
[忠] says:
got time draw the 4 of us ba
[小太保] says:
ur special face to hard
[小太保] says:
*too
[忠] says:
whos face special?
[小太保] says:
both
[元] says:
lol
[元] says:
just draw mt eyes big big can le
[元] says:
with messy hair
[元] says:
my*
[忠] says:
draw me small small eyes side parting can le
[元] says:
drwa irene one eye big one eye small with messy side parting.
[小太保] says:
me act act can la.. really draw cannot make it
[元] says:
u zai one lo
[元] says:
irene kunz liaoz?
[忠] says:
think she said brb
[小太保] says:
i wanna sleep de
[忠] says:
good nite bro
[小太保] says:

[元] says:
nitez~

[小太保] has left the conversation.

[忠] says:
think that ai ling.... ko liaoz
[元] says:
ya
[元] says:
lets go ba
[元] says:
nitez ailing!!
[元] says:
nitez bro
[元] says:
i go off too
[忠] says:
byebye ailingz and brother cy
[忠] says:
good nite

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WeLL.. months aGo.. noW everythiNg.. have changed

SO sad..

zZzzZ

2007-10-16T04:07:00.000+08:00

wELL... Again...

tiLl this time AM sTIll Online

rencenTly.. have BeEn... haiz dunno wadever..

can't slp.. Stress abt $$... job.. zzz wELl and ...

HauNted by the ForBbiden Memmories that Were Left bEhind..

I nEed some FResh Air.. outside frm SG...

weLL lets Hope Everything will be fine when i CaMe bacK frm BK...

[小爱]：没有期望就不会有失望，没有失望就不会有绝望，所以只选择能遗忘。。。

2007-10-16T01:52:00.000+08:00

莎士比亚说：“人们可支配自己的命运，若我们受制余人，那错不在命运，而在我们。”

Shakespears said : To be or not to be, - That is a question

Well Recently.. Watching.. 终极一家 and 终极一班 the actors inside..

This Male lead(王亚瑟) he likes to say some Golden Qutoes of ShakesPears..

Which I think some quite nice and true~ ::) So .. went TO do some online

Resarch on shakesPears.. and Found some that i Really like..

莎士比亚名言

· 真实爱情的途径并不平坦。

· 学问必须合乎自己的兴趣，方才可以得益。

· 对自己不信任，还会信任什么真理。

· 对自己忠实，才不会对别人欺诈。

· 你若对自己诚实,日积月累,就无法对别人不忠了。

· 老老实实最能打动人心。

· 如果要别人诚信，首先要自己诚信。

· 善良的心地,就是黄金。

· 天啊，男人不变心，他就是十全十美了

· 春光不自留，莫怪东风恶。

· 装傻得好也是要靠才情的；他必须窥伺被他所取笑的人们的心情，了解他们的身份，还得看准了时机；然后像窥伺阗眼前每一只鸟雀的野鹰一样，每个机会都不放松。这是一种和聪明人的艺术一样艰难的工作。(This one.. wELL ya.. Very true~ )

2007-10-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

wEll SuPpose tO meet some1...

but.. Dunno Do wad.. so in the end.. I just went to slp..z

now wAKe uP le.. weLl guEssed he is busy wIth some vEggie or some Stuffs

deCide not to disturb Him... zzz wOke up.. ard 8pm...

FeEling very bOred... plus Depressed... and Gastric...

haben Eat Dinner.. think I lost my Appetite...

haiz.. feeLs.. like going Out for a Drink.. yet..

no $$.. Iam very Broke now.. haiz..I need a job..

how to survive? I need to Find a temp job ASAP ..

haiz.. miserable.. life.. no life.......

feELs like going to fullerton there.. tO sit down and look at the river..

miss My dad..

2007-10-12T19:14:00.000+08:00

ytd Went to lot1 Kbox with my cousin...

2 pax sing for 6hrszzz

Am sO Tired..

This morning.. keNa woke up by her SMS

den went tO jp Meet her for lunch... and back hm...

Sam.. came back.. to sg.. was complaining to him abt the bangkok trip thing..z

dun like to everything last min unpLanNed..

den he ask Me if I am going to wX bd Chalet.. I told him ..he nv invite me..

gueSs cos he invites his best buddy and that bitch... dats y nv ask me..

After dat, I became EMO.. again~ haiz.. tOtally feeling quite depressed...

sO dOwn... so Sad.. 心理不平衡 but.. think its quite nOrmal..ba..

2007-10-10T22:31:00.000+08:00

bOred~ bored~

aM sO boRed~

zzzz

nEed a jOb Soon..

next weeK will be Off to BangKOk~

2007-10-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

- Sunday -
went tO dOwnTown east with WG frn, mr H & his campmate.. yB Plus my dear Wendy...

basically is to Play MJ...

WeLL nv SAW b4 13 yao~ omg!!!! wendy Win 13 yAO!

dEn we Also Drank... some alcohol..

All quite seh except me.. totally no kick..

wenwen say i Power cos.. i nv slp.. still drink.. and i still can 'DOng' so long..

MOnday Morning.. Wenwen told me somthing .. She say ..mr H's frn yB is a Pervert ask me be careful of him.. was puzzled..

She Told me ltr.. that When we were slping.. he touched her Feet...zzz

to be continued...

2007-09-29T10:59:00.000+08:00

- tIreD -

TOtaLLy wOrn Out..

monDay
-------

Went TO see Doc...

DiaRrhoea, sorethoat.. meet gege Go makan..

GO chervons Ktv...

Tuesday
-------

中秋节 - Feeling very down...

Went To Lot1 Pass tix to a WG member

Sms Cy ask him free anot ...

He called up and reply maybe not free...

Sianz.. sad.. down... GO back hm... Watch Drama

Evening Time abt to Go buy dinner... called up cousin..

Cousin.. meet me at lot1 for dinner~

Chitchat... makan.. den go back home..

Wednessday
----------
Whole day Rot at hm... Watch Drama... slp.. rest

can't slp... tIred Shag..

Thursday
--------

wOke uP ard 7.30am

Raining wait for instructor to fetch me..

after driving .. I went Lot1 Mac.. to eat big breakfast

rot abit... went back hom.. watch drama... chat in Wf forum..

Prepare ..went to granny house for dinner

met up wendy and TBP den take train to Clark Quay go Central Walk walk

den Went TO MOs...

Club till 4plus am... den left..

Harris'frn sent me back...

went back to granny's huse..

SLpzzz

Friday
------

WokE up ard 12 plus... den Wash up.. ate Porridge..

den nua... and watch drama.. acc granny.. till evening.. 6pm.. meet up gege for dinner..

den cheverons again Ktv..

after dat... went to Holland V..Breeko.. chillz

Story: Triangle Love

2007-09-27T13:00:00.000+08:00

Story: Triangle Love

Author: Irene Ng

BGR is very troublesome one.. ~
BetTter Dun ToUch~
haiz.. Last nite just went to a Confrontation Dinner..
triangle love...
haiz.. wanna know the story?
Its so Complicated.. It aLl started with ME.. and the nite AT MOS dustySHow Down..
mAin lead:

2 Male Ex-colleague of my ('C' & 'J')(Main Male Lead)
1 Gf of my ('WW')(Main Female Lead)
1 Extra (ME) Outside of the Triangle. (Narator,Listener, Observer, counsulor)

2 guys 1 ger

haha See u ppl interested in the story or not.. if interested den i continue..

-PART 1-

C and J are my ex-colleague in my preivous co. Well I’m quite close to them.
Both are very nice guys.
So there is this day. I asked theM to go for the MOS event(16AUG2007)
I asked this gf of my name WW to go too. That time she still attached,
but very unstable with her bf, its on breaking terms.
Ok so that’s the 1st time they saw her.
That nite I was very busy running ard to entertain frns,
cos I asked a lot of frns down.
Thus. I asked them to take care of her since she is alone.
So that nite.. She Told me.. hey J is really Cute..
Ok 1st part of story ENds..here

-Part 2-

Well there is this FIRDAY where the 4 of us went to KTV at AMK till very late.
Then the following day(SAT)WW is very bored nT do to. So sms all of us ask if wanna Meet up or not.

For J he went out with his frn and was saying that at nite his gf goin his house to stay..

For C he went out to Queensway to buy CAr... pay Installement

For WW I ask her.. to come cck lol find me.. and rOt at my huse 1st den evening go meet C and J for dinner...
Ok up tO this PArt.. the FRiday and SAT event is... WW jio wan....
lets Contiue... So.. WW came... and C said he comming my huse too...
So we all rot and slack at my huse,... den by right is going out in the evening for movie.. but It rained heavily.. and i dun really wanna go out..
So I suggest i OPEN my Jack DAniel and play poker and drink...

haiz.. IT ALL STARTeD FROM The DrInKING SESSion at my hus...

tO be Continue ....

-Part 3-

So afTer Dat nite ... I think The 2 Guys like her.. zZZ

So for J side wad i understands is... Ok he and his gf is just draggin.. is the girl dun let go...
FOr C side i nv ask him anything... cos preivously he like me.. so i didn't noe he like WW too...
For WW all the way she told me is she like J.
den I didn't know alot of things.. cos i dun wanna get involved.. When i am came abt to know that 2 guys like WW... So i just invisible mode to them...

So finally there is this day...

C told me... He will wOO WW no matter wad.. even if his Gd buddy likes her TOo... but nothin will change btw the 2 guys.. its so-called a FAir treatment.
J told me... Like WW also can't do Anything cos.. he still attached...
WW told me.. like J... but J doesn't Seems to like.. her.. and C is very nice to her...

to be continue...

-Part 4-

So.. 1 Fine DAy...
which is.. Last FRiday I think...
I heard abt WW and C together...

And That same Last WEek On wed.. J broke off with his gf...
So J status = Single
So J actually also Wooing WW but.. Cos Its not Very Obivous.. SO
in The End.. WW chooses C..

DEn.. on tHat Friday nite.. I recieve a SMS frm.. J
J SMS: EVerything Have A Conclusion le... hApying ending.. She Chooses Him...
My SMS: U ok or not? SAd? dun think so Much lor..
J SMS: No lar.. the most sad awhile only will be ok de. 有种被耍的感觉 .

Den.. Sunday Nite... C called me.. Sounds very serious... and Pissed...
I was very stunned.. cOs.. he ask me.
C: U know me and WW stead le right?
Me: ya .. y?
C: No MOre Liao.....
Me: how come?? i TOt u all just Started on FRiday???

C: DunnO Wth Is WW thinking... actually... friday is the 2nd time WE Stead .. agian.. meaing.. Previously... already Stead... once... and broke.. off .... u Know Wad... AFter that day (refering to Drinking session at my huse) The next day which is a Sunday.. I go to meet WW.. Monday Meet her... tuesday meet her.. also.. den.. wed... DEn Stead...
Den Suddenly.. one day she just say eh... lets just be FRENs...
den ok nvm... since.. she say wanna be frns.. Consider break le lar.. den the next day after brk up.. we meet again i need to get back my MP3 frm her.. den ask her.. to go eat.. deN.. Cos.. break le mar.. so nv really sound as nice as b4 den she suddenly cry again... zzz
den... on friday.. which is last friday.. i met her.. again.. den she hold my hands say '舍不得' .. den in the end we together again.. Den today..
She bo chap me.. whole day.. sms her nv reply.. ask her with who she also nv reply den i ask J did he meet her.. he say got...Den At nite just now she called me..she Keep Quiet.. den.. I just ask lor... ya wad u wanna say ? lets be frn again/??

So.. I was Totally Stunned after hearing all these
Cos.. on friday during office hr.. I was chating with WW and also tok abt...
if 1 day she go stead with any of the guy must tell me..
but she did not.. I tot Friday den she started with C... yet.. I was like .. keep in the dark...

thins Got even mOre ComplicateD...

SO C Felt a sense of betray cos.. Since J already know dat C and WW together.. Y still Meet her..

To be Continued...

-Part Five-

So I met C on monday(which is last monday) for dinner...
THen.. tok abt it.. .. like dat.. so This Is wad We toT.. like the WW is
inDecisive... SO cause the 2 guys tO like Dat.. and hurt C...
sO C put his msn nick: Kena Played by love.. kena betray by brO..
So he nv really tok to J wHen both at work...z So WW saw leh very upsEt
DEn.. She came to Chat with me.. saying she very sad... told me.. that
WW: I am not wad u all think I am... Its not wad u all think as it is...
ME: huh?? wad is the way that we think??
WW: that I am the BAD guy lor...
ME: den???
WW: there is somthing that u all dunno and I can't SAy...
WW: I can't SAy I need TO keep My Promise.. to protect the person..
that I want to protect...
ME: isit? ... den?
WW: but i really Wanna Say Out.. but.. i Can't...
ME: if u wan den say lor i listen lor..
WW: can I called u now???
ME: nOpe i working.. and my hp flat.. my hP Off ModeZ...
WW: oRh....
den .. she wan to say dun wan to say like.. dat me.. SO sO frustrated..
den KeEP saying..
WW: ya I am the Bad guy... If i Leave..
everything will be Settle...
I am.. like : zzZZzz DOtdotDOt... she Aggitated me.. until I gastrIc..pain that DAy...
den I nv Reply her.. MSN. cos in pain.. den I SMS C...
My sms: C can u Kill me??
C sms: Wad happen?
My sms: dUnno Wad WW wants... she say she is very upset.. den
say Got thing wanna tell me.. a monent she wanna say .. another monment she dun wan to say.. make me.. den Say wad wanna Disappear
zzz I am very Affected... until I in Serious GAstric pain lor

den I think after dat... C called up WW asked her.. dun aggitate me... Cos I not feeling well...

deN dat EVening After work C worried abt me..so Came to meet me for dinner.. after work... den J told him he and WW meeting ... when C told him his with me.. ...

Den I told C.. dat Since.. WW is With J and I am with u right nOw.. lets Go meet thEM... den SIt down and have A confrontation.. la.. SEE wHo say one is the right story lor.. since.. both J and WW are saying Different thing...

(eg: C asked J : u asked WW out or she asked u?
J : WW.
C asked WW : u asked J out or he asked u?
WW: J.
)

tO be Continued~....

-Part SIx-

[10-09-2007]
Before sit down, C finally see J at work.
C asked J between things of J and WW. J said he will do nothing currently.
Since he just broke off. doesnt wana get into another so fast.
J explained that he will afraid he cant reject WW if he meet her.
C said that he will just get outta the whole picture since shes so indecisive.
Carry this thing on will just hurt brotherhood between C and J.

This is Wad C told me.. lar.. before the CONFROnTATION dinner.
Ya It’s a Monday.. Cos After wad I have heart that Sunday nite.
Though I know I should just dun be bortherd, but seeing C so sad,
I can’t bear to scold him also(cOs I did Warn him b4). All I could do is
Be his gd listener try to cheer him up, so I asked him out for dinner on
Monday. But initially C doesn’t wanna meet cos he feels very sad, dunno
Wad to say we meet up. So to try not to make him feels so bad, I got to act as if I very poor thing no ppl acc me eat dinner. Ya that’s wad I told him when he said he dun wan to see anyone. Still on Monday he sms me said wanna meet me for dinner.

So on monday, he told me wad happen to them excatly.. and the bottom part is a summry.

after drinking that week

mon - with her till wednesday
tues
wed
thurs - lets just be friends she said
fri - bring her go see doc some how she hold my hand again
sat - with her whole day
sun - hard to contact ended up she met j at nite.

mon - she meet with j
tues - meet her she cry and stuff. need time. gave her time.
wed - she meet j, at nite j broke off
thurs - met her go ex house take stuff. she said take things slow.
fri - she said together.
sat - sat nite she meet j.
sun - she said lets just be friends again.

to be continued..

CONFRONTATION NITE[11-09-2007]

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
-Part Seven-

CONFRONTATION NITE[11-09-2007]

bad light is on WW since it seems like shes playing C around.

Once the 4 of us met up... WW dragged me to the ladies.. den started tok to me for 30mins...

So she is telling me that.. she is not wad we think she is...

She Told me.. that actaully all along.. J like very on and off thats y...

she is stuck in bwt the 2 guys.. She also told me.. after that Sunday breakup with C... she and J started steading ...Zzz

dEn she Showed me the SMS... that J asked her not to tell us... zzz

After dat We went out of the ladies.. den order food.. to eat... As all of them already eaten.. only left me.. eating.. sO i suggest the 3 of them start to tok... while i eat and listen ...

C asked WW why like that play him. friday thought she said she gave him so much assurance
that she will be with him. WW even asked C not to leave her because of J.
Now WW because of J leave C.

WW speechless.

I asked J whether he got anything to say. He said nope.

C used a kinder tone and explained: ' Now situation is clear. You both carry on. Whereas i
will just get outta the picture. And no one shall bother irene again regarding 3 of us.'

WW: ' no no, there are things that are not clear'

C: 'whats there to be clearer about. Ur deicision is made.'

Me to J : 'U got anything to say?'

J:'Nope'

WW seems to have something to say to C, therefore asked Me to ask.

C suggest to go buy drink together with J
J went toilet.

WW told C that she and J are together since sunday. and that J said that he will settle
everything. Seems like J did not informed anyone at all.

C to WW: 'Why tell me this now.. when i wanna get outta the picture already. Just let me
be ignorant of what J do to me. How am i gonna face him now!'

WW: ' Now u see that whole picture. I'm not as bad as u see. He promised that he will settle
everything. At least i felt better now. '

to be continued....

-Part Eight-

C cannot take it and just leave.

C's feeling: He have been telling both WW and J in the first place.
If they wana be together. Just let him know
He will just leave the whole thing. And wish both of em the best.
They just hide everything from him... C have told WW that J have broke up.
But WW still choose him after. So he told everything is cleared but just to get more screwed up after.

So WW called J to find me ans J...

WW came alone.. I was like... where's C?

WW: He left.. He said he cannot take it anymore..den his eyes red red and left..

ME: OMG~ hE left w/o me... zzz

As my hp is totally flat i Can't even called him to check where he is..
But feeling quite Worried abt him... ask WW to call him.. he ans the call

Me: Eh where are u??? y leave me alone hEre..

C: I cannot take it anymore.. so leave lor.. SoRRY..

Me: den me how?? zzz..

C: u GO home 1st lor..

Me: Where u At? I go find u... At least come Here find me mar..

C: DEn wad u Expect me tO do?? Cry in front oF them??

C started yelling at me...zzz(Not My fault.. yet.. zzz)

In the end I took cAb home...

Den Once i reached home.. charge my hp.. msg him ask him to called me ASAP dun let me worry...

Fianlly wait till ard 1 hr he MSN online.. so he asked me for my Comments..

I asked him to Call me... den WW called him.. and tok and tok .. while I am WAiting.. for hiMzzzz den he msg me say she dun want to hang up just .. keep toking and toking..zzz Again I waited and waited.. Till I pek Chey den msn him.. dO u know how long I waited for u since jusT now u left ??? its like 3 hrs le lor.. and u expect me to wait somemore??

If u all still wanna continue to tok den u tok to her..lar.. i Go sLPz lez...
den Finally he hang up with her and called.. me...
All I can do is try to cheer him up...

-Part Nine-

Next morning..zz
WW called C that she wanted to see him.
C meet WW for work. C asked wW why still meet him.
WW told C that she have broke off with J.
C said so??
WW said just to let u know.
WW asked C out for dinner.
C didnt said anything.
WW said set. Meet for dinner.

At work.
C asked J: 'Why like that'
C have been doing all the asking whereas J keeps quiet.
'If in the first place you just tell me then things will be clear already.'
J quiet.

10 plus am.. C called me.. was trying to cheer him up..
Yet.. he told me.. WW wanted to meet him for dinner ...
I was Pissed Immediately.. already not feeling very happy when he mention morning she meet him b4 go to Work..Thus, I was Totally Turn OFF. Den I told him: Isit. anything ur wish I dun care anymore.. well I got to go busy with my work le..ok.Bye!.

Mine thinking: Firstly U ppl get me involved when i Didn't know at aLL...
Den I also dun really wanna get involved.. till I see A MESS u guys are in.. den i Try to Step in to help u ppl Solve the problem.. I tot After that controntation nite.. EVerything Will be setTLE.. but Its Seems.. I am wRONg.. I try TO get C out of that Shit.. When He himself Try to stEP inside again... I dun WAN to SEe WW get stuck in bwt the 2 Guys.. Cos I already can Foresees wad will happen if.. C meet WW again .. WW will again.. BecOme.. like wanna Go back to C den If J continues treat her nice again.. She will GO back tO J.. That is wad i Dun WAnna SEE YET... C ... haiz.. SO in the end i Give uP~ .

12 plus C sms WW not to meet as it will complicate things further.
WW said that just a dinner. Asked C not to think too much.
Ww promised she wont be saying anything.

Afternoon at work.SMS from J to C
'All i have to say is i have no guts to tell u i like WW. I just cant say it out to u.
Cause im afraid that it would jeopardize out frdship. I know the damage had been made
but i dun feel good either.'

C replied J
'Thought i have explained everything in the first place. That we both liked her.
And that anything just tell me. Why keep me in the dark?'

No reply from J afterwards.

SMS frm J to Me:

I aM sorry Abt.. WAd had haPpen.. I chose not to Say Cos.. I'm aFraid of hurting ppl ard me.. Yet.. i did hurt.. and the most Dat I hurt was not protecting Candi... I am SoRry if Loving Candi was wrOng I will Still Continued to love her..

Immediately After i Saw the msg.. ard 2 plus I sms the 3 of them..

I think the biggest mistake is me. U 3 have no wrong. My biggest mistake is to get involved and end up to this. i shall make no more comments. I thot everythin will be settle last nite. But on hearing something again, i decided to give up on de 3 of u. I try to protect everyone and its seems like i am de Fool.

3plus WW smsed C
'Argh. Feeling so terrible now you know? i know i hurt u. Seeing u hurt now makes
me feel more upset. i have down what i think i should done. Really hope u r fine.'

C seeing all other 3 is so upset over the whole thing. Decided to end this once and for all.

C told J she will not meet WW for the time being after that nite dinner.
And that they are still friends even though all this..

C meet WW.
C told WW that he will not meet her or contact her for the time being.
If after this whole time she is single. Then C will woo WW again.
WW started to cry.
C sent sms to other 3.
' I shall start off first by saying everyone's at fault. So stop blaming or pointing whose
fault is it. After tonite no one shall mention bout this again. I'm really fragile.
I really dun bear to see anyone get sad over this whole thing anymore. It hurts me more
than anything seeing u 3 sad. I realli love u all. Reply that u all love me too and tmr
we shall be good friends again.'

C asked WW to be his gf for the nite until he send her home.
WW cried. Saying she dun wan just for the nite.

C promised WW that he wont be attached for 1 month as everyone needs time to rearrange their
feelings.
WW promised C too that she wont be attached for this 1 month.

to be continued...
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

-Last Part-

This part onwards all frm C. Cos I already dun care abt wad happen.. lolx this is a summarised version.. Last part~ zzz

Friday.
C asked J how are things between he and WW.
J said that they seemed be together again.
C stunned upon hearing.. ' Seems?? How come cannot confirm?'
J said they hold hands on thursday nite and she stayed over at his place.
C told J of the 1 month promise with Ww.
C asked J to confirm with her whether they are together on the nite.

J called C on the nite. Saying that when he asked WW whether they are together.
WW answered J saying that were they ever seperated.
C and J stunned..
C told J that he will not contact WW ever again after confirming with her.

Saturday

C asked WW how are things with her and J
WW said she chose J
C wondering will WW keep quiet until he asked her?
WW asked C still good friends?
C replied things have developed that C and WW can even be friends anymore. Bye.

-END OF STORY-

2007-09-04T10:03:00.000+08:00

任性-孙燕姿

喜欢听歌感人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的
睡不着我就醒着
喜欢唱歌动人的歌
它让我获得一点心得
得不到我就放掉
不再让日子被打乱了
寂寞很吵我很安静
情绪很多我很镇静
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒
固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错
承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动
当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要从混乱解脱
不去碰触到我的需要
喜欢听歌动人的歌

2007-09-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

- very bad mood -

wELl i dunNo y.. this whole week since Monday ..

i have been Very Bad mood ... it Doesn't get any better

haiz.. Frns.. fly my Planes... FRns.. take me for granted..

After wad i have done.. FOr all my frns..

All i Felt was just being taken for granted...Suddenly felt so sad...

how I wish there is NO one.. in this world just Me and MysELf only..

aLone.. I wanna be Alone.. :( haiz... very Down..reaLyl very down :(

全世界没有人了解我。。。明白我。。

whO can uNderstands hOw I am Feeling?? Who careS?? As If..

i am just Transparent... FRns.. in troubLe i tried to help..

frns sad.. i try my best to lend my listening ear...

try my best to cheer them up..BUT.. Who.. knows.. how i am Feeling..

If they understands me... they wont Even mention that I seems happy nowadays..

and busy ... so many things..

我心中的痛，我经历的一切，并没有你们想的这么简单。。。

我只是想让时间冲淡一切的一切。。。

2007-08-29T01:50:00.001+08:00

Nini... Wo hao xiang hao xiang da ku yi chang...

wo zhi xiang zai ku yi xia xia... zhen de...

2007-08-28T00:16:00.000+08:00

当一个人一次又一次的承受失望和打击时。。

渐渐的他的生命在也不会对任何人或物报有任何希望。。。

2007-08-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

心事谁人知(原唱沈文程)

2007-08-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

心事谁人知(原唱沈文程)

心事若无讲出来
有谁人会知
有时阵想要诉出
满腹的悲哀
踏入七逃界
是阮不应该
如今想反悔
谁人肯谅解
心爱你若有了解
请你着忍耐
男性不是无目屎
只是不敢流出来
心事若无讲出来
有谁人会知
有时阵想要诉出
满腹的悲哀
踏入七逃界
是阮不应该
如今想反悔
谁人肯谅解
心爱你若有了解
请你着忍耐
男性不是无目屎
只是不敢流出来

http://www.9ymp3.com/song/41821.htm

2007-08-27T10:37:00.000+08:00

-sICK-

fIanLly ... I strain my Body Till I fell sick again..

Recently have been Busy .. day time with Work... nite time..

Busy with frns.. buddies, gege, frns, frns from WG..

Getting Tix.. for frns... Going CLub...

Recently like keep raingin... Friday WEnt to bai bai,

Bai ah gong, Bai, Bei Gong, Bai tai ma Tai gong, Bai papa...

when Saw's papa pic... my eyes become teary ... sO long nv sEe him..

I really miss him... nv tot .. that the Last time i saw him.. was so long ago..

and He just left... and nv come back again... I miss him.. so much...

that day.. rained... most of us were drenched.. i knew i sure fall sick de.. haiz..

den we went to makan... at jurong aRea den back to ah ma huse.. went to watch 881~

the Movie quiTe nice... very Funny... but there's a part... quite touching..

And i Qctually Drop tears 2 times... After dat they went for dinner and went off..

den I window shop ard Tiong bahru and ..den went to amk... to meet jz...

after dat.. went Mos burger..eat and wait for the candi and cy.. den WEnt to KBox..

zzzz Sing... Till 3am supper and home sweet home... Was VEry Tired...

Stupid Driver... bluff my $$ $30 FOR CAB FARE... WTF!

deN ofF my hp... sound and went to slp... So when i woke up... WOO hp flooded with

SMs...deN saw CAndi sms.. And call her.. she ask if wanna meet up... ltr..

so i told her.. ar bo Come Cck find me.. nua 1st lor haha she say she dun mind..

so she came... den.. cy also came... den jz also ... den actaulyl plan to watch

movie... but i lazy haha but cos.. it rained.. so nv go out.. for movie...

so i suggest with play poker and drink lor.. i Open my Bottle of Jack Daniel...

den all drink till Seh seh... BOO~! ytd still went out Whole day.. with gege...

TIred TIred Tired.. Yeah finalLy.. Exhuasted le.. body Can't take it anymore ~

2007-08-23T00:50:00.000+08:00

tIred~ busy~

boREd~ Stone~

no mOre Nuaing~

dYing~ heART dead~

gRastric Serious~

very TiRed~

hao lei hao lei

2007-08-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

bOO... THink i quiTe busy Recently~

dId i Ever Mention in my blog? tHAt i Took uP a TEMP iT Assgment

for ard 1 mnth... At Bugis Office Tower! IES...

haha 1st day GO.. See another TEMP staff is uncle~ *faint*

deN xian 1/2 lolx.. den haha LUCKY my Team Leader... lolx Tall Tall guy..

haha consider not bad Looking ba.. wOO VERY TALL i think slightly more den 1.80m

frm my 1st day... 08-08-07 till now.. Everyday eat with him..liz and noOr.. wOO..

they Are frndly and kind Souls... :) ENjoy Working with Them.. haha

i Also Very harDworking.. they are nice to ME.. :) haha

But tODAY .. already VERY tired yet.. was Pissed off with 2 users..

lolx.. gOt one very NASTY tERRIBLE~!!!!HORRIBLE ~ bully ME SOBZ another..one..

very TRoublesome~!!! poO~! xian xian xiAn...

Oh yar and my Application one WHOISGOIN.com.sg have bEEn approved~ SO I am a junior

ambassador right now.. haha .. SO this thurs MOS got EVENT anyone want tix??? msg mE~!!!!!

2007-08-13T02:15:00.000+08:00

- Toughts of the Day -

没有希望就不会有失望

不是你的勉强也不会幸福

不想就不会有烦恼

放弃是位一的选者

2007-08-13T01:57:00.000+08:00

Was Toking to gege Today abt.. BGR.. thing..

deN we Heard somthing... that's quite true.. on 93.3FM

and is actually wad i told Gege also...

交朋友最重要是。。。出去时的感觉开心就好。。

不要想太多。。。也不要管对方的朋友。。。

Was discussing this with gege..

Meaning somtimes.. when a Female go out with a Male frn..

Like got feeling for each other.. Yet cos not close yet..

sO somehow abit like act till Too courteous like dat...

anD Feeling bECame Weird...

And Sometimes.. JusT Sometimes.. .

When both got abit of Feeling for each other??

yET the TiminG is COmplEtely..

And WOrst Thing is When 1 tRies to Think Too MuCh...

The One Who thinks.. WiLL actually suFFers Alot in Pain...

Want to Say can't Say..out Want to ask also can't AsK...

And The Other Party also dunno.. Then When This Happens..

It became worst when u Actaully Go out with that person Yet ..

he/she dOesn't kNow.. That U are Actaully Suffering...

fRM ur Own 压力 ... And sometimes can lead To breakDown.. of Own's Feeling~!

Was Telling Gege somthing like dat happen To me.. previously..

but Tell gege.. just dun think So much den.. no Stress le lor..

was Trying to make him understands.. that.. sometimes its like dat de lar

Just Take it Easy lor.. and Dun think Too much den.. dats ALL..

2007-08-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

你道歉　你難過　於是我給你笑容

誰在乎我的心　還會不會寂寞

＃曾經以為等待會改變什麼　你總會屬於我
　但是最後時間證明了　你只喜歡我

你退縮　你冷漠　於是我放開雙手
不在乎我的心　會永遠的寂寞

2007-08-07T03:54:00.000+08:00

dUnno isit becos last nite saw thier pics..

wOke up dreamt of them... again.

wOke up ard 10am.. den watched 换换爱 ep 10. after dat...

ate breakfast.. den nua all thE way till 2pm..

bathed prepare and rush off to clark quay..

Met that guy andrew.. A shortie.. weLL in the End ya Sort of Wasted my trip.

SLM... zzz rUshed off to meet jz,lt for tea break.. tok cok for ard 1 and 1/2 hr..

Den they waited with me till my cousin knock oFF..

Went to Tiong bahru collect her heels.. den makan.. and walk walk awhile and

weNt home.. surf net.. chat with frns.. surf frnster.. and saw a msg frm weikun.

Didn't really rem... but.. lolx to think that ya his my classmate in my pri sch

for a few yrs and went to the same sec sch.. being schmate..

wELL we Chated for quite long.. on msn... den watched the drama till now..

finally finished the serials...

StIll can't slp... weLL i Should faster try to slp.. aR bo ltr OBAK...

scared ppl lolx..

2007-08-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

weLL... dIdn't gO Mos on sat nite...

weNt tO meet Gege, meimei, cheng and mike...

went To geylang tO makan 豆浆油条 ..

den after dat went to east cOast...

I suddenly gastric.. but i nv tell them.. so just 忍

have bEen Thinking about wad haPpen to me..recently

I think I changed alot... even da gu and some of my frns.. say so..

I like beginning to be more and more anti-social... anti-hyper...

Very Low~ ... eVen that nite They were toking this and that...

I did Not really listen to wad They are toking.. just siting back facing them..

Looking at the Stars in the sky... and listening to mp3 on gege's PSP...

I think i really becAme very quiet le.. hm... dunno y... xianz~!

SOmetimes.. when TOking.. My soul will suddenly fly to dunno where like dat..

very Fast i wiLL not be inTerested in the Topic.. we are toking...

OMg waD haPPen TO me.. xiAnz~!!! Zzz I am the one..

asking wad time Are we gOing home..tOt oF goiNg home Early.. to Rest..

So dat Today Can wake up earLy.. for the audition..

In the End.. i try to slp ard 3 plus.. but.. lolx can't Slp dunno y..

Anyway .. lolx I didn't make it trough the audition..

sHy went with me... and I came out and shake my head..

lolx Anyway I expected tat outcome tOo... Didn't really take it very serious...

Den after dat Went to PS .. to walk ard till 4.30 meet sam and sen...

Den all like very tired and nua.. nv really walked much .. went To Wisma TopMAns

Sam say wanna try the purple top.. but me and shy told him not nice..

Den after dat we went up starbucks.. to drink cOffee...

DEn my ringTone rang.. lolx den i started to sing the chorus of the 不能说的秘密

den Shy scold me..say.. neh u can sing wad .. even better den me...

Y dun wan to sing properly during Audition... lolx..

I told her.. actaully dun go in better like dat i can stOp dreaming and

find a proper job.. and face the reality lolx ...

lala den after dat.. went pepper lunch for dinner only sen and sam eat...

lol we watched them eat... cos we eat lunch abit late.. still very full that time.

den after dat.. shy went home.. we 3 went cini... sen and sam.. play billard.. while

sit down there play sen's PSp..wOO nice gAME haha ~!!! till 9pm.. den i took 190 hm.

lolx think i crAzy... Keep Trying to Rub Salt on My Own WoUnds..

lolx See thier pic again...but i totally no Feeling.. lolx

Den after that went to Delete his Pic frm my Yahoo Account

haben have the time to Do it.. haha fianlly ... deleted...

Tml Having aN IntERviEW~ laLa... at Clark Quay area~ lala

2007-08-02T19:39:00.000+08:00

FianLLy.. starting tO reCover le~

just Finish Drinking my HL milk~ yummy yummy

nicenice :) I love Milk Milk~ hehe

I wana Eat Fries~~!!!! arGH!! I wan To Eat cHeeZe Prata~!!!

I WAna EaT piZzaS~!!! sO much CravingZ.

I wAnna Go out! i wanna Go dRink... i Wanna gO club~!!!!

I wana Go haVe FUN~!!! I wana knOW more GUYs~ lolx

I wanA try To have A relationship again~!!!!!

haha... think i aM boRed to Death le~

不能说的秘密 LYRICS

2007-08-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

周杰倫不能说的秘密 LYRICS

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐(oh~~)
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
又何必去改變你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖指示我說再見
想象你在身邊在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

2007-08-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

-Thoughts oF the Day-

说不出的感受
表达不出的难过
过了不知多久
最终只能忍住无奈
选择离开。

-[小爱]-

hM.. thiS is Created from the Idea of Jay's song.

不能说的秘密
==========

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

2007-07-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

-dOen't know-

He dOesn't know...that I miss him..

He dOesn't know...that I have qNs for him..

He dOesn't know... everything anything...

2007-07-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

吳建豪-放手 mv

a frn Recommend me this song.. nice mv.. not bad not bad..

the model quite pretty..

2007-07-29T23:06:00.001+08:00

-棒棒堂-阿本之歌-阿本来就是阿本-

wOo his So cuTe~

haha wELL i am Watching a New Drama...

18禁不禁

~ AlonE ~

2007-07-29T07:19:00.000+08:00

~ AlonE ~

He said though he know his not the one...

but Still can cared for me as a frn ma..

He: Y u keep pushing me away?

Am i? Maybe ba... I know Alot of ppl.. cared for me.. yet..

Ya I am pushing them away or I am pulling myself out..

Y? cOs.. I scared of Bees... ~ dun wannaBe TOo close to guys..

COs.. Scare I might Fell into Another Hole~ again~...

and End up with Alot of Scars... or bruises...

I know I dun need Anyone~ ... I can be very WeLL alone~ ...

I know I am Stronger den anyone of u~...

当天还是那么蓝，云还是那么潇洒，我就不应该哭，应为你的离去，并没有带走我的世界。。。

2007-07-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

-gIve Up-

With The Sickness... All i can do is to Give up

Tml's Audition... :(

2007-07-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

-辛苦-

Can U guys imagine? Me sTay AT home... nv go out fOR 1 WHole Week???

haiz~ is this my punishMent??? Is the God telling me that I should StoP aLL

my RuBBish already??? stOP drinking, clubbing, going out... and eveything???

To Let me realisez I should Stop wasting My TIme already???

that I have RESTED enugh??? REminding Me that Its TIMe.. For a Change ???

haiz.. Y must I be so seriously Ill??? tO reALize that...

Previously I have just ...wasted My time... $$ without Any meaning???

If reALLy thats the CAse.. Ok.. I Have Thought Things Through

PLease let me GEt WELL soon So that i CAn Go and Start my new life!!!!

Please PLease Please... Let ME REECOEVER aFTER tONITE slp!!!!! already SIck..

until i totally no STrenght le.. I know I have REST TOtALLY enugh...

PLease Give me My health BACK~ so that I can Go start a new LIFE!!!! please please..

2007-07-28T07:01:00.000+08:00

-Thoughts of the Day-

当天还是那么蓝，云还是那么潇洒，

你就不应该哭，应为我的离去，

并没有带走你的世界。。。

2007-07-27T15:46:00.000+08:00

~ sEriousLy iLL ~

I have bEEn Sick Since Tuesday.

Tot abit fever nia so i took Med... and slp..

WEd morning wake up high fever 38.6 den no choice go SEe dOc...

mom and Korkor also dunno.. i very sick... no choice.. but still able to eat..

den went to buy porridge~ den sEn and Sammy came my house that Nite to burn Mp3

for saMmy's chalet...And left my huse ard 2.30 am... den i go slp...

Thursaday Monring Wake up.. wOrst.. my TEmp Actually Went up to 39.1 deg.

And was quite worried..and try to wake my mom up to tell her...

deN mom ask me drink salt-water... my throat starts to hurts alot...

den i tOld mom doc nv give me anti-biotics...

and den i try to take med..and cool down my temp by using Cold water with towel..

Eventually my fever subsided.. and but ard evening time.. it came up again..

and my thoats really hurts alot.. do last time went TO clinic again..

to SEe the doc.. den.. frns.. and korkor say ask me to ask if it is dengue..

den i ask DOc.. DOc.. say no Rashes..leh.. should not be dengue.. he say..

becos of the throat...

say see if the next 2 days still fever den go see him.. do the bloOd test..

or see if my body gO rashes..:(

TOday wakeup// Worst.. totally can't Swallow Water...

my throat hurts dunno like wad... super Pain.. can' swallow water ..

can't swallow pills...so drag till abit late den took med..

but that time my temp went abit up again sobsob..really very pain...

feels like crying.. also no strenth.. today i just keep lying on my bed...

try to eat steam egg and white porridge also can't really hurts alot.. i forced

myself to swallow but.. only manage to swallow 3 mouth..

den felt very giddy den afaster took med.. and went back to bed..

was thinking if i Got the 'MAo Dan' so called mom to ask her how to TESt..

all she did was to scOLD ME.. say.. must drink the 'Lingyang' and ask me take med..

and KPKB.. en nv ans my question... i very Pissed off so just hang up the phone..

thEN thiink she Worried also.. even Called ah ma to tok to me... -_-|||

Ah Ma.. called me.. just now.. tok to me nicely.. ask me..

say fever must drink water...pain also must drink ... if not how to recover...

but it really hurts alot..den ask me.. go eat or not..

i told her.. can't swallow... water already can't swallow how to swallow egg and

porridge>? xianz... den ah ma.. say if tml.. can asK me.. go ah ma.. house..

they take care of me.. sobsob I told ah ma..

i whole day just lay on the bed no strngth to get out of bed lor...

know they all very worried...but i really very xinku can't swallow anything..

not i dun wan to eat or dirnk lor..den told ah ma ltr liling (my dear cousin)

will be coming to visit me... so ask her not to worry...

thoughts of the day

2007-07-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

~ Thoughts of the day ~

"
不要刻意的追求爱，应为那样会很容易受伤。

当爱情来得时候，也许你根本都不知道。

但是当失去的时候，你就会肯定他的存在。 "

But don’t go pursuing it. You’ll open urself to hurt.

Love may sneak up on you unaware. But when you lost it,

you’ll be sure of its existence.

Qutoed from ep 19 of A chinese Ghost Story.

- 脆弱 -

2007-07-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

- 脆弱 -

当一个人生病时。。人是不是都会变脆弱？

忽然好想要有一个依靠。。。

忽然好想要被人呵护。。。

好想好想躲进怀里。。。

鄭秀文脆弱 LYRICS

＊爱　它已经困住我　透不出一点光　能够指引找到出口
　泪　它匆匆流干我　内心所有坚强　无法可想无话可说

＃想要伴着你　又怕被操纵　我想问为什么　却问不出口
　我装得很冷漠　却只是受尽折磨　害怕苦与罪　却很难回头

☆谁看出这样的女人内心里是脆弱
　一半梦　一半苦涩　一生都寂寞
　能不能贪点时间换一些感动
　承认吧　我也需要更多的欢乐

睡吧　白天的伪装　剩下来是脆弱
你的笑你的眼光快把我淹没
明白后又能如何　不愿意放纵
忍不住也要忍着　去唱这首哀歌　谁懂我

Repeat ＊＃☆

睡吧　白天的伪装　剩下来是脆弱
你的笑你的眼光快把我淹没
明白后又能如何　不愿意放纵
忍不住也要忍着　去唱这首哀歌

△幸福的泡沫　永远难捉摸　彼此痛苦都太多
　男人的温柔　来去像一阵风　不要存心敷衍我
　我不是弱者　只求面对自我　痛也痛得很光荣
　我只想摆脱　所有的脆弱　把一些自尊留给我

Repeat △

-sIck-

2007-07-24T05:35:00.000+08:00

- sIck -

cOugH cOugh cOuGH...

Cough Non-stOp...

finally trying tO go slp NOW~! zzz

deCide to start 'it' again~

looK out for my hard WOrk~~~

wIll trY to finish ASAP.

周杰伦自导自演　《不能说的秘密》故事梗概

2007-07-23T02:36:00.001+08:00

周杰伦自导自演　《不能说的秘密》故事梗概
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　　关键字：不能说的秘密周杰伦(最新动态、个人档案、FLASHMV专辑) 桂纶镁黄秋生(最新动态、个人档案) 故事梗概

《不能说的秘密》
小伦(周杰伦饰)与父亲(黄秋生饰)相依为命，父亲是淡江艺术中学的音乐老师，小伦自小在他的熏陶下，拥有非凡的音乐才华。

这天是小伦转读淡江艺术中学的第一天，当他跟着同学小依(曾恺玹饰)参观校园时，突被一段神秘的钢琴乐曲吸引。

赛德让男女高潮不断我与早泄老公的日子湿疣疱疹婚姻的杀手
湿疣疱疹—德国新药患湿疣疱疹别滥用药战胜肝病—全球震惊
45岁前停经不正常!! 征服女人的秘密武器猛男让女人高潮尖叫

小伦随着琴音引领，走进一间百年琴室，发现弹琴者是一位清秀脱俗的女生小雨(桂伦镁饰)，两人虽然没有交谈，但在四目交投之间，双方都泛起微妙的感觉。

原来小雨是小伦的同班同学，由于冒失的小雨上课时总是迟到，故经常被迫和坐在后排的小伦坐在一起，两人的感情因此突飞猛进，更到达互相分享秘密的阶段；但每当小伦问及那天在百年琴室所听到的神秘乐曲时，小雨总是模棱两可地回答：“那是一个不能说的秘密……”。

距离毕业的日子越来越近，小雨决定向小伦公开神秘乐曲的秘密，于是相约小伦在琴室相见，小伦以字条回复小雨：“今晚琴房7:30，我也告诉你一个秘密”；怎料字条在阴差阳错之下，竟落在暗恋小伦多时的小依手上。

当晚小伦在琴室边奏着小雨喜欢的乐章边等待着，突然一双温暖的手盖着小伦的眼睛，双方情不自禁地拥吻起来，直至小伦张开眼睛，方知对方不是小雨而是小依；与此同时，小伦听到小雨的哭泣声从门外远去，小伦疯狂地追出去，但小雨早已芳踪杳然。

小雨自此仿如人间蒸发，音讯全无。小伦向同学打听小雨的下落，同学竟说从不知有小雨这个人。小伦到小雨家造访，竟被当成瞎撞。小伦翻看点名册，赫然惊觉名册上也没有出现小雨的名字……

直至小伦发现一张父亲和小雨的合照，向父亲追问关于小雨的一切，小伦方知小雨的出现绝非偶然，一切源自一首神秘的乐曲和一个不可告人的秘密……

~ 不能說的秘密 ~

2007-07-23T01:52:00.000+08:00

~ 不能說的秘密 ~

Heard this movie is coming out soon~!!! I wana watched~ lolx...

wOO...

The Song not bad quite nice.. MV below ~>>>

2007-07-23T01:41:00.000+08:00

When gege buying the PSP... the salesman.. was playing the song..

heard it today cos they keep repeating.. den I realize wad the songs is abt...

den I realisez that song GOt a Meaning..one.. Tmd.. noW den I know..

I AM SLOW! ...

~ tIreD ~.

2007-07-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

~ tIreD ~.

sLP at 6am.. wake up at 12 noon..

deN gege Called went out with mei mei and gege...

weNt to queensway to makan.. i just ate 油条 and 豆浆...

no much appetite... think TOo tired le.. den after dat went to ViVO...

shop ard.. but.. i very Tired not much mood to shop also...

deN gege Bought A PSP ...anD den rush oFf to buy his gf her bday present..

and we WEnt to chervons to sing... den the last 1/2 hr.. gege and mike disappear..

den after our last song we went out tO find gege.. I was Stunted~ wHen i Saw...

the scar on GeGE's hand... mike told me.. dat Bitch just broke off with gege..

den gege Use CIggs to burn himself.. I see le felt very sad..

den My eyes very red... hoW can she Bully my Gege like dat...

gege vEry sad, he also dunno wad he doing.. den smk and smk and smk...

I very worried for him.. :( I hate that bitch... all along also dun really like

her... now still bully my gege..~!!!! xiaojiayi also very hate her... tmd.~!!!

Lets Hope gege will get it over SOon~

~ 黑色幽默 ~

2007-07-22T12:23:00.000+08:00

~ 黑色幽默 ~

black humor is like satire, its like, kind of laughing at the misfortune of others, have you seen american beauty? That movie is filled with it. In this song, that is what he is talking about. He thinks that the girl is playing games with him and he is confused if she is serious or not.

2007-07-22T05:35:00.000+08:00

要找一个懂我的人已经很难了，何况是一个爱我的人。。。

TiLL noW... at the agE of 23... i Think only Jeremy

is the Only Guy in My life who truLy understands..me

WhenEver I am sad or.. fEEls trouble.. I dun even have to Tell him

anything.. straight away he knows... we weRe once So Closed...

buT howEver... we Lost contact eventually...

anyway not Even... that bastard.. understands..me..lorz

though... There is another frn.. where I think he is quite similiar to Jeremy

but somehow... its just like dat... maybe i just wanna find back the feeling when

times were back to sec sch... where Jeremy.. is the only one..

wHo treat me very nice and gd...as A frn~

2007-07-22T04:52:00.001+08:00

fail my 2nd TP... and break into Tears..once i reached..home..

very saD... so sad.. haiz... try so hard.. yet still failed..

Too Nervous... le.. saddiEz... and Decide to ask Chinchin out..

for ClubbIng..

sAY is to 安慰 her.. actaully is I very sad and aNgry At Myself,

also craving... For clubbing lar... All their fault who ask them..

Kc, sam and sen nv wait for me to Go Club... they wEnt MOs on friday..

Where I be gd ger stay at home slp...

sO just now Went TO DBL O with Kc and Chinchin.. Angela and her ahmad came..ltr..

Guess the only time i Am Free from troubles.. and Worries.. and truly bE happy is

When I am On thE daNce Floor... Letting out all my engery....

Oh yA b4 dat I went Ah ma House.. heE Am So LucKy cos.. i Last Min decide to go de..

and Ah Ma Cooked My fAV Soup~ Lotus Black bean Soup~~ 好喝~！ lolx Also Have Rojah~

lol...aGain... da Gu..lolx mention .. abt.. wELL dun be So dishearted abt the Fail

relationship.. sayiNg next Time can Find a beTter One... WeLl hahA sOry I dun

bElieve in TRue love anyMore..

wELl when I still yOung Maybe... very Like To find a BF... a Guy who reaLLy loves

me, care for me.. and dotes.. me.. but.. Com on ..TELl me.. How Much LOVE can cost??

aLL U get Is a Guy who Pin all ur bubbles... trash ur hopes.. make u DisappointED

and gIve u emPty PromisEs... aLL guys.. are the SAMe.. !!

Chin Chin say ur buddy KC not bad...one.. lolx ask me consider..

dawn mention dat TOo.. since we sO click can go ktV 2 person.. sing and Sing.. lolx

haha erm,, haha ya Kc consider not bad..lar but he 1 yr yonger lor heLLO...lolx

haha KC, sam & sen all 3 are Super nice guys~... belIve they wIll treat Their GF

very nice de.. but.. lol 3 i also very Close de..lorx cOme On.. lolx they dun treat

me as A Ger de lor.. to them I am A GUY~!!!! thats Y we SO click~ lolx they Are my

gaY buDDies.. I love Them sO much~ ... wad My life will be if theY didn't appEAR ???

2007-07-20T05:36:00.000+08:00

~MaPleMaple~

hAha started playing frm Ytd,..~ lala

ahah so happy can play with nini... though she in US~

muackZ love her So much~ lolx

PICTURE of the DAY~ haha

zzz played till I gastric le..~ thats ALl fOLKs.. Bedding Time~

歌曲：害怕

2007-07-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

歌曲：害怕
歌手：林俊杰专辑：第二天堂

wu~~~~~~~~~~~wo~~~~~~~~~~~
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
*我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

~Shit~

2007-07-16T12:59:00.000+08:00

~Shit~

stuPid.. think i really quite drunk... last nite...

gege called me.. ask me go out.. den ask y I sounds..so gloomy..

I : sTill Seh ma...

I : Uncle 我昨天喝多少leh。。

den Gege start scolding me...lolx.. he say nobody ask me to drink... SO much lor..

den say I keep saying Uncle, 我喝多少。。...lolx I tot i only today just tell him.. this.. only..

he said i last nite keep repeating... this... lolx... haha .. xianz.. Think i must really be drunk...

Totally NO idea abt...wad I had done or tok last nite..lolx morning Wake up...

also can't even walk properly..zzz lolx... tmd... haha ok lar..

since i also long time nv drink till like dat..le..but Hang Over.. not very Gd.. fEELing..

tIred.. head spinning... gong gong~ stoning... xianz xianz xianx....

Right now.. GOt to Drink Alot of Green Tea.. den ltr still Goin out with

gege... mei mei and cheng...

Recently.. duno y.. keep having.. headaches.. till migranes... and each time..

last for 1/2 day... Wanted to Pop panadols.. But.. haiz.. I just have to endure the pain

cos I can't panadols.. Got phobia... unless fever den take..zZzz den ytd took 2 sts frm gege..

and asked isit becos.. I stop le..dats y... gege say.. ya.. if suddenly stops..

will somehow have withdrawal effects.. den i say Orh... den actually last nite at chervons..

after the 1st mug of beer.. It smoothens the Pain... evntually my headaches.. actually have

gone..

~ SuNday ~

2007-07-16T08:38:00.000+08:00

~FianLLY Drunk~

ydT... Met Sam 2pm at Orchard Mrt... and we Went to Far East..

To Window shop...lolx For me.. we shop ard... and i tried some... Shades..

He say big one.. Nice... lolx... Asked Sam... My new Hairstlye Nice? he say nice..

lolx but not Punk enugh...lolx.. he say wanted tO Help me style...

haha Woo long Time nv Meet SAm and ah Sen.. Miss Them.. so Much...

GueSSed WAd? i really miss them.. alot.. and I love them.. so Much...

They are the Ones.. When I am so DOwn.. With wad Happen tat time..

They Are my dearest... help me...accompanY..me... through my darkest Part of Life..

WiLL nv Ever Forget them.,,muaKz... haha.. 3.30.. I acc.. SAM to weELock PLace... TO MTM

He book a Trail treament foR his EYe bag... haha SAm's $$ so Easy TO earn...

LucKy i Was there with him... Lolx SAVE HIM!!!!! ar bo i think he WOuld.. just SPent his $$$.

dEN Ah sen Came..TOO..haha We TOOk Some Pictures... in MTM... wOO nice nice...

haha .. WeLL then After dat..weNt back to Far East .. Conitue..shopping.. SAM bought A pair..

Of Pants.. Which both Sen and I toT WAsn't very Nice... but..lolx.. as eXpected... I knew he will

buy. tHen Told Ah Sen... : 'Sam's $$ very easy To earn ... Next time.. I got $$ I Open a Boutique

Just Selling Guys... clothing.. and.. Put Some xiao mei mei tHere serve him.. he sure buy... lolx.'

Sen LuFF..lolx gagaga...lallaa after dat.. we Went to ... the level 4?... to EAt diiner Culet rice..

den went TO cIne... Sen 'DaBao' Chicken rice.. for SAmmy.. and bring to Taka.. to find her..

and Acc her.. till she finish her dinner.. while me and Sam.. went to Cinie....to find CLover..

FianLLY.. Bought my Clover.. WOo Ex... $24.90 just for a Hp ...Accessory.. den That time..

gege Called.. me.. ask me where am i...Told gege..I was at Cinie... Then he said he was with

Xiaojiaoyi & cheng at The Califonial Fitness....then Ask me..how if wanting to meet them...

but they leaving Town.. Told gege i Will go find them ltr... sTill Choosing my CLover for quite

some time..just 5 mins.. ltr after gege called.. gege Called again...

GEGE: Mei mei~

Me: huh? simi?

GeGE: GUESS WAD~

Me: ???

GEGE : I SAW ur EX~~!!!

Me : where?

GEGE: califonial there.lorz.. walking towards... somerset MRT..

ME: huh huh.. really ar.. with a GEr huh?

Gege: Not yet.. alone...

Me: Ok~ .. SHIT~

.................................................................................

shit.. AFter dat.. I started feeling very Nervous.. unwell.. i very scare will meet..him..

And its.. quite obvious.. that I started.. to nervous.. den i TOld sam..

and when SEN came.. he ask me.. eh wad happen..? den i told him.. he said wont so suay de lar..

lets GO play Pool.... den i Started Stonning.. they tried to Crack Jokes.. on my Ex..

I knoew they trying to make me Feels.. better... haiz.. den I started having my Migrane...

ard 9pm.. ended the Pool... den went to Long JOhn... and...Sen wanted to makan...

den.. after dat we tOk abt clubbling... his gf.. my ex.. dat bitch.. and alot of stuffs.. till ard

9.45pm Den I Took 502 Express tO Chervons.. Find gege they all...

and drank gege's beeer...and Singin...After dat,, I felt no enugh.. told gege.. so how?

and Finally decided to go to XiaoJiayi's Place...

acc her back and went to 7-11 to buy half dozen beer.. and me one person drink again..

This time.. I am .. Drunk.. and after dat Took cab home.. Was Totally.. OFF...zzz

Did not have the energy anymore.. just drop dead on to bed.. till now. den Took oFF my Lens..

remove my make up... and while removing my make up... i saw my Eye liner.. drop...

not sure if Last nite,.. I cried or not.. totally forgotten..wad happen..

only know i drink and drink.. and drink and drink .. gege was on the phone with 'M' his ex..

me just drinking and drinking.. while xJiayi playing with her puppies... Piano and Misty..

WOo i Really love Piano Alot she is so cute...den now still thinking if i actually had cry.. zzz now..

very seh.. abit hang over..reaLLy.. fianlly Drunk? WOoo

《世界上最远的距离》

2007-07-15T12:40:00.000+08:00

好几百年光阴流过去了，在与长江同样重要的河流--恒河边上，也有一位和李之仪一样蘸着水声作诗的人。他面前的涛声却化作《世界上最远的距离》：

“ 世界上最远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最远的距离
不是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱

却不能在一起......”

印度诗人泰戈尔和中国词人李之仪，太相似的是大江流日夜，客心悲未央。太不相似的是：后者，用心灵克服距离；前者，用心灵制造距离。

甚至，泰戈尔索性说：

“ 世界上最远的距离
是尚未相遇
便注定无法相聚

世界上最远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天

一个却深潜海底”

Link: http://linan.blshe.com/post/73/41967

错了再错

2007-07-14T04:34:00.000+08:00

歌曲：错了再错
歌手：张栋梁专辑：王子

退到了绝境再退破碎到不能破碎
能挽回什么你就不肯说
我只能猜疑却都错
泪水灌溉这伤悲绝望是你赐给的安慰
为何你说谎我却受惩罚
你不如就用刀刺下
我可以痛了再痛你可以错了再错
不甘心不闪躲只为那失真的承诺
我转身让你玩着火你存心用尽我宽容
为什么连谎言你也刺破
爱或痛彼此纠结悲和我无法分解
厌倦的疲累成了一片黑
伤痛都已无法消灭
泪水滋润着泪水背叛是你另一种慰藉
完美的借口泪无辜留下
你不如用乱箭射吧
即使我头也不回这悲剧猛向我追
情愿你全部摧毁别留着燎原的火堆
给你的自由将我吞没
给我的爱像一根绳索
你放手却捆住了我
不甘心不闪躲全为了失真的承诺
为什么连谎言你也给刺破
为什么连谎言你也不说

~ Sentosa ~

2007-07-13T14:36:00.000+08:00

~ Sentosa 09/07/2007 ~

Pictures Up~

xIaoJiayi brought her 2 doggies...aLong.. the puppy in black is called 'Piano'

the White one is called 'Misty' I like Piano... she's so Cute.. dun U think so??

lolx i aLways.. like Dogs Since young.. I rem there's once i told my dad that

I wana a Dog as my bday present when i was quite young...

Den He Told my Aunt to buy me a Dog Softtoy... -_- lolx but i Told him i wanted real one..

He said cannot i still TOo yOung .. Can't even take care of Myself.. how to Own a DOg..

sobsob...Nvm.. now i can't Own.. next time..if I will get married...

den My husband must be a Dog Lover..lolx he must buy me one...

if I nv get married in the End.. I will buy myself.. 1 haha...

KBOX

2007-07-13T09:19:00.000+08:00

~ KBOX Lastnite ~

wELl went to Kbox Lot1 with Kc...

haha Omg we are crazy lolx

2 person ktv for 5 hrs..

haha and the last 30 mins... with just keep repeating 2 songs...

1. I Still believe.. (cos KC.. wanna train that song..)

2. 窗外（I also wanna train this song cos nv sing b4 only
last nite lolx but KC is Gd at this song..
even taught me how to sing the female part.. haha）

sO we just keep repeating this 2 sOngs.. lolx

wOo like Long time nv sing till SO Shiok~

hm..KBOx system.. still The Best..and my Fav~ lolx

漩涡

2007-07-13T01:49:00.000+08:00

歌曲：漩涡
歌手：孙燕姿专辑：逆光

总装着很有把握
不准爱渗入生活
才发现闯了祸
让你当真以为我的心上了锁
让你绝望地走
成全独立的我
好想捂住耳朵
不想不看不想听谁说
好想蹲在角落
把谴责的眼光都躲过

像个黑色漩涡
将我吞没
悔恨已逃不脱

我承认这都是我
感情事处理得不妥
从不说
我爱你
那么多

原来人可能脆弱
爱让我很难振作
我坐在最前座
人生第一次面对什么叫落寞
经历你这一走
最大傻瓜是我

我不要谁好心帮我
每个人像在隔岸观火
看我犯错
提醒我说
都是我的错
提醒我说
逼你离开我

就算同情是条绳索
我也没办法伸出双手
拯救自己(除了你)
除非是你(拯救我)
肯回头(为了我)
扭转这个结果